New here and starting Topa and with a question

[DizzyBee]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Thanks Space :l

You can find the one called Hippie here: https://www.mywayout.org/community/f7...elp-63544.html

Also Rainy, I must second Space, your Avatar freaks me out too. I try to look beyond it but it even appeared in my nightmare last night :H That is one odd looking baby! The only one I've seen so far that freaked me out more is Bird's - https://www.mywayout.org/community/members/bird.html I'm never sure if I want to hug that thing or run like hell when I see it.

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[sunshinedaisies]

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Good Morning everyone - I feel so good today - even on 4 and a half hours sleep! I keep thinking about me smiling as I poured out my Guinness!! Oh Joy - I am back on my way.

Rainy - I laugh at your avatar!! :H Oh gosh - I am not going to worry about the gluten thing I have decided!!

Diz - so sorry b/f is upsetting you again - had he been drinking do you think? Good for you for swallowing the antabuse..... :l

Space - I find that I MUST take the L-Glut regularly - and I also take the Kudzu that they have here - I found last time that if I take the whole lot, something works!!

Welcome back Mimi - glad that you had a good time and go you for doing things the way you did - what a good idea. you had fun and didn't mess things up for anyone else!! Gld that you enjoyed yourself.

Hippiegirl - I hope things are getting better for you - have you started the antabuse yet? it is SO hard to take that final step - and SO scary too. just keep reading and posting - :l

Hi Play - taking one Topa isn't going to be magic - LOL But I am glad that you have got them. You can be on your way too - we will be getting ourselves in gear together!!

Houtx - glad you are noticing a difference too with the l-Glut - I find it amazing stuff when I use it properly - I have my plastic baggie of white powder at work - it makes them laugh!! Of course they don't know what it is for ......just see a plastic baggie of white powder!! they know I am veggie and eat really well so all assume it is some sort of healthy thing but it does make them laugh!!

Gosh - just noticed time - have to get going - sorry if I haven't answered everyone - but have the keys so can't be late!!!!

Hugs, sun XX

[DizzyBee]

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Sun - do bears shit in the woods?

I will distract myself and spend some nice time with friends over the weekend. Not boozing time, have organized an '80's movies night' for Saturday where we will all lounge on the couch with blankets and popcorn and chocolate and a nice big open fire. Well, one or two may have wine but it won't be a trigger as it would've been with the original suggestion of a barbeque.

My dad makes these Wildlife cards and I am now helping him get donations and marketing by adding R2.50 on top of whatever he wants to ask and then donating that money to the International Rhino Fund. Its a big issue here in SA, people killing Rhinos because there is such a huge demand because men still believe that drinking rhino horn will make them horny. Whats wrong with Viagra??? :durn:

Anyway, this is just one of the little initiatives I have had time for since I quit drinking, except for the weekend blip. I almost toppled again this morning but I stood firm and said, you know what, bf sent you that email to hurt you, and you being sober is the best way of remaining the person in control of this argument. So, I don't know how its going to pan out but I won't resolve to his tearful middle of the night drunken emails and texts. So take that, Mr Hyde!



This is not one of my dad's photos or cards, by the way, and if anyone has this picture in a better resolution, I would be much obliged. The photo is called 'Please don't hurt my mom!'


My absolute top of the list pet peeve is when people don't use paragraphs. And lots of them. So I added a not so nice joke to the jokes section. Its a bit crass though because its by 'The Oatmeal, so don't bother checking it if that's not your cup of tea. And no, I am not making a jab at anyone in particular.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f4...ml#post1310165

My the Forth be with you (its International Star Wars Day)

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[Hippiegirl]

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HI everybody! How's this for an avatar DB?

You can just re-read my posts from yesterday, cause today is ditto except hopefully this afternoon/evening. AB first thing tomorrow!!

[spacebebe01]

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Dizzy its good to hear you are going to spend time this weekend with real life friends, I hope you have a good time.

The rhinos look cool, I am wondering what the cards are that your dad makes.

Sorry but onto the use of the English language....... paragraphs make things so much easier to read and are there to split things up into bite size pieces so its easiy to take in. Overuse paragraphs though and its just a series of one liners maybe just as bad as no paragraphs because then the eye skips too much. My bug bear with all this English grammar milarkey is this, language is a way to communicate, that is its purpose, it is also a way to get across your meaning and personality in what you are saying so whether its officially grammaticaly correct or spelt correctly isn't the point, the meaning is the point. I get red lines all over my posts because I cant be arsed with apostrophies, I just used one in the line before but I think you all understand me without it, it just slows down the flow of my writing.

I checked out your link but couldnt find the funny or crass bits because it was a bit like being back in an English laguage lesson in school and my eyes just glazed over and I looked out of the window. Thats what years of conditioning does for you.

