I'm doing pretty ok, Sun, thx for asking. Glad you are too! I am holding steady @ 200 mgs for awhile, I think. I have not been too happy with myself this week. Lots of pressure and stress at work. I have thought alot about what Sid has said about (loosely quoted here) "partying hard in her 50s and just making her sick...realizing she needed to stop...did/has several times & now thinks of herself as essentially a non-drinker...if I can do it, you can too".
How many times have we heard people say that. For some reason her words are hitting me between the eyes. I am thinking maybe if she can do it, I can too. But how does she sleep, I wonder?! LOL That first night especially. Then the friends get together over dinner, etcetcetc. I would just like to go AF by myself for awhile. Why is that so hard?! This week I was not very good. My best laid plans...blah!! I stay up too late and instead of 2 or 3 or 4...and shutting down at no later than 10 or 10:30, I find myself up til 11/11:30 and I am screwed!
I am making new resolutions for next week! I've GOT to hark back to when I got on this medication in the first place. I really haven't lost my resolve, but without it giving me the "ehhhhhh factor" at every new dose level, I've gotten complacent and drinking thru it. I need to slow down and...just slow down and stay at this level for awhile. See how it works out. But nice long weekend ahead..got tomorrow off thx to the oy vey holiday :-))and look forward to changing gears. I love Fall!! Looking forward to doing a little decorating for it, candles, relaxing & catching up on sleep!
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