I just started Bac 5 days ago. Decided to do it after all the reading here, and also previous attempts to limit/stop drinking without success.
Started very conservatively, 5mg at 3PM, 5mg at 6pm. I decided to begin later in the day because my "witching hour" is around 8PM.
Didn't feel much of an affect with the 5mg, BUT drank MORE than the usual bottle of wine. Actually felt MORE into AL than usual. Felt groggy upon waking.
Decided to go to 10mg at 3PM the next day. Definitely felt very mellow. Took another 10 at 6PM. Still wanted wine (my only choice of beverage) at 8. Found that the AL had LESS affect on me again, like I had a higher tolerance than usual....more "together" whilst drinking. Had 7 glasses.
Next day, same thing. Did 10 + 10 about 3 hours apart, starting at around 3, but still wanted the habit. 6 units.
Woke again feeling "heavy," but not unable to wake up.
Today, I still feel the effects of the Bac all day. Took a friend to the airport late last night (about a 20 minute drive) after 10mg at 5 and another 10mg at 8, and I honestly felt I shouldn't have been driving. I didn't feel drunk, but I felt like I was compromised.
Then I came home and, gladly, I had 3 drinks, which was great (for me) but woke up feeling this overall - I don't even know how to explain it - a kind of "layer" of something over my world that I'm not used to.
This morning, I had a brunch meeting and the COFFEE helped a lot. Actually, it seems caffeine helps eliminate the "layer" that Bac seems to impart.
But, throughout the day, I felt a little "something." Like there was a "narcotic," on some level, that I was feeling retroactively. I had a meeting that I needed to drive about 50 miles to go to and, after the experience the other evening of a quick drive to the airport, I didn't want to take anything. So I didn't. But, during driving, I felt that I still had that affect doing something to my body/mind. It didn?t feel bad, but it felt like it gave me something "out of body" on some level.
I had my usual bottle of wine when I came home, and I, all day long have felt like the Bac, despite the fact that I didn't take any, was still living in me. It was an out-of-body kind of sensation kind of stuff. And the affect of the wine feels minimal ? less than usual. I feel ?above? it. This is not usual.
I know this takes time, but these initial experiences are disconcerting - I feel like I like AL more, I feel like I'm developing more of a tolerance, I feel like Bac makes me less able to resist AL and, even without AL, makes it so I shouldn't drive.
Obviously, it's only been 5 days and today I've taken NO Bac because I feel such a "hangover" from the previous 4 days. I still feel like it's affecting me, and yet, I am taking in wine. I'm sure the combo is a terrible thing.
Anyway, I know it takes time, based on all the comments. And I will keep after it. Just wanted to see if anyone has insight for the beginner Bac person.
When you've tried a lot of things and have been a failure, any attempt that isn't immediately successful makes you revert to the feeling that there is no way out FOR YOU, because YOU are somehow worse than anyone on the planet.
I will reduce again to 5mg tomorrow (I don't have anywhere to drive). Maybe I should stick with 5mg's 3x's a day for longer. The 10mg's 2x's a day are making me feel like I'm not in control of my senses and also making me feel MORE tolerant of AL - ahhh! Not what I was hoping for!!!
Hope to hear from you.
Thanks!
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