So yes...no drinking on the Sunday as it was a bit tricky...and I can't even up my Topa dosage as I don't even have enough. I am waiting on my doc to fax back a refill prescription. Another weekend is almost upon us.
The weeks have been rather quite and I have been keeping busy...but today I got into a fight with my boyfriend and I usually don't know how to cope with that other then by drinking...there is booze at my house (of course!! why not?!!) but I know I really don't want to drink. I also know that I really don't want to go home. I just want to kinda go to sleep.
I keep asking people what they do when they go home...I mean...don't people get bored doing the same thing? Then again...how could I have not gotten bored just drinking my life away every night, Jesus...
I'm not sure if I feel a little depressed I don't have my drinking buddy - wine - with my anymore? Then again I am glad I kicked his ass to the curb...I know it's the habit more than anything.
I miss the laughs with my boyfriend too I guess...I know things are better between us...but then again I also think that sometimes things may be a bit strained...he hated that I drank...but maybe he hates the sober me too...
Ugh. I can't figure things out. I know it's too early. But...
It's just one of those days.
One of those emotional days.
And I'm hungry and I don't want to eat because I'm fat. :boohoo:
-Bri*
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