GO YOU re the fellowship - how wonderful for you.
I had to laugh at the different things that you drink .... what a mixture ! No wonder you get hung over !
Yesterday was hectic. I found out in the morning that I needed some signatures IMMEDIATELY. So I had to run to campus, print some forms (in color, stupid letterhead), and meet with my advisor for his signature and also the chair of the department. Meeting with my advisor was stressful - because I'm so far behind. And, well, by the mid-afternoon I must admit the withdrawal anxiety was starting to get to me. Geez, after only a couple days of boozing. This is bulls***t. But I took 1/2 an Ativan and rode it out as best I could.
The meeting went OK, and brought me back down to reality - it's better to be in the position I'm in, being nominated for the fellowship, than not being nominated, but it's still in no way a sure thing. I guess I'm 1 of 3 people nominated and I think the department usually gets 2. And I have to revise my proposal by today. So I got home and did dishes and cleaned up the place and took out trash and recycling, printed my proposal that needs revised and went to the bar. Ooof. Got drunk, got some actually really good work done, got to see the newest bartender, who's pretty cute not gonna lie. Got home and listened to music and felt sad about myself and my life and passed out.
This morning it's beer and V8 along with my coffee. Going to finish this proposal and a couple other random school things that need to be taken care of via email. And I f**king love LA when it rains.
Oh, right, and the e-cig. I ran out of smokes yesterday and was solely using the e-cig. It was going pretty well - I like the NJoy quite a bit, as I find it's the closest simulation of a real cigarette that I've found so far. I was a little concerned that drinking would break my willpower, but it didn't at first. But then some Marlboro reps came into the bar as they tend to do, and who can resist a pack for $1? So I got some coupons and bought a pack there and am going to keep trying to switch over to the e-cigs, but smoking real ones this morning. Trying. Trying. That's all we can do.
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