Hi All –
Dang … fighting a bad case of the blues yesterday and again this morning. Wondering if it is the Topa (never had this reaction before) and doubt it is lack of AL as I am still drinking a bottle of wine day. I have never taken an AD but am beginning to wonder if maybe I should be ….
Perhaps just age and this guy thing going on. It was just about a month ago that I took a “road trip” with him to help him adopt a very special dog. He spent a week at my house afterwards with her and my dog – we had a blast. Now I can’t visit him (he lives 6 hours away) and he can’t come here – all due his new romance. *sigh* I feel like I have lost my best friend again. More email today and one is of his new dog in a pool I bought for her and he is in the picture – so I can only guess who took the photo. Back into the toilet. Oh well … this too shall pass …
Dizzy: My avatar is of my Golden I lost about a year ago. Those are his “Doggles” that I bought for him when riding in my Brother-In-Laws speed boats. HA! I just thought he looked so darn silly! At 110# he was not quite the “dress up type – ALL boy!
Space: Three weeks ago I would not have been able to open a bottle of wine and make it last until bedtime. Then again I go to bed pretty early since I get up at 430-500 AM. I’m just using TINY glasses. HA! And I leave it behind often in another room rather than having it in my hand all the time. And try to keep moving – doing stuff – keeping busy. I also keep glasses of water and/or cranberry juice full on my desk so I sip other stuff as well. I wish I could say it was all very easy – but I would be lying. I find driving to work I am calculating how many hours until 2 PM now. UGH I guess that’s a bit of an improvement from counting until Noon! HA! I look forward to the day that wine is not on my mind so dang often!
So today will finish Week 4 for me back on Topa and 10 days at 75 mg. Screwy how I started back up and my “weeks” end on Tuesday – but whatever. If I “hold the line” again today. I will have reduced my consumption by 55%! Gives me hope, but still scares the hell out of me to think about setting goals of 3 PM or 3 glasses a day! I would LOVE to never drink at my shop again and just buy a bottle on the way home and enjoy a few glasses and have that be that. But I am often there from 830 AM until 6 PM and almost an hour drive home – so tough to think about just yet.
Not yet sure if I will increase to 100 mg after today or not. Have a long day at the shop and will see how I do and go from there …
Later all.
WTE
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