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[doyourdream]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Hi everyone,

Just checking in to say "hi".

BK, I hope you were able to run.

I'm heading to TX on Wed-Sun for a family reunion. It seems like it will be harder to keep track of what I'm drinking in this kind of environment vs. drinking at home. I'm looking forward to the trip though.

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Hi all - BK - good for you on your two glasses! And here's hoping you manage the AF til Friday - I am most impressed!! How did your run go?? The only thing with starving yourself from drink all week then 'allowing' yourself to have some , to me makes it seem like your are allowing yourself a treat - is that the way that you want it to be? I mean, I would see it the same way, so would feel the same, but I suppose it isn't the way it is meant to be. I almost dread when I get to the point of not wanting any - if that makes any sense?

DYD - how are you doing with the AL? How do you think the family reunion will go? do your family drink? mine all did, so any family reunion type of thing was just a drink-up - no-one got drunk per se - but everyone drank!

Anyway - I am off to work - closing shift - first day back.

Hugs to all,

love, Sun XX

[doyourdream]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Hey Sun,

I am drinking a little less than I was pre-Nal. Part of me is cognizant of not wanting to get sick like I did one day last week. So, where my units used to be 35+ per week before the Nal and Topa, I did 32.5 on the 1st week and 22 the second. So, I guess that's good!

Although I read on thesinclairmethod.net site that there is a "honeymoon" period on Nal so my units may go up.

I think there will be a lot of alcohol at the reunion. Someone on the other site recommended I set a timer and only have a drink on the hour or half hour or some way to pace myself. And also not let my glass get filled before it's empty.

I hope your first day back at work was good. I'm looking forward to a few days off myself!

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

DYD - I am curious - haven't read your post properly but how come you term them as units like they do in UK (can't remember if you know I am English). Will go and read your post properly now !!! LOL

Sun XX

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Okay - you were already gone so it was a moot point, but from the units from last week to this, that is really good. Do you drink wine? Is that why the suggestion was to not let your glass get refilled until it gets empty? I think the timer idea is quite good too. Yes, my first day back was fine - I was busy which was good, and got back into the swing of things really quickly - staff and customers alike said they missed me - one regular customer even gave me a hug!!! LOL

My mum is visiting in June so I HAVE to be down to either one or two a night or be AF by the time she comes - too boring to explain, but I must - she tends to be extremely patronizing with the AL "Oh - why don't you have a Guinness - I don't mind" type of thing. So, I am hoping that I am down to that by then - if it is going as it feels as if it is, I should be!!

Anyway - you leave on Wednesday - yes? Post before you go - okay?

Hugs, Sun XX

[bkyogagurl]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Hello all...

DYD~ Sounds like the Nal is working! Have you felt sick again? I think vacations are tough cause I always think it gives me permission to drink. But the funny thing is... around family I don't drink as much. Crazy I know. Hubby's family used to count my drinks as sort of a joke but it kinda pissed me off so I really don't drink much in big family gathering anymore. I hope you have lots of fun at the reunion and have family you are close too. Maybe someone close who can have your back when people are trying to fill your glass.

I didn't run on Sunday but did walk. Its a good thing cause we took the dogs for a walk and I ran some yesterday. ouch my knees are in fact... shot.
It's really kinda of depressing because running gives me such a wonderful feeling.

Sun~ I am trying not to look at the weekend as a reward. I know it probably is in the back of my mind and it isn't the thought process I should have but? hmmm.. It must be kinda hard for you with everyone around you "ok-ing" or valiadatinig that its ok drink.

I am doing well with the AF for the week days but am having trouble counting Thurs. as a week day and guess what... IT IS. But at least I am trying. I am looking to work on consumption on the days I do drink. Would like to just have 1-2 like you Sun.
I have been extremely tired and am going in to have my Thyroid checked and other girl stuff. hormones and things. I am starting to wonder if that may be why my hair is falling out. I have been extremely lethargic. I usually am busy and more active. I feel like I could sleep all day.

good day to all.
BK

[doyourdream]

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Sun,

I do remember that you are English!

The reason I call them "units" is that is what is referred to in the book , "The Cure for Alcoholism" and also on thesinclairmethod.net site. The reason is that different types of alcohol equal different units. 5 oz. of wine (which is what I normally drink) counts as 1 unit. While 16 oz. of beer (which I had at a restaurant the other night - a very nice pint of ale) is 1.6 units and hard alcohol is more. I think it's a way of comparing alchohol on a more even scale. I have a spreadsheet where I am tracking my units and it does the conversion.

And yes, since I drink wine, it's very easy to keep getting topped off when you're at a restaurant or with a group of people and then it's hard to know really how much you've had.

I haven't been sick since last week but I am very conscious to not overdo it because I REALLY don't want to feel that way again. No fun at all, especially if it happened while I am on vacation.

I am leaving tomorrow morning. I willl take my laptop with me so hopefully I'll get to check in with all of you wonderful women!

And, BK, walks are also good! I may have to do more that for my own medical reasons. Anything that gets our bodies movies is good for the heart and soul.

BK, what dose of Topamax are you on? That stuff really kicked my butt and I didn't feel good until I got off of it. Sun, do you want my leftovers?