So Ms Dizzy we will have to agree to disagree on this, but I will pull rank because I am English and I reserve the right to use my language in any way I want:H

ps I got the Jamie Oliver book today, 99p plus ?4.00 p&p, I havent read much yet, I have put it by my bed

[Rainyday]

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Ok I changed my avatar if you didn't notice When I first started posted I felt so bloated LOL and so lost, it just really stuck at the time. I had to laugh at it ever time I saw it. So now I'll just be a boring but very beautiful flower. At least it's not such a traditional flower like a rose. I hate traditional.

[DizzyBee]

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Nice Avatar, Hippiegirl!, How are we doing tonight?

Ahh Rainyday, you didn't have to change it. I like it. You can choose any pic off the web that inspires you. And as you don't have a silly name like mine, you are not really confined to any specific pic.

Space, ahem. I was born to Christian parents and I believe in God but as I am not seriously practicing I won't for example pull rank over a person who was born to atheist parents, then did a degree in theology and is now a practicing pastor. Just saying. (And yes, my tongue is firmly in cheek)

But hey, its just my thing, no one around here really writes super long paragraphs so thats cool. I just think it helps as you know where you are should the phone ring or something happen.

I haven't read that particular cartoon in a while (the spelling mistakes one). Some of his cartoons are very witty, some are very cute, like this one http://theoatmeal.com/comics/cat_vs_internetand some very crass. Not sure what you are into, have a browse around here. Comics :: Popular - The Oatmeal

XOX

[houtx]

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Space, I did take BAC and then TOPA 2 yrs ago) preceeded by 18 months on the Sinclair Method w/ Naltrexone)...neither worked and I hated the SEs of both. Willing to go back and try TOPA over the summer when I don't have to worry about the "DOPA" effect kicking in...

Anyway, seems there's something else I wanted to comment on but forgot...:-)) Hoping the best for everyone - hang in!!

XO

[playland]

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Hi All,
Yes, Sun, I will be very careful with the Topa and pay really close attention to my eyes, don't worry, I'm on it, the bottom line is that I can't go to a high dose, too dangerous for my eyes, so we will see if it works again or not, i'm trying not to worry about it. BTY Sun, did I ever tell you how much I love the "mucky drink"? I get the "All One" Rice Formula, mix with Almond milk or something, a banana, frozen berries, protein powder, youghurt, and it is the best smoothie in the world. I gave up on the other supplements because I just don't have time during the morning and the day, but I'm going to start the Holy Basil per advice from Rainyday. Anyway, hope you are feeling better about Ben, did you bury him in your garden? just wondering where you put your loved ones. When I was married and had a house we buried our little animals in the back yard, now, my last three that I still had with me after the divorce, I had them cremated and have their ashes in little boxes and told my kids to put them with my ashes one of these days, gives me comfort.

bye, for now, love to everyone, play

[playland]

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Oh Rainy, I really liked your baby avatar, I wish you would go back to it, it was much more interesting than the flower, it invited me to think every time I saw it, but either one is fine as long as it resonates with you.

Dizz yes, I will for sure try to remember to think about my eyes while taking the topa and good suggestion to keep a diary, might be the only way that I might take the time to actually think about how things feel that day.

Houtx, nice to see you, hope you post more with us, I've kind of lost track of what was going on with you but I will try to read back in the thread to catch up.

Space, sorry you felt that you had a difficult time getting to know people here on this thread. I can understand, especially when you enter a thread and everyone is new. When I started on the Topa thread, there were only about three people on it and even those dropped away and occasionally some of the people we see here, Bruun, Houtx, and a few others would stop by briefly, they were long timers on other threads, and even now, I don't really know them in depth, but I guess it's nice that we all at least are in this together and it shows.

Sun, I burst out laughing when you said that "one topa isn't going to do anything", my we do get obsessive don't we, LOL.

bye for now,
play

Love Is A Blessing, To Love Is A Blessing, To Be Loved Is A Blessine

[spacebebe01]

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Dizzy sorry for going off on one there, its a big of a thing for me, I think it comes from growing up and not being able to say anything without getting corrected, it drives me nuts. Also I think it may be a very English class system thing, where if you dont speak BBC English it is assumed that you are uneducated in some places and organisations and used to put people at a real disadvantage. I dont think is so prevalent nowadays but when I grew up and the school and family it was a big thing and a right pain in the arse. I could never get it right and used to want to shout at people you know what I am saying whats the big deal, but never did.

Rainy I didnt want you to change your avatar, and it did make you stand out, I feel guilty now.

Play did the topa affect your eyes or is it about a pre-existing condition with your eyes?

I will go and check out your other thread Hippie, hope you are ok

Im going to get a shower now to try to wake me up, I have been all over the place all day, my clock in my bedroom was around 3 hours out so I am tired and feel like it should be nearly 5pm and I should be putting the tea on.

