I am by nature deeply suspicious, yet despite this nature I detect no deception in the offering of the kudzu product here and therefore at present am looking forward to placing the order. But of course I just said "deep rooted problem", and therefore I expect difficulties ahead, whether predicted or not, and I'm posting now to test the waters.
So, I don't expect the kudzu to arrive, to start taking it, and the same day to experience zero cravings and to look back at the problem as an issue of history, but at the same time having been addicted for a long time I'm not sure what to expect and have a fear of the future, whether that future be alcoholic, moderated or alcohol free.
Living in the UK, how long can I expect to wait, potential customs issues included, for the product to arrive? Will I require to dry out entirely for a day, 2 days, 3 days etc before starting to use the product (I can do this if I have a reasonable expectation of future success), or will the product have an effect say the first morning after a night-time binge (I don't wake up first thing in the morning and drink - it typically occurs around 5pm in the evening)?
Can I expect it to help me moderate? I have just turned 26, therefore consider myself quite young and I am not yet willing to admit defeat to alcohol after severe childhood abuse. Having 100% emotionally distanced myself from my abuser I intend to use an interim solution, eg the kudzu or prescription medication to help me get other aspects of my life in order (particularly paid employment), and then use the resultant stability to help maintain the moderated drinking lifestyle obtained through the meds. Given this attitude, will I require further non-medical supplementation to the kudzu, and if yes, of what form?
I have now re-read everything that I've written a few times and feel happy with it. So I guess I'm reaching out to people further on in the journey of recovery at this point by saying am I onto a winner or not? What can I expect from the kudzu; indeed before I place the first order is it a worthwhile investment, & if yes, will I need to take it for a long time to avoid relapse? (Btw, AA and psychotherapy has typically been a disastrous and destructive behaviour reinforcing failure every time for me, so please don't inform me of these options - I have thought about them).
Thanks so much for reading.
Mike.
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