Oh poor you sun having to have that in while in work, it cant be comfortable Ihope its out by the time you read this.
Candle the rehab I went to as an in patient was in an NHS hospital and really it was just like staying in hospital but with groups of a day about drinking and what to do when we leave and how to fill in time stuff like that, it was good really and I quite liked it, the plus with that as well that as it was in hospital they also did medicated detox which I needed and it was staffed by nurses, I became very unwell one night with dt's and was hallucinating and didn't know where I was and they where there to help me. Thye could also do blood work ect.
Then I went back to drinking and went to a 12 step out rehab but didn't stay there just went every day from 9-5 for three months. It was awful really and really damaged my self esteem, that's probably why I didn't just leave, the staff believed in bullying and forcing the 12 step message, you have to do this or you will die kind of thing. I will never go to 12 step again no matter what happens, I used to like the idea of going to meetings of an evening, getting out and being with people but its just not worth it because of the other stuff I would go in feeling fine and come out feeling like shit and want a drink.
I have had a horrible day all caused by some pig of a man in Asda, my local supermarket, I don't want to repeat the whole thing but I was at customer services and he was in the quew behind me, he started telling me to hurry up, I told him it would take as long as it takes and he just carried on being very abusive it was awful, then when he had been seen to by another clerk he walked off shouting f off to mewhen the security guard got involved and told him to stop swearing so he kicked off on him as well then he came back in demanding to see the manager to complain about me because the guard told him if he didn't stop they would get the police, the security guard told him he was barred out of the shop and go0t head of security, by this time I had finished being seen to and left the shop, I was shaking and still feel sick now, I don't even feel like I can eat my tea I just feel sick in my stomach, the man was off his head and I know I shouldn't let idiot scumbags like that upset me and take room in my head but I cant help it, thank god I don't drink because this would make me even more ill. it keeps on going through in my mind tho.
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