New here and starting Topa and with a question

[spacebebe01]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Oh what a bummer about the hair colour WTE, mine is naturally dirty blond and since I have some grey but not much I have been going for doing my own colour and then getting highlights, but I have had a lifetime of just going blond which has been so much easier and what I am going back to, that way I just plonk a blond colour on my hair every six weeks or so and its ok. I have booked in for the whole works next week and am looking forward to it, the girl has given me instructions to exfoliate and moisturise loads before and I am taking wu's advise about vitamins and water. I have suddenly started drinking more tho, but keep on forgetting my bac again today,also Ive only just remembered I have L glut in the cupboard. My mum just phoned me about these buttonholes and I told her how much it would cost to buy tape and wire online and then pay for express postage and she said never mind that, I actually thought she had seen sense and to get the florist to do it, but she now wants to send my duaghter to the florist to try to buy the stuff off her, WTF. she is just so tight about some things. ARGGH. Im having nothing to do with it, just get the bloody buttonholes off the florist whos doing the rest of the stuff and pay her for gods sake, why is she trying to save a few bloody pounds on this it was the only thing she is paying for.

Can you just get the nal off the doc and then wait to get your results, I dont think any results will give you anything about your drinking anyway, except to tell you that you drink too much maybe.

Oh and I do feel sorry for you working with families at weddings, how do you put up with them all??

[mimi911]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Good Morning my supportive friends.

If any of you read a bible you can do a great study on wine/drunkeness. There are a lot of references and it is very interesting and helpful.

Proverbs 23:19-21 and v.s. 29-35 I am not sharing to push religion on anyone, it's just a really good read.
There are other verses as well.

[WaitingToExhale]

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Space – I am just cracking up here! I could NOT figure out what a “buttonhole” was and thought you were talking about another issue with button holes being sewn into the dresses. HA! HA!

Finally Googled it – here they are called Boutonni?res! LOL And GOOD GRIEF – have the florist make them! You are right that after buying all the “stuff” – you are almost at the same point as just ordering them. We are expensive and only charge less than $13.00 each. Simple ones are only $8.00. Crazy! Can I smack you Mum for you? LOL

I’m glad to hear you are going to “treat” yourself as it just makes us feel so much better sometimes. I’m going to do a few treats myself this upcoming 3 days with the GF at the spa next week. And DON’T chop your hair off just yet! You will be in my situation of hating my hair about right now. HA! Oh well – it grows out huh?

And yes, I am going to going to pick up the Nal script and so what – I suspect my blood work up will be OK to take it. I’ll get it and just “hold” until I get results back. IF I ever get my arse into the DR office to have the tests done! I have been on the phone with my “big client” all morning as they arrive in 2 houses next week on Friday – and I am out of town Sun-Tues. So still stuck at my desk right now doing pre-books for flowers. So much for getting to the shop today! UGH.

On top of it – they are asking me to book a photographer for the weekend they are here. You have NO IDEA the security that comes with this client and Non-Disclosure agreements, so it’s a tough one. Trying to book someone without telling them who it is until they can pass security clearance is tricky with most of the photographers I know.

How do I put up with weddings and the family? Mostly I don’t! HA! We’re in kind of an expensive area and so I just won’t book one unless I know it can be profitable so we start at a minimum of $3000.00 (yep – US dollars) The only thing worse that a picky bride is the Bride’s Mom or MIL! No offense! And I’m pretty firm on contacts and deposits and if they become too much of a problem with changing things around, I add what I refer to as a PITA charge on their invoice. PITA = Pain In The Ass charge. HA!

I much prefer the “events” that are not weddings. And the day-to-day stuff.

Mimi: Thank you for sharing. I hope your journey is back on a great path and I know you will find what you are seeking. {{{HUGS}}}

Ok – Back to the phones!

[wuthrich8]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Space, i couldnt agree more. You were on the right track with your suggestions about her running off to get married, and then having a party for friends and family. I am sure it her day will be wonderful, but the stress level right now is hard on everyone, and as for me as a fairly recent bride, i would prefer a week in a warm sunny romantic place, and then a great party with friends and family then all the 5 star decorum... thats just me.. lol! and i have gotten married more than once! um.. not sure if i am shamed with that, but i feel much wiser! I am for sure happier!

It really sounds as if you are stressing, but dont do so love, everything will be fine. Her day will be lovely, and you will be your beautiful self and enjoy it. All the effort you and family are putting into it will for sure pay off in the end! Just stop worrying.... its going to be wonderful!

