Due to the insomnia and other insidious SEs that I was experiencing at 155mgs, I dropped down to 135mgs. I believe that was on Saturday, so I'd been at my switch dose for about a week. I wanted to stay on it for awhile before titrating down, but I desperately needed to get some sleep. I'd even tried xanax and klonopin (the latter of which ALWAYS works for me), and I fell into a deep sleep for a few hours, but then I would wake up and just lie there. It wasn't the annoyed tossing and turning of before, I was quite relaxed, just wide awake.
Despite an incredibly high level of stress, I still hadn't been feeling any inclination to drink with the lower dose. Yesterday was an especially difficult day, and I had been thinking of having half a glass of beer with dinner. I ended up feeling bac'd out of my brain (plus had half of a xanax earlier in the day which I was still feeling in my system), and ended up forgetting all about it..
Once again tonight, half a glass of a cold beer is sounding good. I'm not sure if this means I should have stayed at the switch dose longer, but there was just no way I could do that. I was thinking about it though - abstinence was never my goal. I just didn't want alcohol to consume my life any longer. Mission accomplished! I would LIKE to be able to enjoy a beer or glass of wine every now and then. As it stands right now, I've been AF for 7 days. It's funny, I couldn't remember if it had been 5 or 6 days. I had to look back at my thread to see what day I'd decided to stop drinking.
I'm still getting a LOT of side effects at 135mgs, which I wasn't getting before. Aside from the insomnia, everything is pretty much the same as it was at 155. I feel drugged a lot of the time. My eyes are heavy lidded, I have a hard time focusing, vision-wise and also mentally. How much of this is due to the lack of sleep I was experiencing is hard to say. I did get a pretty good night's sleep the last 2 nights. But my coworker told me today that I looked tired. This morning when I woke up, I felt like I could have slept for the rest of the day, easily. That's actually due to something else that happened recently, but I'll update that part over on my own thread, so as not to hijack this one.
I am definitely looking forward to titrating down more! But want to let the bac do it's work, so thinking I'll stay at 135mgs for a week before going down again.
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