I have spent a considerable amount of time on this thread over a number of months, although I have done so fairly inconsistently. I read Dr. Ameisen's book awhile ago, as well. I have been aware of baclofen for some time now, and was extremely excited and hopeful about this new treatment for alcoholism.
But, true to my pattern, and likely baffling to others, after my initial introduction to Dr. A's book, as well as extensive lurking on here and other corners of the internet where baclofen treatment is being discussed, I just let it go. It just slipped my mind, which is kind of hard to believe. Well another crisis has struck. Not that it is any great surprise to me, because it is not. This time, however, my conduct while intoxicated may very well cost me my girlfriend and my job.
Again, I am not exactly shocked, but I am ready to do what I should have done months ago. I am very nervous and frightened that this may not work for me, but I honestly don't know what to do. I have been to AA on and off for years. I have been to two inpatient rehab centers and one outpatient program. I have 2 DUIs and don't even own a vehicle anymore because I am fearful of the consequences. I work for a website from home, and seriously doubt I could hold any other position in my current state.
I am 27, and would say that I probably have been an alcoholic for 10 years at this point. My pattern is to drink heavily and consistently with some benders mixed in for good measure. I have suffered quite a bit as a result of this addiction, and I am becoming concerned about my health - not to mention that the job and girlfriend may be about to go. I have put my family through an awful lot. I recently moved from Chicago where I went to college to a Western State. The rest of my family lives in another Midwestern town. It is just me and my girlfriend and I am afraid I may have betrayed her trust to an extent that could prove to be too much.
I have had a deep desire to end this insanity for several years now - but it is never enough, apparently. The cravings have always caused me to relapse. The stories described here, as well as Dr. A's experience, seem nothing short of a miracle, however. I do not hold any deep grudges against AA or the treatment experiences I have had, but similar to Dr. A, these approaches have not been effective for me on account of the craving. I want to give this a shot.
Furthermore, I am hoping to document my experience for others on this site. I need to learn some accountability, and also feel as if the stories that others have shared have been a ray of light in what I have sometimes deemed a hopeless situation for myself. By posting my experience here, I am hoping that it will give me the desire to stick with it as long as it takes, no matter what. Please feel free to give me any input that you believe would be helpful to my situation.
Right now, I have a pretty simple plan. I am going to try to contact Dr. Levin tonight. From what I gather, he has been very helpful and generous with his time in trying to advance this treatment. If he can help me, and write me a script, great. If not, my plan is just to order the Bac from one of the pharmacies listed on MWO, and begin self-treating myself with the help of this forum. I have had enough. I hope this is an answer for me too!
But, true to my pattern, and likely baffling to others, after my initial introduction to Dr. A's book, as well as extensive lurking on here and other corners of the internet where baclofen treatment is being discussed, I just let it go. It just slipped my mind, which is kind of hard to believe. Well another crisis has struck. Not that it is any great surprise to me, because it is not. This time, however, my conduct while intoxicated may very well cost me my girlfriend and my job.
Again, I am not exactly shocked, but I am ready to do what I should have done months ago. I am very nervous and frightened that this may not work for me, but I honestly don't know what to do. I have been to AA on and off for years. I have been to two inpatient rehab centers and one outpatient program. I have 2 DUIs and don't even own a vehicle anymore because I am fearful of the consequences. I work for a website from home, and seriously doubt I could hold any other position in my current state.
I am 27, and would say that I probably have been an alcoholic for 10 years at this point. My pattern is to drink heavily and consistently with some benders mixed in for good measure. I have suffered quite a bit as a result of this addiction, and I am becoming concerned about my health - not to mention that the job and girlfriend may be about to go. I have put my family through an awful lot. I recently moved from Chicago where I went to college to a Western State. The rest of my family lives in another Midwestern town. It is just me and my girlfriend and I am afraid I may have betrayed her trust to an extent that could prove to be too much.
I have had a deep desire to end this insanity for several years now - but it is never enough, apparently. The cravings have always caused me to relapse. The stories described here, as well as Dr. A's experience, seem nothing short of a miracle, however. I do not hold any deep grudges against AA or the treatment experiences I have had, but similar to Dr. A, these approaches have not been effective for me on account of the craving. I want to give this a shot.
Furthermore, I am hoping to document my experience for others on this site. I need to learn some accountability, and also feel as if the stories that others have shared have been a ray of light in what I have sometimes deemed a hopeless situation for myself. By posting my experience here, I am hoping that it will give me the desire to stick with it as long as it takes, no matter what. Please feel free to give me any input that you believe would be helpful to my situation.
Right now, I have a pretty simple plan. I am going to try to contact Dr. Levin tonight. From what I gather, he has been very helpful and generous with his time in trying to advance this treatment. If he can help me, and write me a script, great. If not, my plan is just to order the Bac from one of the pharmacies listed on MWO, and begin self-treating myself with the help of this forum. I have had enough. I hope this is an answer for me too!
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