I just wanted to post regarding all those who have concerns about medically-unsupervised use of bac/topa/nal...I personally think medics are totally crap at dealing with addiction. I did a 30-day AF stint back in the summer and was using topa procured online.
I was experiencing some success in the early days and visited my GP to ask for topa, bringing with me all relevant clinical literature. The GP refused to prescribe it for me for a few reasons:
- It is not a widely prescribed drug in the UK (GP had only ever used it once for a patient with epilepsy)
- As such, if a Prescribing Advisor was to (likely) pick up on any untoward prescribing, the GP would be under investigation.
- The GP would only agree to prescribe me topa if it was under the advocacy of a Psychiatrist or Neurologist...and my shrink knew nothing about topa and so would not comply.
So....all of this seemed fair enough to me. However, I did also bring some info with me at this visit regarding the use of bac for addiction. The GP did seem impressed with this, advising that bac was safe & widely prescribed and that if I had no luck with the self-administered topa regime, that I could revisit with a "bad back", nudge nudge, wink wink and they would consider prescribing the bac instead.
So low and behold, I began to experience bad side effects with topa and returned to the drink BIG TIME...landed my sorry ass in the GPs surgery over a month ago and begged for bac. The GP refused outright, told me that I just had to find a way to overcome cravings and proceeded to write me a rather large script for diazepam...despite the fact that I developed a benzo dependence earlier this year and had to embark on a 4 week benzo detox preogramme....(are you laughing yet).
I left feeling extremely low and tried to top myself the next day, was referred to an emergency psychiatric evaluation where I was told that medication would not help me (have been on the same antidepressant for 4 years and on/off various anti-anxiety meds for the past few months to treat acute anxiety) and was referred to clinical psychology services (talking therapy). They wouldn't even consider trying a new antidepressant!
Well here we are 5 weeks on and not only have I not heard a peep from anyone but my GP hasn't even received the psychiatric evaluation notes or referrals from the emergency psychiatric team (who comprised a Community Psychiatric Nurse & a Mental Health Social Worker...then followed by A Speciality Doctor in Psychiatry and a Consultant Psychiatrist)...
So at the end of this rant...what is the moral of the story??? Forget doctors...if we want to get better we need to take our destiny into our own hands...and if that means unsupervised drug administration...so be it. The booze would just kill us anyway so what fucking choice do we have?
jj
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