Ok, i had my gyno appt today. My doc is special.... he does an ultra sound on top of the normal stuff. It turns out that my ovaries might be turning my life upside down right now. I will be going on a therapy for that.. havent done the research yet, but i am a little relieved, as, i was starting to hate that m word.... and i guess as he told me in the beginning i am very young for it. so its a 3 month therapy, and if this doesnt work, well its to the cooking water balloon method, which i cant wait for.. (no more periods) and then i would start on the hormone therapy... we shall see. i just hope to see some relief from the symptoms... as i am beginning to think i am having some SEs from the topa, but am forcing myself not to be my paranoid self and i am not doing any googling. i will wait a little and not go up with dosing until i am at the journeys end conference for further consultation with experts. i have noted some rash, and itching...a lot of itching....racing thoughts...and some other things... the rash is getting worse...

Well my darlings, i am off to the destination wedding in italy. i may have no time to post or read.... you all may be so relieved that wacko wu is away.... if only for the weekend... just dont worry, as i would not want you to worry that i have drowned in a prosecco bottle. i shall return as of sunday evening..... lots of love to all of you and please keep your finger crossed that i am a good girl at this 5 star event... i am frowning while i write this.. uugghh... i am happy, but a little scared.. i am just hoping the topa keeps up as has done in the past during social events.. and a little worried about how i will convince the peeps in the hotel to do my all one.. please do a wu.. and get the film in your head and just try to picture that one... my italian is not very good.. but i do know how to say please. and whirl my finger around.... and say fruit in italian.. and then i can put the sucky inny thingy.... lmao...

If i have not posted individually lately very well, its my racing thought are so fast, i cant scroll fast enough, or i will see you soon, or you are not in a crisis... or a combo of all three...i will explain later.. if anyone is interested... in the meantime.. i wish you all a wonderful weekend!
dont get into too much trouble, and remember i will be missing all of you, and thinking of you! group hug!! :hug:

[wuthrich8]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

OK>>>WTE... Now i am rotflmao!!!! i also thought that was kind of strange, but am losing my mind myself, as i live in inlaws house and am leaving for the weekend... meaning, my house needs to be perfect. my mind isnt thinking correctly... right now my thought process is something like ok, i guess i should put strange suck in thingy on to not forget it, even when event is in three days... and dry cleaner wasnt done when it should have been, didnt get said hormones, and i am just TRYING to keep my composure.. there is more, but i guess maybe we will have time at our journeys end summit...

Thank you both you wte and space for getting me to laugh... as my time is short here, and i always tend to freak out shortly before... plus all this pressure... and i always think i can handle it effortlessly.. but nope.. i slip and.. become this raging lunatic.. it all changes once i am on the plane... then i can..exhale.. ah.. waiting to exhale..its the little things in life that comfort us. I cant wait to get home so i can smoke in y house... with the windows open of course... it is my house.. ya know??? sigh.. another exhale.. and i could leave it without perfection over the weekend.. as no one could enter without me being there.. like paradise..

Ok, i will stop day dreaming... space.. exfoliating... i do know a thing or two about it( i am a beautician)... thats why i told you about the pot, the water... and the olive oil and the sugar and etc.... do the whole thing and do it over and over.. the smoking we do, and our drinking.. (and in my case excessive travelling) is very hard on the skin.. it dehydrates us and wreakes pure havoc on our faces... and hands.. telltale spots of our age or of our habits. For me i used to (because my mom and dad own many properties seperaetly and i used to help them renovate them) get very dry hands from handling drywall compounds, tile grout, and other such strange things... so to soothe them, i would pour salt and olive oil and salt on them and do a rub... now i sleep with olive oil on my face before big events.. as i am too lazy to do it all the time. trust me, this will make you glow. and if you can handle it do it inside the body and out.(meaning drink a tablespoon a day ) everyday. its the best and very inexpensive exfoliation you can get. you should also do it on your hands, and feet... just saying... ok, tired, stressed, and now going to bed... lots of love all of you!!!! night night! XXOO

[wuthrich8]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Mimi...i find much comfort in the scriptures. Thank you so much for sharing! I do tend to forget.... if you did like my little song here is another one for you. xxoo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEqdDdvFXZ0[/video]]Steven Curtis Chapman - Do Everything (Lyrics) - YouTube

I dont know if it will speak to you, but i know there may be a moment when it will..... have a wonderful weekend love... :hugs:

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

HELLS BELLS AND BUCKETS OF BLOOD !!!! I have only done this once before and that was when I lost the BEST post EVER. I hit the wrong key and all of a sudden was looking at the Google page!!!! I went back and nothing came up. Oh heck. I usually copy and paste as I go along but this one time, didn't. I am so sorry but there is no way I am going to try and duplicate it - I have been typing for about 40 minutes!!!!!

