Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

[louise]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

Well you have only been on it a few days and didn't get out of control. And good for you for displaying your passion! I hope you feel proud of yourself.

[Siwan]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

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[startingover]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

[QUOTE][I can honestly say that I feel more alive AF than I ever did drinking. And it's consistent - you wake up the next morning and it's still there...QUOTE]

That is the most amazing thing I have ever heard you say...very very proud of you Zenny :l

[veritas]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

Zenstyle, you are so right.

I woke up this morning feeling like crap. I even tried to cancel my first client of the day, something I never do, no matter how bad I have felt.

I did not feel well until a little after midday, then I was on a roll again.

I finished work again fairly late and found the usual group of revellers. I joined them and thought, "well let's drink and see what happens".

I am home after two glasses of wine. Strange thing is that my head tells me that it has had four glasses.

I really loved the evening. I also realise that my biggest problem is my lack of confidence. I know that I am a very competent, thoughful, kind, funny person,................ but my mind can only accept that after a couple of drinks.

When I am sober I second guess myself at every point, once I am tipsy I can just be more self assured.

[veritas]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

Well, I am on 10mg three times a day now. I really struggled with nausea and feeling just horrible. It was almost a relief to me when I started with a sore throat. My horrible feeling was most likely related to the fact that I am getting a cold or flu. I have never been more happy to get sick, at least it's not related to the medication.

The thought of drinking is a complete "no, no". I could not think of anything worse. My appetite for food has not been lost, so I hope that my lack of interest is something happening with bac.

[Evie.Lou]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

WOW Veritas, sounds like exactly how I felt when I hit the 30mg mark...........Great to hear it !!!

[veritas]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

Evie, thank you, I hope so.

I have still not reached the bewitching hour, but usually on a Saturday, I would find an excuse to start drinking early. It is also so easy for me. I walk through a room with a 5 litre box of wine in full view.

[Evie.Lou]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

Saturday is JUST another day..change your routine ..do something that makes you FEEL goooood !!!

Change your thoughts and you change your world. I'm rooting for ya my friend !!!

[veritas]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

I am not sure how to take this. It is my bewitching hour. I took my dogs for a walk and it was usually my white knuckling time. Not only am I thinking of al with no desire, but I am thinking of al with aversion. I am having a cup of camomile tea, I don't even feel like coffee to psyche me up. I am very chilled.

I am wondering, is this what non alcoholics feel like at the end of the day?

[Evie.Lou]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

GREAT QUESTION ???????????...........LOL

[veritas]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

I could never understand how anyone could say "no thank you" to an alcoholic drink. When I went out to a dinner party, or to a social function, my heart would sink when there was no wine.

The worst was if there was one bottle of wine for six people. I could just not understand it. After emptying my pathetic glass of wine, which I would finish before anyone else, I would spend the rest of the night dying to get home to my refridgerator.

Right now, I would probably prefer a lovely glass of sparkling lemon water, or a cup of Earl Grey tea, to wine.

[Evie.Lou]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

Long LIVE THE POWER OF BAC !!!!

[louise]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

Veritas, that is so wonderful to hear! I hope whatever illness you have you get over soon. Are you taking baclofen with food? Hopefully that will help the nausea if it is being caused by the baclofen. And I too think you will be able to be funny and charming and assertive sober.
P.S. - can the box of wine go out of sight?

[veritas]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

Zen and Louise, I did make a mistake by not taking Bac with food. I have taken my morning dose with yoghurt and feel fine.

I keep thinking of alcohol in order to test whether I want it or not. On sunday I would often be tempted into a binge. I usually visit my mother on sunday and take her some cooked meals. I always dreaded it because her fridge has a bottle or two of wine and there is invariably a six pack of beer. She does not have a drinking problem and she is unaware of mine. I would white knuckle through the visit.. but all to often I would give into temptation and start my binge at that point.

If I think of visiting right now, I feel indifferent to drinking. I am curious to see what I will do and how I will cope.

[veritas]

Veritas takes the Baclofen plunge

I really need to share this. Everything that could have triggered a binge happened, yet here am I, drinking an Amurula and lemon drink, mixed with lemonade and ginger ale.

I went to have lunch with my mother. I felt like I might want to drink, so I took my midday dose of baclofen before I left.

I decided on the way that if my mother had beer in the fridge, I would have one and test the "bac". Well, she did not, but she did have wine. I looked at the bottle and had such a clear recall of how horrible it feels to be drunk and foggy headed. I left the wine with ease.

On my way home, I remembered that I had to pay my telephone account asap, or risk being disconnected. This meant going to the local mall where there was my most used liquor outlet.

"Its sunday", I thought, "so the bottle store is most likely closed right now. If not, I'll pop in and get a beer."

Much to my surprise the store was still open.......... but I did not feel like a beer. I felt thirsty and was craving a soft drink with lemon or cola. I did some shopping and bought lots of soft drinks with which to experiment.

I then went back to my car and realised that I had no change for a tip for the car guard. My immediate thought was to just go and get a beer, as it would give me just the right amount of change. When I went into the centre, I remembered again how horrible it felt to be fuzzy headed and drunk. I bought a nature magazine and milo instead.

I am thinking of alcohol often, but I am able to remember the bad feelings. This is something that I seemed to be unable to do in the past.

The funny thing is, while I was making up my drink of Amarula, Lemon and ginger ale, I looked at the big glass and thought, I can never drink that much. I started to giggle to myself, were that beer a while ago, I would have thought it too little.