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What worries me is that the pattern is established in my brain, so whenever I am feeling sick this might not be sufficient de-learning for me.
I know that Baclofen will be here for me again if I need it to help me. And I did not hear of any problems about re-commencing. Still I am afraid, that this could cause negative impact on me.
I do not need to fully stop with Baclofen. Just reduce it more to the level with craving, and see what happens when I drink something.
For now I am trying to reduce Baclofen intake to the minimum possible dose. I am for now at 150mg - but I had cravings yesterday, so I am trying now to vary the dose.
11pm 37.5mg
9am 25mg
2pm 50mg
8pm 37.5mg
I had before good results with taking a higher dose around lunch time. Would kick in 2-4 hours later.
Ideally I want to reduce to below 100mg. But if cravings are back I can not do it.
And again I think a majority of the problem is Bupropion. If I can get off that, I think a lot of things are fixable.
Last time I tried to reduce Bupropion to 1 pill a day (from normally 2-3 pills a day) I had shocking Panic attacks / pure anxiety - for a week until Bupropion kicked in again.
Plan
1) Get off Bupropion - get bad thoughts and panic/anxiety under control
2) be long enough away from alcohol and reduce Baclofen more
so we are still some months ahead of all that thoughts!!! :H
I have hope for the first time in my life. My alcohol problem just lasted less than 3 years - before that I was not drinking anything. But Bupropion really screwed up my brain heavy. I need to recover first of that damages before I can think of doing changes to my Baclofen protocol. Most likely I need to switch to another anti-depressive medication - but again then I will not be able to drink.
50 days AF
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