You are all going to have to pretend that I have posted and answered each and everyone of you 'cos there is NO way that I can go through all that again - sorry!!!! Oh heck - I can't believe that - it is already nearly 7.00 and I have to be in bed by 8.00- 8.30 as I work tomorrow morning at 6.00 but I did explain all that in my first post - don't you remember? DANG IT !!!!!!!

I replied to Space, and Wu and WTE and Mimi and Houtx and oh bother !!!!!!!

I can't explain the frustration I feel. I ALWAYS copy as I go along - I am making cookies to take in to work - maybe that is why I didn't - I am up and down from the computer - anyway - love and hugs to everyone - please pretend that I did and guess what I said to you all........

SORRY !!!!!

Love, Sun XXXXX

[WaitingToExhale]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

I am making you ALLLLLLL a copy of Office Word and there WILL be a class on writing posts in Word and copy and pasting. HA! HA! HA!

Sun: “HELLS BELLS AND BUCKETS OF BLOOD !!!!” LMAO!! The name of my new band now. LOL Gosh – you just crack me up! Bring cookies .. and YES, I “heard” everything you typed and lost .. OK. I will pretend!


I already KNOW my sides are gonna hurt from laughter from meeting you guys.

WU: Have a great time! Yep – Waiting to Exhale … you KNOW what my name feels like =)

Nora: Where are you?

I just had a wonderful hour /plus with one of my neighbors and they also have “Golden” kinda dog. Sadly Charlie has now learned the luxury of eating avocados from the grove that their dog showed him. I am gonna end up with a fat dog!

OK – off to watch stupid TV and I SOMEHOW got addicted to Big Brother. LOL

Hugs to all and see you soon …


WTE

[wuthrich8]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Wte.. avocados growing near you? i will have to make guac..... and your dog will be beautiful even if hes fat... let him have yummy avos.. lol!

Sun.. i saw your post! it was lovely!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Ihb6FLSh64[/video]]Practical Magic - Midnight Margaritas - YouTube this might be us at journes end summit... lol!

houtx... do you take requests? manhattan transfer scotch and soda?? lol!!

love and hugs to everyone else.. got to get on the road... day one of a weekend without my 4 year old .. or another part of my honeymoon.... hm.... hehehe!

xxoo :hug:

[DizzyBee]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Sorry, been crap with updates but actually its because I'm busy with work, so its a good reason not a bad one

And now I'm running 100 miles an hour as we're leaving for a long weekend in Ireland in 2 hours and I still have to go and get Euros and write most of a radio ad as its due on Monday and argh! I'm just not good with pressure.

I've been keeping up and you are all in my thoughts, will write an update if I have five minutes to myself this weekend, otherwise we're coming back on Tuesday.

Love and hugs.

:h

[WaitingToExhale]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Hello All …

WU: Recent Bride? Why did I think you had been married forever and ever?? LOL

“Cooking Waterball Method”? Are you going to make me Google again??? What the heck is that??? Well, best of luck on getting it sorted out so you feel better!

Yikes on the rash! Don’t think that’s Topa. Did you ask your DR about it – or does he even know you are on it? I got a small rash with ONE of those ADs I tried – not sure which one. Hummmm.

Hopefully you get this before you leave – if not, I hope you had a WONDERFUL time!!! Oh, how I want to go to Italy!

Can’t wait to see you! Don’t get stressed and just BREATH! =)

And yes, avocados all around here and Charlie has now learned to hunt them under the trees at two of my neighbor’s places. My last Golden, Chance, actually came home one afternoon with a giant BRANCH dripping with avocados. HA! Don’t know he did it – must have jumped up and grabbed it – but was funny as hell.

Diz: Glad you popped in and have fun!!! Glad that you are getting some good work going – sweet. Post when you can!

