New here and starting Topa and with a question
Oh Dizzy Im sorry you feel so sad, have you split up with the bf, can you try and spend some time with your friends to help you through this, also you know we are your friends on here but your real life ones can make you a cup of tea and bring cake and give hugs cant they, would that be at all possible. You know you can post on here whenever you need to so maybe you could just get everyhting out on here if it would help, kind of like taking your shit to the therapist to get it off your chest. xx
Sun you seem down as well, I want to give you a big hug and tell you what a special person you really are.
Taw its so long since I read the Jason Vale book but remember that I did think he was a bit of an arrogant jerk but there where bits of it that made some sense to me. I do agree tho with the idea that we can never drink again makes it so much more difficult to stop, it did for me I just thought I didnt want to stop really and there was no way I wanted to see my future without drink in it, I thought I would miss out on way too much and wasnt prepared to give that up. If I tried now tho to list the good things about drinking I dont think the list would be very long, especially if I only put the stuff that it has actually given me not the stuff I fantasised about, in fact thinking about it I cant think of one thing to put on the list that is good about drinking. We all must know how many bad things there are tho otherwise we wouldnt be on here in the first place wanting to change. I d How is the topa working for you I cant remember but are you still drinking or have you stopped.
Hi Houxt Im not sure how things are going for you, what is your end goal with the drinking do you know, to cut down but drink each evening, just drink socially, stop, you sound a bit undecided just now, did you forget the pill or did you just want the seek off, or forget the pill then think oh thats it now Im a few hours late so I may as well miss it alltogether? x
Bug well done for carrying on trying, you are doing well. I have not been married for anything like as long as you have but think it would be normal to go through rough patches so maybe try to ride this one through and base your relationship more on how you have been together over the past few years. You are right tho in the reasons for your drinking being habit and want, the weakness is caused by the addiction but you are not weak at all because you are dealing with it. Hopefully you will get better at sorting out the habit and want as your craving lessen more. x
Im still the same, life full of problems and shit and pain but have no intention of drinking. Last night I had a bad night was waking up around every hour of less and getting up although I didnt want to, then this morning I awoke from a horrible dream that I was drinking, I had a headache and thought it was a hangover and then saw it was 10.30 so I panicked even more thinking I must of been drinking because I had missed getting my son up and he was off school so I went to his room and he wasnt there, by now I was in total panic, I kind of knew I had been dreaming but the evidence ie the hangover and missing son pointed to my having been drinking, then my eldest son asked me if I had enjoyed my lie in, he had got up and got my youngest off to school so that mystery was solved, I was dreaming and after I had my cup of coffee the headache went. I hate it when I wake up like that feeling like Ive got a hangove and that Ive been drinking when I havent at all. It doesnt seem fair does it.
space x
Oh Dizzy Im sorry you feel so sad, have you split up with the bf, can you try and spend some time with your friends to help you through this, also you know we are your friends on here but your real life ones can make you a cup of tea and bring cake and give hugs cant they, would that be at all possible. You know you can post on here whenever you need to so maybe you could just get everyhting out on here if it would help, kind of like taking your shit to the therapist to get it off your chest. xx
Sun you seem down as well, I want to give you a big hug and tell you what a special person you really are.
Taw its so long since I read the Jason Vale book but remember that I did think he was a bit of an arrogant jerk but there where bits of it that made some sense to me. I do agree tho with the idea that we can never drink again makes it so much more difficult to stop, it did for me I just thought I didnt want to stop really and there was no way I wanted to see my future without drink in it, I thought I would miss out on way too much and wasnt prepared to give that up. If I tried now tho to list the good things about drinking I dont think the list would be very long, especially if I only put the stuff that it has actually given me not the stuff I fantasised about, in fact thinking about it I cant think of one thing to put on the list that is good about drinking. We all must know how many bad things there are tho otherwise we wouldnt be on here in the first place wanting to change. I d How is the topa working for you I cant remember but are you still drinking or have you stopped.
Hi Houxt Im not sure how things are going for you, what is your end goal with the drinking do you know, to cut down but drink each evening, just drink socially, stop, you sound a bit undecided just now, did you forget the pill or did you just want the seek off, or forget the pill then think oh thats it now Im a few hours late so I may as well miss it alltogether? x
Bug well done for carrying on trying, you are doing well. I have not been married for anything like as long as you have but think it would be normal to go through rough patches so maybe try to ride this one through and base your relationship more on how you have been together over the past few years. You are right tho in the reasons for your drinking being habit and want, the weakness is caused by the addiction but you are not weak at all because you are dealing with it. Hopefully you will get better at sorting out the habit and want as your craving lessen more. x
Im still the same, life full of problems and shit and pain but have no intention of drinking. Last night I had a bad night was waking up around every hour of less and getting up although I didnt want to, then this morning I awoke from a horrible dream that I was drinking, I had a headache and thought it was a hangover and then saw it was 10.30 so I panicked even more thinking I must of been drinking because I had missed getting my son up and he was off school so I went to his room and he wasnt there, by now I was in total panic, I kind of knew I had been dreaming but the evidence ie the hangover and missing son pointed to my having been drinking, then my eldest son asked me if I had enjoyed my lie in, he had got up and got my youngest off to school so that mystery was solved, I was dreaming and after I had my cup of coffee the headache went. I hate it when I wake up like that feeling like Ive got a hangove and that Ive been drinking when I havent at all. It doesnt seem fair does it.
space x
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