Hey guys
I have a cold and I'm actually in a hole here. I wrote something last night but I deleted it. Sorry Houtx, must kill you to know I do it on purpose...
Group therapy can hurt but I like the way that we are doing it. I like the way that we are honest yet not overbearing. Asking each other to challenge and ask questions instead of forcing opinions down ones throats.
I mean some therapists don't even talk but that just kills me :durn: but I think the best way of therapy is to guide the person to come to their own conclusions. Thats why sometimes when someone says something I listen, I respond and then I relate. Thats not to say I am now changing the subject because my stuff is more important than your stuff. Its because we are still talking about the same thing.
Same with you, Space, and all the rest.
And to be honest whether we are talking about lost posts, roosters or daughters there is bound to be some memory to come up with.
Sun, why do you think your one daughter is so stubborn? Or why is it you think you get along well with the other one?
I know I don't get along with my dad as we are both alike and we are both stubborn but you don't strike me as the stubborn type. I have read somewhere however that we often struggle the most to get along with the child that takes after us the most?
I'm also sorry Space about your daughter. Could the two of you please remind me again of how many daughters you have? I will have to start making notes I know that Sun has two older daughters and I know Space has an older daughter and sun and a younger sun but I may be missing out on someone here.
Sometimes I wish we could draw family trees but other times I think its better as it is because you don't want to make it too easy for people to 'track you down.'
I'm not too phased about anonymity but I have had some weird PM's from people on here who I have never spoken to on a thread before. Its like they know all about me and its a little disconcerting.
On days like this I'm glad I don't have children. Its tough enough looking after me. But then we are still doing tests with the PCOS to determine whether I can have children at all which hurts. About a year ago I started dreaming of having a little girl, had a name picked and everything and when I picked up things with my boyfriend he said that although he didn't think he wanted kids he wanted to have this little girl with me. Now, of course we're not stupid and we know it could've been a boy or that we would've had to adopt but it was a nice dream.
But now that things aren't fully resolved it feels like I'm going through this PCOS journey alone and that even if I can have this fictitious little girl, I don't want to anymore because life is just too cruel. And that even if I do change my mind and if it turns out I can, I do not want to have her with this person who has shown me that he doesn't fully understand what unconditional love is.
Sorry, didn't mean to make it about me, and Play and the rest please feel to jump in with your daughter&/mother issues.
I'm really glad you thought of the sharing club Play and although I really don't want to take over, I have a suggestion. If we're going to share, it probably means we have to get over the worries of anonymity, so it means that only the people willing to share their real names and addresses will be in on it. Also, I think it would probably be nice if we could keep it small and to just us for now. So how about those of use who want to be in the club PM you our email addresses and then you can send out a group email in a few days time with the titles of stuff you have?
r />Then Sunny or I could follow up with ours etc. And of course don't worry about having to have stuff Space. It will be a nice way to keep the list private and have a list of the titles all in one place. Anyway, its just an idea, otherwise I'll be happy to do it any which way you want to, I just need about a week to find my stuff, its so scattered across my computer, laptop, external drive and flash drive. It will take about 2 weeks for mail from me to you or you to me anyway but perhaps it will be nice to have it spread out a bit.
I ordered the Rhodiola stupidly thinking its next day delivery as its via courier but they sent me an email to expect anything between 4-5 WORKING DAYS. Bafoons.
Let me go rest. I do like ebooks but also belong to this book exchange store as I believe in everything reuse, reduce, recycle (especially the first two) So I took in 8 books and came home with 7 and only paid R230! Thats what we normally pay for one book - bargain. Its a pity postage would make these a bit silly for the sharing club as they are all on health, let food be thy medicine etc. Oh and I also got an Insight Guide to London and the follow up book to Eat Pray Love.
Cheery bye, I feel better after my stupid crying session, lets hope that Rhodiola gets here soon to take that damn edge off. (but somehow I think Sunny has a better chance of retrieving the best post EVER)
Love and hugs to all.
:h
PS: And yes Wildflowers I will send you lots of wild honey and there is enough of my friends to ensure that Winnie the pooh will never be able to eat it all. So do come visit, I think you too will like our little sharing club.
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