Hi Sun,
I'm so glad you are back, I thought you might be gone for some odd reason and just when I was getting comfortable and making friends here, at least you didn't let my avatar scare you away, haha, it was a little wierd even to me but I like kind of wierd things even though I am the most down to earth Capricorn you will ever meet and a grandmother at that. And yes, I am feeling very happy and positive at the moment because I have been at my absolute wit's end for the last year and a half, just desperate, just like all of you, but I didn't start reading on this site until a month ago and didn't post until just a short time ago so it was all kept inside of me and no one else knew what I was going thru. My daughters had finally picked up on the fact that I have a problem but since they don't live with me they believed me when I said I had it under control and their dad is a raging alcoholic and pot smoker, we are divorced, and they see him just out of control and in total denial, so they naturally worry about me. I've been desperate because it finally became clear to me and took over my life. I would rush home and just gulp down the wine like it was the last bottle in the world and then start on another one a little more slowly, oh god, I was sick of it. The Topa was a mircle, on day 3 I had 3 AF days and since then only a glass now and then and some AF nights, still a bit of wanting it but I think it is mostly the habit. But I am terrified it will wear off. I am not stopping TOPA for all the money in the world.
So, that's my story and I'm sticking to it, I just pray it continues to go the same, and I've also had a hugh decrease in appetite. I am at 25 mg, I just can't believe, the SE have gone away, but I still feel kind of "dinstinctly calm" if that makes sense, it is wierd. I'm going to add 25 mg. tomorrow AM just because I feel a little increase in the "wanting it" feeling.
Thanks for being here Sun, I really appreciate your help, I just thank everyone here.
Hugs,
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