[DizzyBee]

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I was just teasing Space, and sorry if I offended you in any way. I am a writer and an editor and it annoys even me when people go on and on about grammar. When I edit, I edit by what feels right and wrong, not because I can cite all the million rules and regulations. I hate editors who are like that.

To be honest when I'm here I type fast and I read fast, I really don't read and judge by grammar and typos and I certainly hope no one does that with me. People who don't split up separate thoughts into separate paragraphs is just a personal pet peeve but I can deal with it and it won't make me like anyone less.

See, we even have a monkey that lives in our vine I feel a bit like it today.



Rainydays, I too feel guilty for opening my big mouth about your avatar. Please choose whichever one you want. I don't know why that particular baby has such a strong effect on people, I think I just struggled to think of you as I kept thinking of the baby in the pic But you can choose a pic of a naked bottom, I really won't comment on it again.

Could you also tell me about the Holy Basil? I have a big Holy Basil plant as they are super duper easy to grow. You just need a small cutting off someone's plant, stick it in water and within 7 days you'll have roots and within 3 months you'll have a healthy plant. They are perennial and need hardly any attention except for water and sunshine. Well, if you live in a very cold area, a greenhouse or window sill over winter will probably help.

Space, you should tell them the story about the hoe, its really funny! I pasted a pic of the doggy on the gardening thread.

WTF is WTE BTW? And anyone know what happened to Hippiegirl? I know Sunny is working today.

Lots of love and hugs anyone. Didn't want to cause a stir with pet peeves and bug bears. Please read the joke about the cats and the internet, it is much funnier.

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[WaitingToExhale]

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Hi All! Wow – The days are just flashing by in a flurry of posies and chaos and I feel like someone put a pair of skis on me and I am on a bit of a slippery slope again! Not bad really – but OH MY the wine has been screaming at me!

These holidays take major co-ordination in booking and planning, blah, blah, blah. I have spent so much time at my computer building and broadcasting email blasts (UGH) , writing ad copy, trying to stay up on my two columns – and it has always just naturally gone with that glass of wine in my hand. I know some of you can relate!

The upside is that I remain on track at under an average of 3 glasses per day (just barely) for this month with 5 days to go. Actually got really pissed off at myself the other day when I drank 4 glasses. HA! Had to laugh the day after thinking back that less than two months ago 9-10 glasses were my norm!

I almost want to say the past 3-4 days (which have been 3-4 glass days) have something to do with the L-Glut! I simply have not been taking as much. I’ve been forgetting it a bit, although take it at least once a day. But before I was taking it 3-5 times a day, and in powder form and I think perhaps a bit of a heavy dose. The reason I say this is “something” was making me REALLY thirsty – and it started about the time I started the L-Glut in powder form. It was a good thing because it made me tons of water which I am often bad about doing.

All of a sudden that big thirst was gone. And the cravings were back a bit more. Hummm. I have now done 8 days at 50/75 of Topa, so not an adjustment there. And still drinking All-One every day. Perhaps just all the time at the puter and shop stuff – who knows, but I was hoping to be sailing smoother with my new 3 glasses or less. Pfffttt.

So now to try and catch with everyone! So sorry I’ve dropped out a bit! I read everything, but just have not had time to post much.

Diz: Think of you often in many arenas with the BF as well as your gardening thread (which I love!) And of course your parents. You should be so proud of yourself for keeping your act together and being such a strong woman when the poop starts flying!

And I think Lucky is CUTE! And there is something to be said for a relaxed home for certain. My space is very “dog friendly” and my friends know to not enter wearing dark clothing as Charlie is the ultimate “fur machine” no matter how often the place gets vacuumed. And while he owns three giant dog beds throughout the house, it never fails, as soon as I am not looking, he’s up on the sofas.

I get those damn panic attack things once in a great while, but they normally happen just as I am opening my eyes in the morning. ACK I THINK mine are from AL as they seem to go away for the most part when I really slow done, and thankfully never last very long. I’ve also wondered if something else was triggering them as well …

Space: Perhaps it’s a good thing you have lads to cook for because otherwise you would be doing the same as me. It’s tough to cook proper for one every night – and just not much fun.

Houtx!: Glad you are finding the L-Glut to be of some benefit! Funny, when I was taking it before it just didn’t seem to do anything. But I am a believer now since I changed to powder now. Clearer huh? Very cool. I might be feeling a touch of that as well – thought it was just less wine. HA! I DO know it helps with the cravings when the wine starts calling too early.

And I am with you right about going AF – just can’t wrap my head around it and if I try it scares the hell out of me and my whole “plan” goes down the drain. I’m not sure where I will end up or what my ultimate goal/amounts are, or if it is even possible to ever go back to being a normie … but that’s what I have to think about for now. So can realte.

