welcome to Q and wxyz!
I'm on my 6th day of Nal. My head is doing better, as is my soul, because I am convinced (pretty much) that I am doing the right thing. Progress... Well, that's a different story. I am an all-day-drinker. I HAVE been successful at taking the Nal when I start to crave (usually 11 AM- 12 noon). And I have been successful at holding out for the interminably LONG hour to have a drink.
I do feel guilty, though. I've made the commitment, spent the money, got the meds and the book, so my expectation of myself is that I should be drinking less. I have to CONSTANTLY remind myself that I AM doing this right.
(FYI - My mom spent + 20 years sober with AA.... Abstinence was/ is THE rule... Feeling like I'm breaking the rules!!)
Stated a few days ago that I was feeling patient. I'm not feeling so patient right now.
I have SO much at risk. My relationship w/ my SO depends on me getting this monster under control. He knows that I'm doing the Sinclair Method and he is supportive, BUT, I don't know that he is aware that I might get drunk for 3-4 more months before I start to get better. My grown daughters are totally sick of seeing their mom drunk on a nightly basis.
I KNOW that the SM is my best option, but the waiting is SO DAMN HARD!
We are on a promising but difficult path (No easy paths for alcoholics)
SR, Potato, and RV9,
Please keep posting!! you are giving the rest of us the hope that our choice to follow the Sinclair method will help/work!
in a vacuum,
Vic
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