Oh Play, thank you so much, you dont know how much it means to me to see you say that it is so lovely of you, thank you :l I am only doing what I can to try and get better, the other option is unbearable as I think you all know a bit of how bad my drinking actually got.
I am wondering about normal drinkers and if there even is such a thing. Alcohol is an addictive chemical so to some extent it affects everyone who drinks it. I suppose my son is pretty close to normal, (the eldest one who's 23, not the 13 yr old :H ). He drinks on social occasions, but I dont want to be like him, I want ot be able to have one at home when I want one. I think my drinking role model was always my mum who has a drink every night but never gets drunk and only very rarley has too much, its is only very recently as I told you all that she told me that she need it, does that mean she has a problem or is still normal, I dont know. I think what we all want its what sits right with each of us, where we ourselves feel at ease with our own drinking. I know for me that even at one can every night I dont feel quite right, I think that may well be because I am still lying to my son and daughter about it, I told my mum I am going to wait 6 months and them tell them if everything goes ok, that way they wont be able to say it doesnt work. Also, theres something about the fact that I have to buy the big pint cans, I dont know what it is, I know if I get the smaller ones tho I will just drink more of them right now, maybe in a while I will be able to change that.
The things I dont do are go to work, you all do that but I havent got a job so dont, I am still trying and will look into some kind of voluntary work otherwise I think, and exercise. My poor doggies dont get walks anywhere near enough, and with my fatigue and aches and pains at times I just cant be bothered doing any exercise, I am trying to be patient with myself it was only a matter of weeks ago I was in bed most of the day tho and now Im up and doing things some/most of the time.
I too like the fact that the group here is like a family, just so long as we dont all start behaving like my family does on a Sunday :H
I had to go and get blood test done this morning so in between getting up with my son and waiting to go there, (I had to fast so no coffee) I decided to play some of a cd, I think the ones are off the depression cd, Play, anyway I fell asleep this morning, but then Iat least I did go and get the blood done without giving in to the coffee pot.
Got to go now maties, catch you all later xoxo
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