So all about the same here. We actually had a touch of rain last nice – refreshing! Cloudy skies this morning and it actually feels a bit good. Still kind of “misty” and it’s cooler now, finally! I wish we would get one heck of a storm running through just to wash everything off. But then perfect SD weather for the SD Summit! HA!

Sun: I tried to send you the link to “The San Diego Six” forum I tried to set up. Hells, bells – I just have not had time to really figure it out – but look at the last ADMIN post – that’s me. =)

I’m stressing a bit also about getting “stuff” done and prepping for my “big client”, but it always works out. Whatever ….. Actually spoke to my first EX yesterday about flying down to do some photography for the family. Was pretty fun to catch up after a few years. Hopefully he gets some work from it.

I’ll be around for the next few days (working today) and then the spa/winery on Sunday so I will be “poof” for a few days. Wasn’t thinking and loaned my laptop to my GF so I won’t have any computer until I return on Tuesday. Perhaps not a bad thing … I have Internet on my phone, but it is really messing up of recent. I spent over and hour with tech support for Verizon and he thinks it’s “gone bad”. Great – just 3 months out of warranty! And smart phones are NOT cheap! Dang – another thing on the “to-do” list.

Oh, and I sold my embroidery machine yesterday! Two very sweet guys and one buying it for his wife. I know I sold it WAY under the value – but at least I now know someone is going to use it and enjoy it. Mom would be pleased I think. Did I already post about this??? I think my Topa Dopa is permanent! HA!

Hello and Hugs to all ……

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Hi everyone - well, finally got to the docs this morning - I have pneumonia, bronchitis, and a sinus infection. Don't believe in doing things by half do I? LOL. No wonder my cough wasn't going away!! I tried to pick up my meds today but the way the doc had written the RX, the pharmacy had to call the doc - they called him numerous times and he never called back - so it looks as if I will have to wait until MONDAY for my meds now - GGGRRRRR. My Doc's office STINKS !!!!!!

Anyway apart from that I am fine. by the way I have decided that I am quitting smoking and drinking on the 12th September. BOB and I are both doing it again. He is having trouble and it is best if we do it together. He has tried doing it alone and just gives in whereas when we do it together he hangs in there. I told him he has to wait until after I get back from san Diego and to give me a few days after that. I need to do this for my brother. And I need to do it for me too.

WTE - in your post you asked about the water ball method - you were copying from my post - I asked that - LOL AND I said about the rash not being from the Topa - LOL.

Absolutely LOVE avocadoes and so Wu - feel free to make guacamole for me - yes please!! laughed about the dogs eating them - as bad as my dogs with the peppers and the tomatoes!

Yes WTE - I saw the admin post - but I think you have to invite people to post - I can't post unless you invite me too.

So happy that you sold your emboidery machine. i would have loved it but probably wouldn't have used it any more than you did - just something I would have liked - one of those things I would think i would use then wouldn't!!

Diz - enjoy ireland !! Post when you can! have fun - hugs to you :l:l

WTE - I know how to copy and post and I have Word - I just usually copy as I go along - just forgot this last time - shame on me. I was SO cross with myself - trust me !!!! I always copy periodically as I go along - for some reason - probably 'cos i was up and down baking, I forgot and was SO ticked when I lost 40 mins worth of post!!

Anyway - I plan on getting to bed really early tonight - last night I did get to bed early then hubs called 'cos I wasn't answering my cell - so called the house phone saying "hi honey - you might be asleep but......" - WTH ??????? Our house phone will beep every 35 seconds until you turn off the message !!!! so I got up to answer him. Then daisy woke me to go out at 11.30. Then I woke up coughing. Then Hubs woke me when he came in sometime in the night..... and so it goes.....

Anyway, with everyone going away for a few days, it looks as if it will be me, Play and Houtx and Space here - unless Nora shows up!!!!

I am going to go and get ready for bed.

love and hugs to all,

love, Sun XXXX

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Good morning - well, coughed my way through the night and woke up this morning wondering if the 12th was too soon to stop - then a little voice in me said "Just do it for goodness sake", so it is staying at the 12th. That will give me time to go down a guinness each night when I get back. I have to do this - I keep playing with it and know i can do it.

anyway - need to water and need to shower - maybe I can save time and just shower while I water - LOL.

Hugs to all,

love, Sun XX

[WaitingToExhale]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Morning All …

Sun: WOW – Going after it with both guns! Good on you! You KNOW you will all the support in the world here …I want to be as brave! I’m proud of you.