Rainy: HI! Interesting about the gluten test thing. All the talk here in California as well and so many products now labeled “gluten free”. I’ll have to do some more reading on that as I can’t say I really understand it.

Sun: Sweet Lady – You are ALWAYS here for us. Sounds like you are putting your plan back into action. We are so hard on ourselves when we slip for a touch, aren’t we?

Oh .. and nasty customers! PFFT! I always try to think about what may be going in their world that might be making them be so wicked. And try SO hard to not pass it on. Hard to do!

Play: Great that your got your Topa and happy to hear that River is moving quicker these days. Wonderful that you aren’t having any SEs. I have had the tingles sometimes, and other times not. So perhaps don’t judge that on if it is “working” or not.

Mimi : Your trip to Palm Springs sounded like so much fun. How funny about the men – and I forgot who said it, but I would have left them in the bushes too. HA! Good on you for being a stand up chick!

I hope everyone has a lovely day … the sun is just coming up here and I have the day off! Yea! Taking Charlie to the dog park as he SO misses playing with other pups after being a stud/show dog for his first 5 years and used to being around a lot of other dogs. Then perhaps a bit of kayaking and then the GARDEN! I may even get around to messing with Photo Bucket which I used years ago …. We shall see. I always have such grand plans on Saturday mornings! HA

Love and Hugs to all

WTE

[Hippiegirl]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

In the words of the infamous Britney Spears - Oops, I did it again.

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Good Morning everyone - I smiled at your last post Hippie - you sound as if you have your sense of humour back - at least that is good!! Even if the situation isn't - you DO sound better than you were when you first posted on the site!! That first taking of the antabuse is REALLY BIG. you know that you can't drink once you have taken it - so it is such a scary thing to actually DO!!

Hi there WTE - lovely to see you - I know and understand that you must be really busy right now. I always drink a lot of water anyway but am trying to think if the L-Glut makes me thirsty - not sure - but as you said, that would be a good thing. Yes, 3-4 glasses is def. way better than 9-10 so you are still doing really well. I too tend not to cook very much but will look for an easy fix most nights - last nights was a lovely pesto pizza, of which I had laf and will take the other half for dinner at work. Or I will cook then freeze it and so have a few meals ready to do. I was hard on myself this time as I didn't just 'slip' for a touch - I was drinking far more than I ever have done!! I used to have 2-3 a night - this past few weeks I was up to 5 or 6 some nights and it was getting to be most nights. It scared me as I had not drunk that much every night ever - so I KNEW I had to do something. Last night I had 3 1/2 so am a work in prgress. I can feel the supps and the topa doing something anyway which is good.

Diz - I have been laughing at the grammar and paragraph stuff! What you get from me is what you get! LOL I SO AGREE with Space about growing up in UK and it being a class thing - forever being corrected on speech and saying things the 'proper' way!! It really is a class distinction in UK. So I totally understand where she was coming from. Oh - I have taken some pics of my garden and am going to attempt to try and post a couple tomorrow when I am off - I work today the dreaded mid shift!! My garden is the pits right now - wrong time of year!! But as with me, it is a work in progress! Hope you are feeling a bit better now? Any more nastigrams from b/f? Or have things calmed down a tad? I hope you have a wonderful weekend with your friends - sounds like a great way to spend the weekend - HAVE SOME FUN !! :l

Space - spoke my bit about the language! Oh gosh, I so remember constantly being corrected "can I? May I?" etc., etc., and I know what you mean about the BBC English - although the funny thing is I spoke to a VERY old friend on the phone a few years ago - we hadn't spoken in 35 years - and the first thing out of his mouth was "Oh my gosh, you sound posh!" I did laugh!!

Rainy - I too loved the baby avatar - it made me smile! But you have whatever (whichever??? :H:H) you would like !!!

Play - Hi there. So pleased you like the All- One - I am having mine every day - I have never tried the rice based one - I did order a small can of the fruit one but still haven't tried it. Oh I have basil in my garden but it isn't doing very well this year for some reason - usually it does SO well. Might have to get another plant - last year I had many volunteers from the year before - SIGH. yes I am fine about Ben thank you - I am just so happy he is with Maggie - I know it is daft but that made so much difference, with my daughter saying that. He was such a sad dog, having had such a sad life. The vet called me and his ashes are ready to be picked up and I am going on Tuesday with Katie to show her to them. Our garden isn't big enough to bury the animals - I have Maggies ashes too in a little box and will put Ben's next to them. I haven't decided what I shall do with them yet. Thanks for asking though.....

Houtx - I remember you taking the Topa before - gosh, have I been here that long? LOL And still things stay the same.......oh dear!! Anyway - when will you start taking it do you think?

Mimi - good morning - looking forward to hearing from you when you have time - how are you doing?

Well, probably should think about getting clothes and food and stuff ready for work, have a wonderful day everyone,

love, Sun XX