Join Me In A BAC-Off?

[PhoenixRising]

Join Me In A BAC-Off?

I had cravings last night, first in a while. I was able to brush them aside fairly easily, though. However, hubs is going out of town Weds- Sunday and I have never been sober while he is gone. This will be huge for me if I can resist and maintain. I am just so afraid of failing.

[ThirdMan]

Join Me In A BAC-Off?

Hey guys. I just realized that it's been over a month since I started this thread and consequently over a month since I've had a drink. All things considered its been pretty easy I guess. Strangely it seems like its been A LOT longer than a month though, not sure why. I originally titrated up pretty fast and pretty effortlessly. The only side effect was some possible mania. I wasn't sleeping much (5 hours every OTHER night) and surprised a lot of people around me by quitting my job because the hours had started to dwindle. I did do it kinda spur of the moment, so it very well could have been manic. But I immediately found a freelance gig that paid BETTER and now my original boss is begging me back when this one is finished so GO MANIA! Nevertheless, it's something to be mindful of. And with the new job I had to get back to what seems a perfectly functional dosage for me at ~140mg give or take 20mg. I did have a HORRIBLE day last Friday. It was one of those ultra frustrating moments that make you question your entire life and career leading up to this moment. It ruined my entire weekend and made me a complete ass, BUT I didn't drink! Remarkable considering the circumstances. "What's the point of being sober when assholes like these still control my life," was racing around in my head non-stop, and I can't say the Baclofen alone was enough, there was def a healthy dose of willpower involved... but willpower alone would surely not have been enough pre-bac.

But enough about me, how is everyone else doing??? Phoenix you're still hanging in there it sounds?

[Pride before Fall]

Join Me In A BAC-Off?

"What's the point of being sober when assholes like these still control my life?"

So you can get to that place in your head (and your life) where they don't! CONGRATULATIONS on an entire month, 3rd! Good on you! :wd::wd::wd::wd:

[PhoenixRising]

Join Me In A BAC-Off?

Hey 3m!

Yeah, hanging in here for sure. I've had the odd drink or two (3 in one sitting, a big wake up call!) but AF for the most part. It feels great!! How nice to hear from you!

The most amazing part is that I hardly even THINK about it!! It used to dominate my thoughts day and night and now it's barely a shadow in the background. Awesome!!