I’m still SO shocked your DR left you hanging like that! Isn’t there an emergency number / answering service you can call? Sounds like you have it BAD!

See – I TOLD I saw your “great lost post”. HA! What a pisser losing posts. It only happened to me one time and after that I always type in Word. Never save it there – just erase it when I have posted it.

And I cannot for the life of me figure out how to “invite people” to that forum. Then again, I’ve never set one up before and it was a freebie. I wanted to make sure it was “locked’ and now I can’t figure out how to unlock it! HA! Great!

Hello to everyone else!

Another “misty” morning and I hope this ends today as I head out to the spa/winery tomorrow and planned on spending a BIG portion of my time at the salt water pool. It’s about an hour from me and a bit inland so it normally is a touch warmer. I’m going to be bummed if GF and I are stuck in out villa for 3 days!

Well, I can feel myself slipping down the slope again – it’s bad. I went and picked up my Nal yesterday – FLIP! $101.00 for 30 tablets! And it’s a generic I am not familiar with. It’s called Naltrexone but made by TEVA and says it is a generic. I can’t find much info on it and really thought I would end up with Revia. (?)

Anyways, was trying to decide when to start TSM again. Anyone that knows the program knows you drink on it. BUT, if I remember correctly I think I bit a bit nauseated the first few days. Dang – I had admin delete all my posts on the TSM site as Houtx and I were telling some wild stories on a thread she had and I made a couple of references that COULD have blown my cover. Now I wish I could go back and read all that happened back then.

So I leave tomorrow until Tuesday so I don’t want to feel ill for that. And then we start work on the MAJOR client on Wednesday who arrives on Friday. So can’t be sick for that. Then 3 days and the “San Diego Six Summit” begins! Hummmm. Guess I could try starting it that 3 days. I remember being at a point where the Nal felt like nothing … other than slowing my wine sipping down a bit. Just not sure, but I have been BAD the last few days!

Have been home office a lot (too much) and so starting too early and as always I stress about this client and all the pre-book work it takes. Then I end up taking naps because the wine makes me so lazy. Don’t get everything done I needed to = more stress = more wine. UGH. There are times I wonder about checking into rehab as well – something I have never done. But it scares me and I am NOT one that would attend meeting afterwards. I tried that years ago and it just does not feel right for me.

Oh well, I am going to put my faith in TSM again and HOPEFULLY it was the product from River that was the issue the last time around.

Houtx? What was it you were taking from your DR when doing TSM? Brand? Do you remember? And what happened on Bac with you?

I’m now wondering if I should just buy it from AllDay instead of paying over $100 a month for the script! So weird picking up scripts under this fake name! HA! I have a bad feeling this whole “under cover DR” may not have been my brightest move financially. Oh well, at least nothing is on my records.

So I have been messing around with this second computer in my office that I recently added more memory to. I could NOT get connected to the Internet for the life of me! My WiFi tower is in my bedroom, so a bit of a distance from my office and a “direct connect” is not possible. Finally broke down and called Dell – I have NO Wifi card in that computer! DUH! HA! I guess the last time I used it I had it directly connected to a T1 cable. All that finally changed when AT&T FINALLY brought cable up to these hills – we never had that option before. Another thing to add to my To-Do list. Shezzzz.

At least I will have my laptop back next week … Going to be weird not having a computer for the days I am gone!

OK – I REALLY need to get some work done so I’m off for now …

Hope everyone has a lovely day!

XOXOXO

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Hi desperado - nice to see you here. I am sorry about the Topa dopa. You can wait and see if it abates - sometimes it does eventually. It never has with me but I am at ummm.... let me just say I am not 21 any more and I always put my Topa moments down to senior moments!!! It isn't a nice feeling when you can't find the word I know but it can get better. i have been on topa for a while now and am honestly not sure if it IS the Topa or my age - LOL, although i do suspect it is the Topa. I rarely get the tingling any more. I am about to go up again to 250 mg as I am determind to stop again - I have been playing with it for a long time and have given myself a stop date of 12th september. Telling as many folk as I can so I will DO IT. The Topa does work for me but I have to get up to 300mg for it to work for me totally and I get SE's at that level.

anyway - sorry - off at a tangent about me. Lovely to have you here - let us know how you do on the 75 mg - if the Topa Dopa is too bad - go back to the 50mg again for a while and then try going up again - or even split the pill and try that. With Topa, if you go slowly it is better.

hugs, Sun XX