Sobriety. Whatever that is.

[startingover]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

Not a Bac user Iggy

[ignominous]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

Woah. Fish slap.
With the nicotine bit, I thought I had found my guru.
Need some time to assimilate.
But if you're on a schedule, tell me how

[startingover]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

LMAO!
I can be your guru if you like :-)

[ignominous]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

What is LMAO

Tell me about it and quick, I know my connection is going to die and I'm not talking about boundary issues

[jodiex]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

LMAO? laughin my a**e off

[aurora borialis]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

best thread I've read in a while. Love the nutty stuff reminds me of my mind sometimes. Good to see real in a different way.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

Damn your internet connection! Boundary issues--that's funny.

[Phoenix1]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

I think he spoke from the heart but I'm not sure.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

Phoenix, aren't we all? Ig's post made me laugh out loud... I wasn't making fun. Not by any stretch.

[ignominous]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

Make fun all you like, with my new found stoicsm I 'm sure I'll find a way through.

Please forgive the spelling while I can't afford the luxury of googling.

Nice to know so many people take notice

One consequence of a slow/non existent connection is that one of my more scathing posts didn't go through. The moment has passed and another post filled the silence that was waiting for me. Truly a wasted opportunity, inspired comment and to some undoubtably a missed belly laugh. To others a welcome reprieve from having their wounds prodded. 'To post or not to post' or 'to be pretentious or not' might be suitable new threads. What the feck.

I'm in this for myself. I hope I'm doing no one any harm but that, frankly/honestly/bluntly takes a distant second place. That it helps some people is music to my ears/eyes (some metaphores don't work so well on the internet!).

I also liked the connection pun and/but I seriously/frankly/honestly/bluntly do have issues of my own I have to work through.

OK enough said and you all now know I cant spell for psyhit. Now is this going to go through or disappear into cyberspace

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

Clearly, Ig, you've got a lot going on. We all do to some extent or another. One of the most difficult things I experienced in rehab was listening to the horrors that other people had lived through. Especially the one where there were prison inmates. I know it's selfish, but I kept wondering why the feck I was a drunk when I didn't, relatively speaking, have any real reason to find solace in a bottle. I actually called my dad to ask him if there was something that happened to me that I didn't remember, some tragedy or something that would give me a reason to be alcoholic. But, no, no excuses. I do come from a very long line of drunks, though. I think if I were to trace my ancestors the path would lead to bars all over northern europe.
But that's not the point is it? I'm not saying that some of us don't develop this disease in response to tragedy or travesty. I couldn't make that argument. But whatever the reason I know that I won't address a damn thing until I'm off the sauce. It's just too easy to hide. And as is clear from my posts, I'm not fond of discomfort.

I hope you're not in Indonesia, friend.

[ignominous]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

I make no judgement call about where my disease came from; only that, as you said. I won't get anything sorted out whilst I've got the option of hiding at the bottom of a bottle.

BTW you don't have to be shy that none of your family are mass murderers paedophiles or that you had to raise yourself behind the garbage tip. You've got plenty of real problems, I can tell. LOL

Isolde You're sometimes sweet and thoughtful in a dappy chick kind of way but you've got to work on that alcoholic. "lets piss someone off" gene.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

Ouch? or not?

Who's got to work on the alcoholic-piss-someone-off gene?

I swore I'd never come back here. At least not until I had some reasonable amount of bac/sobriety in my system. Preferably more sobriety, less bac. Or some measure of clarity. But where else is there?

So I got home, logged in and took another fecking pill.
You all make me laugh. With teeth.

I reserve the right to be incredulous. But Ig, if people in your world are noticing, you're on the right path. Does it matter if it's miraculous? It might just be the same old grind with one less monkey on your back.

I'm headed to DC tomorrow. (3 hour ride) I've decided to take a ride with friends. I'm very uncomfortable about it, as they don't drink or smoke. And that sucks for me. sort of.
I may take the bac, I may not. I'm definitely hoping I don't pull out the old me and have them pouring me into my bed...

[Isolde]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

ignominous;991179 wrote: Isolde You're sometimes sweet and thoughtful in a dappy chick kind of way but you've got to work on that alcoholic. "lets piss someone off" gene.

Fuck you, Ig.

That better?

Actutally I don't think I have the alcoholic let's piss someone off gene. I've always been a very happy drunk. That's a big reason why it was always so hard for me to stop. A drunk Beth is a happy Beth, light hearted and laughing, affectionate towards my bf, etc. Me abstaining is a whole other story. I turn into one grumpy bitch, so much so that my bf (who knows I have a problem) has suggested I have a drink on more than one occasion in the past when I was trying to be AF.
For anyone that's familiar with the show Futurama, I always thought of myself as Bender, the robot who uses alcohol as fuel. It felt that alcohol "put me right". Until I had too much and felt like shit the next day (which was a lot of the time). Now it's bac that puts me right and I can function somewhat normally w/out anything else.

:see:

So, nyah!

[ignominous]

Sobriety. Whatever that is.

Hi gals

Been shut out of the internet until this moment, more of that later.

Ne I usually relate to relate to what you are saying as I did with this recent last post. I don't get the part about "I may or may not take the Bac"

Isolde, it works for me. Sorry for being a fucker. How did it feel to write it?