Progress thread for ne
Hiya, peeps!
It took me a minute or two (hundred) to get over the kerfuffle.*** I still have the urge to wade in to the muck. That was a doozy, wasn't it? Not just the dead thread, but the temper tantrum that came before it from our fearless leader. (?!?) And then...life! ***Edit: Lots for me to look at in my own participation, too. ouch.
It's fun for me to think about the fact that you four (grat, redT, DG and Mario) have been at this business of living fully--sober--for quite a bit longer. And each with a different path. But do you remember the first year of milestones??? wooohooo!
Couple of big things happened in the last week or so. Two of them are very sobering.
Ed received a letter from a woman we know who is in prison. She killed two men while driving drunk. They were on their way home to their families from their second jobs late at night. She was on her way home from a bar.
And we lost another one. I didn't know him well, but he made me laugh on a regular basis. We shared enough PMs over the last year and more that even though I didn't know his real name, I felt like we were friends. It's hard not to take it personally, isn't it? I am bereft at the sea of nameless, faceless people I meet here that are soon lost in the wake of kerfuffle or worse...
I turned 42. That in itself is no big thing. But I started on this quest for cured a year before I turned 40. I didn't want to wake up on the anniversary of what was to be the second half of my life hungover. And not only was I hungover on my 40th birthday morning, remembering the night before filled me with shame and remorse.
41 found me hungover and miserable, too. I was struggling to figure out a way to take bac in spite of the horrible SEs. I started it, for the third time, a week later, on Oct. 4th. I knew that it was that or nothing, and that I wasn't going down without a herculean effort to get well.
I woke up without a hangover for my 42nd year and didn't even realize it! I forgot it was my birthday, forgot I used to be so sick, and just went about the business of living fully! It wasn't until Ed surprised me with flowers and a dinner reservation that I remembered the whole story of birthdays. We both rejoiced at the idea of having a celebratory meal in a fancy restaurant without wanting so much as a sip of champagne. It was the best birthday ever. wow. :-)
All of that leads me to the conclusion that it's time for me to take it to the streets! Silence is almost as deadly as the disease itself, in my humble opinion. And I've got some pretty good role models for figuring out how to pay it forward. The debt I owe you (all) and others from here hasn't been close to repaid.
And OH! WOW! Today is my 8 month indifference anniversary! Happy day, Murph!!!
It'll be three months for Ed in 2 days. And I was able to share some of our experience with my dad, and I think he may give bac a shot.
So many reasons to celebrate. Wow. (Which is the theme I chose from the link you sent me, Red. A reminder of WOW!)
Newbies and lurkers? Just don't give up. Whatever you gotta do...It'll be worth it. That's a promise. I wasn't sure, either. But it is.
Much love and gratitude. :l and :h and lots of :H:H
Hiya, peeps!
It took me a minute or two (hundred) to get over the kerfuffle.*** I still have the urge to wade in to the muck. That was a doozy, wasn't it? Not just the dead thread, but the temper tantrum that came before it from our fearless leader. (?!?) And then...life! ***Edit: Lots for me to look at in my own participation, too. ouch.
It's fun for me to think about the fact that you four (grat, redT, DG and Mario) have been at this business of living fully--sober--for quite a bit longer. And each with a different path. But do you remember the first year of milestones??? wooohooo!
Couple of big things happened in the last week or so. Two of them are very sobering.
Ed received a letter from a woman we know who is in prison. She killed two men while driving drunk. They were on their way home to their families from their second jobs late at night. She was on her way home from a bar.
And we lost another one. I didn't know him well, but he made me laugh on a regular basis. We shared enough PMs over the last year and more that even though I didn't know his real name, I felt like we were friends. It's hard not to take it personally, isn't it? I am bereft at the sea of nameless, faceless people I meet here that are soon lost in the wake of kerfuffle or worse...
I turned 42. That in itself is no big thing. But I started on this quest for cured a year before I turned 40. I didn't want to wake up on the anniversary of what was to be the second half of my life hungover. And not only was I hungover on my 40th birthday morning, remembering the night before filled me with shame and remorse.
41 found me hungover and miserable, too. I was struggling to figure out a way to take bac in spite of the horrible SEs. I started it, for the third time, a week later, on Oct. 4th. I knew that it was that or nothing, and that I wasn't going down without a herculean effort to get well.
I woke up without a hangover for my 42nd year and didn't even realize it! I forgot it was my birthday, forgot I used to be so sick, and just went about the business of living fully! It wasn't until Ed surprised me with flowers and a dinner reservation that I remembered the whole story of birthdays. We both rejoiced at the idea of having a celebratory meal in a fancy restaurant without wanting so much as a sip of champagne. It was the best birthday ever. wow. :-)
All of that leads me to the conclusion that it's time for me to take it to the streets! Silence is almost as deadly as the disease itself, in my humble opinion. And I've got some pretty good role models for figuring out how to pay it forward. The debt I owe you (all) and others from here hasn't been close to repaid.
And OH! WOW! Today is my 8 month indifference anniversary! Happy day, Murph!!!
It'll be three months for Ed in 2 days. And I was able to share some of our experience with my dad, and I think he may give bac a shot.
So many reasons to celebrate. Wow. (Which is the theme I chose from the link you sent me, Red. A reminder of WOW!)
Newbies and lurkers? Just don't give up. Whatever you gotta do...It'll be worth it. That's a promise. I wasn't sure, either. But it is.
Much love and gratitude. :l and :h and lots of :H:H
Your going to kill me but for some reason I assumed you were over 42 
Said in the most repectfull way :H
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