Why?
Simply because I realised that I had "forgotten" to take my ante-buse for a few days and I could "risk" having a few drinks after work. I did not get drunk, but I got careless and left my cash in clear view for all to see. Is that just not a typical addict scenario?
Anyway, as much as ante buse helps, the cravings never really go. When I first heard of Baclofen, it just sounded too good to be true. I asked a Psychiatrist about it, and much to my suprise, she knew nothing about the drug in reducing cravings.
After a boozy weekend, I am just fed up. I am going to see a GP with lots of printed material and ask him to subscibe the medication for me. I seldom see a doctor, so this is going to be a bit of a shot in the dark. It is the same doctor who wrote me up for ante-buse after 2 other doctors had refused. They did not believe that my drinking problem was serious enough.
Just shows how the medical profession buys into all the myths about addiction.
I think my biggest concern about Baclofen is the worry about drowsyness and being spaced out. I am busy working on a new project that is going to require a lot of energy and motivation.
At the same time, I do think that my anxiety can sometimes get in the way of my work. I procrastinate on important matters because my anxiety levels build up without me even realising it. In particular I have an almost phobic reaction to picking up the phone to make vital calls. Maybe the baclofen could even help with that problem.
Anyway, here's to a new challenge
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