[sunshinedaisies]

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Hi all. I have a confession to make. I had six Guinness yesterday. Started at 1.30 and had my last around 8.00 - although I actually poured most of the last one out, but that is neither here nor there. I took my dear dog to the vet yesterday and to cut a long story short, was told that she has bone cancer. She has over the past 6-8 months been having toes cut off and each time, the vet has hoped it had been contained but this time he said he needed to x-ray her foot and it was in all her bones which he said means it has probably already spread to her spine and there is nothing he can do. All I can do is to keep her comfortable - she is still eating and right now, in no pain - he has given me pain killers and when it is time, I will have her put down - I wouldn't dream of keeping her with me if she was in pain. The AL yesterday really helped me - right !!! Yeh! It was the only thing I could think to do, to sit and have a drink and cuddle her. I feel totally gutted about it, although I have got over the shock - I suppose I knew it was coming really. Just hard - she is MY dog - totally ignores Hubs and my girls. She has about 6 weeks maybe - maybe less, maybe more, depending on how she goes. I suppose I feel guilty about the drinking but would shout any of you down for saying anything (although I know you all and know you won't), but I did want to confess - sort of like having an affair and having to get it off my chest!! Tim (my vet) said as long as she is eating, she feels okay - right now she is a pig! LOL

Anyway - just needed to share - have already told them about Maggie on the journey thread (where I post regularly apart from here and the Killer thread), although I didn't tell them about my 6 Guinness on the journey thread - they might read it here though!! Oh well - whatever!

Hugs to all - sorry I am not replying to anyone - I don't work til tomorrow night so will tomorrow morning, okay?

Love, Sun XX

[sunshinedaisies]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Where is everybody? I feel lonely here.....

[sidney]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Sunshine feel so sorry for you. It is so difficult we love our pets like our children. Cuddle her and spoil her. But most of all take care of yourself. Don't feel lonely we are here for you. As much as we can. Take care. Sid

[bkyogagurl]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

OMG.... I just posted this huge post and for some reason MWO keeps kicking me off and then I have to sign in again then my post is gone... so frustrating

[bkyogagurl]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

So here goes again...

Hi Sidney!

Sun soooooo incredibly sorry about your fur baby as I call them. It is so hard. I wasn't really a dog person or so I thought until we had to put our dog down. I cried for a week and I wasn't that close to him. Now I have accumulated 3 more. Two little dogs, Boo(morkie) she's 1 1/2 and Bear who is supposed to be a yorkie but I don't know.. he's just about a year and a german short hair pup, Buck, he's 11wks and the light of my life. He is suppose to be for my husband to hunt. but we are very close. He is like having another little boy. He is so sweet. Hopefully I die before them .
I don't blame you a bit for a couple extra splashes as I call them when I don't want to full admit to drinking. I wish I was closer. I would make you dinner and shhhhhhh.... (bring you a splash) I know not the right kinda support but I think all of us here have a special understanding of each other.
I hope you are doing ok today. Don't feel like you have to address everyone all the time either. I think we all do that but don't. Big ((((((hug)))))) to you.

DYD~ hope you vacation started off wonderful. Would love to here how the Nal works in a social situation where people are always offering more. Sounds like its working at home! YAH! I hope you are ok? How come you can't run anymore? I personally hate it. But it is a fact. I'm trying to embrace the "age gracefully dealio" but sometimes I find it a pain, literally. Anxious to hear how you are doing Oh, and I quit the Topa. It has taken awhile but I am slowly starting to feeling much better. I am flyin solo right. I am kinda waiting to see how you do on Nal. You are kinda my guinea fish... I just can't imagine you as a pig. LOL Its taxing for the husband but he is just going to have to put his big boy pants on while I get through this. I have stood by his side all these years. He knows and told me he is in it forever. Although forever can be an awful long time.

As for me... not so good with the AF for the week. Totally bombed Tuesday and had a bottle +. Wednesday only a couple(meaning approx. 3 but spread out so not getting drunk) and last night I went to a local wine place to meet a friend and only consumed 3 over a spread. She then bought me a beer and I barely drank it.

Went to my gyno for a check up and had a total breakdown. Told her about everything that had been going with me. And to my surprise... she told me it was normal. WHAT? She said that it sounded like my hormones were changing and I was estrogen deficient(sp). I even told her about my AL consumption and she said I was self medicating my elf to escape the anxious, crappy feelings and mood swings. She described what was happening to me like she was inside my body. I have also been using AL for pain control around that time of the month due to the horrible cramps and stuff. Sorry if that's TMI. I am going to have the NovaSure procedure done to allievate that. I never had to deal with all this crap as a younger woman so it was very confusing to me, when my body started missbehaving. I thought why can't I deal with this pain. I normally have a high pain tolerance. And with that, she said she had went through it too. Drinking and having emotional issues, and things with the husband. She told me that she couldn't stand hearing her husband breathe at night. She said it is very difficult for people like me who have breezed through girl stuff most of my life, then get blindsided with this stuff. I was blaming myself for not being able to control what was happening to me physically and emotionally. I could have squeezed her to death. Looks like my hair falling out could be due to other issues too, according to her. And this crappy weight gain around the middle.. I have never had that even if I was drinking a lot. It is a relief to me and for some reason... I think it has helped my mind set for drinking. It's like I have a reason for the way I have felt.

We have friends coming in tonight so I hoping that I can maintain my having only a few drinks. Wish me luck. Thanks for listening my friends. Have a great weekend.

big hugs,
BK

[bkyogagurl]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

MWO tried to kick me off again... but I was smart and copied my post... does anyone know about this?

[Cinders]

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When you login there is a check box that says Remember me?

Check that and you will not get kicked off.

You may have to logout first so you are prompted for your user id again.

HTH,
Cindi

[bkyogagurl]

New here and starting Topa and with a question

Thanks Cindi,

but I do check the box? maybe it is my computer.