I was just wondering if you draw the conclusion that Topa could be causing this for you. I am a bit self absorbed at the moment as I'm stressed so I'm sorry if I don't pick up everything so if you mentioned a huge stressor that could also be it. But otherwise perhaps your dose could be looked at - you alternate between 62.5 and 75, right? Remember these pills have the power to make us manic, so we have to be very careful. Perhaps we should take a page out of WTE's book and keep a journal of our dose and our feelings every day.
When I saw him in 07-08 there was never any official diagnosis of anything other then I'm alcoholic. Except that he agreed with my old counselors & psychologist of PTSD & GAD. The one I saw in my twenties for marriage counseling. Then my re-hab & private counselor in 07-08. All gave these diagnosis's. In 07-08 when I saw PDr said I might be bi-polar II, but it's too hard to make a diagnosis until there's a good amount of sobriety time. I agree 100% The old chicken & egg routine. I do think if anybody drinks large quantities of booze for yrs like I have it's very possible to end up with mental health problems. I do know when the drinking got out of hand, it stemmed from major anxiety & depression, mainly situational ( I think).
I love that you write how Topa makes you feel & yes you are my Topa buddy & I do think we have similar symptoms, so maybe I am Bi-polar. My hubs says I'm not as up & down now, but then again I have some sobriety. The up & down b4 could have been from all my drinking.
I didn't take my topa last night so I could finally sleep. Did this a couple of wks ago. I have a headache now tho. No appetite, drank coffee, cold, tummy crap. Doesn't seem to matter if I eat or don't.
I'm going to take care of me now. I need to finish my collage that I'm working on for Baby Bears & BF arrival on Friday. Big move on Sat with 1st born moving out. Yeah!.... Don't get me wrong we are very close!.... It will be one month of sobriety for me on that day ( 6/23 )
No worries about being self absorbed. I'm going to start practicing more of this myself. I need to!.... Not out of selfishness, but out of self care. I'm finally understanding the difference. Just before I turn 50. Woo Hoo!
Take Care,
Wildflowers :h
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