Paranoid, or . . .

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

Does all the discussion here about different meds, how to get them, ordering online, discussions of dosage outside of professional care ? all that ? make anybody else nervous? It occurs to me that Roberta and Dr. Levin (and maybe even us) are kind of putting themselves out there. Begin with the understanding that I?m paranoid and have anxiety issues, but sometimes new posts look like bait to me. I guess I?m ultimately worried about someone getting accused of wrongdoing and the forum being shut down. Does anyone else worry about that?

[Seethepony]

Paranoid, or . . .

How do I know you're not Dr Levin, come to check on whether he is who I think he thinks I think he is?

I'm not replying until I see some proof.

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

Paranoid, or . . .

I can't be Dr. Levin 'cause I'm a girl. Unless you think he is a girl, or he thinks he is a girl, or he thinks you think that he is girl. Or he thinks that you think that he thinks he is a girl.

:nutso:

See, good call on how my brain ties itself into knots.

But, we're overlooking one important alternative: Dr. Levin really is a girl! In order to settle this dilemma, we need a volunteer (preferably from the Chicago area) to pull down Dr. Levin's pants, so that we will know with certainty whether or not this forum is being infiltrated by spies!

[ignominous]

Paranoid, or . . .

Love your avatar.

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

Paranoid, or . . .

Thanks, Ig. It’s a very girly looking kitten, don’t you think? She’s a Scottish Fold, and is very fond of lager, which she enjoys in large quantities. At the time the photo was taken, she thought she was holding her head up straight. Poor dear.

[ignominous]

Paranoid, or . . .

And Yes Topsy I 'm very worried about putting me out there but I don't really have a viable alternative.

I think we're more likely to see a modern day peasants revolt than the forum being shut down.

Tell me again when will you discuss baclofen with your Dr

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

Paranoid, or . . .

Today, Ig, in about six hours. I'm nervous! It's a good thing that I have an appt. with my boss in four hours, because I'm not sure I could resist sneaking in a few beers before visiting the doc otherwise.

[ignominous]

Paranoid, or . . .

What's to be nervous about? Its your life, the Doc's your employee. I know its easy said but this is maybe important to you for the rest of your life. Want you to post what he says and what you think.

BTW I was talking about Seethepony's avatar but not to worry I'm also self centered.

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

Paranoid, or . . .

That's true. The worst she can do is say "no," and then I'll say, "You're fired! Clean out your desk and leave your keys with the receptionist!" (In my dreams )

I'll post when I get back. I haven't gotten anything done today. Just waiting for the morning to be over so I don't have to wait anymore. This feels like the longest morning of my life.

[Seethepony]

Paranoid, or . . .

Hey Ig, she wasn't being self centered, you were being unclear! (I thought you were talking about her avatar, too!)

Tracy, I re-read your opening sentence and I think I misunderstood you. A more helpful answer for me to give would be: Yes, it is possible that some vague entity out there might want to frame us and shut down this forum -- though they'd have to be butt-headed, malicious control freaks to want to do that. But what are we going to do? We can't know who we're talking to, so let's assume the best, unless we have good reason to think otherwise.

(My colleagues in FBI tell me it's the best way to gain the trust of strangers!)

[ignominous]

Paranoid, or . . .

Yes I was a bit ambiguous. Sometimes you look at a post and in the time it takes to compose a reply someone else pops one in before you.

Sorry all. I have a feeling I'm going to be saying this frequently.

Topsy you're either in the waiting room or the pub. Good luck.

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

Paranoid, or . . .

ignominous;975329 wrote: Topsy you're either in the waiting room or the pub. Good luck.

I don't know if it was luck, but it was good. She was very interested actually, asked me a bunch of questions (I think my family history was the clincher), and joked, "You can be a guinea pig if you want." She advised that maybe 5-5-5 might be a little much at first and cut back to one at bedtime if the SE's were severe, and work my way up from there. She wrote me a script for 90 10mg pills and gave me a refill. If I have problems, need more, or whatever, to call her. We have another appointment in four weeks to assess how it's gone. Naturally, she wanted blood work so I got poked (happens every time).

As she was leaving, I thanked her for being so open-minded. She said (her exact words), "There is no reason not to be. This is a very low-risk drug."

The line at the pharmacy was long and I was starving, so I dropped the script off and will pick up the pills in the morning. And insurance has to cover it - YEA!!!!

[ignominous]

Paranoid, or . . .

Go back and get the pills. I hate these cliff hangers!

Also what is your family history? Why do you want to stop drinking? What problems do you face if you don't stop? Maybe you've explained this on another thread that I haven't read, please point. Also they may be questions you don't want to answer hear, I will do my best to understand.

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

Paranoid, or . . .

Family history: Both parents were alcoholic for most of their lives. They did get sober in their late 50s. My kid brother had dementia by the time he was 40. The doctors assumed it was due to his incredible alcohol consumption (he had never left home and still lived with my folks). But he had MS too, so, who knows what caused what. Out of my four siblings, only one has never had a drinking problem, and she's mortally obese.

I want to stop drinking because it's trashed my life.

Problems if I don't stop: I can't make a living (hangovers cause an awful lot of sick time; and when I'm sober, anxiety does not lead to sound decisions). I can't be a partner to my husband. My children won't leave their children in my care. Need I go on?

It's okay if you ask. If I don't want to answer, I won't.

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

Paranoid, or . . .

Probably the most significant thing in the "If I don't stop" category is that I question if I want to live anymore, if I have to feel this miserable all the time. Does that make sense?