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The "deed" is never done, and Dr L would agree with that since he prescribes staying at switch dose for life.
I have never, and will never, agree that one should stay on the switch dose. Ever. I've never known anyone to do it. And I know a few people who really regretted attempting it. I have never come close to my switch dose, after titrating down almost immediately afterward. That said, the side effects at 320mg were easier than the side effects at 60mg for me.
Ginger, the deed is done. It's been a year. How long will it take until I can say that for sure? I got a glass of wine at the event we went to last week. I carried it around for a while. It got in the way. It wasn't good wine. I left it on a table and never thought about it again. The deed is done. I am indifferent to alcohol.
Why would anyone take more than they have to? The key is to find the balance. Right? I went down to 100mg shortly after I reached indifference. I started drinking more. So I went back up to 220mg. I've been down as low as 120mg and back up to 200mg. This is unrelated to how I feel about booze, though. It's related to finding a balance that allows me to live without crippling anxiety. I'm currently at 140mg. Still don't want booze. Still doing fine.
GingerDust;1267864 wrote: Some people, I would guess that majority (more than 50%?) are not able and not willing to live in a mentally and physically compromised state in order to "enjoy" indifference. At this point you must know many people whose professions and whose lives could not permanently accommodate the massive side effects of HDB POST switch. That is not a "moot" point. There is no fallacious thinking going on with those people, but there is also no denial regarding the impact of HDB. Maybe you are less impacted by side effects?
GingerDust;1267864 wrote: Even you continue to struggle with increasing dose to control cravings and then decreasing dose to improve your own ability to function, so when is the "deed" done for you? If that is your chosen path, go for it. Your characterization of the decision to get off the SE roller coaster as a product of "fallacious thinking" bothers me though.
The roller coaster ends, Ginger. Completely. And that is one of my main points. I understand why you made your decision, but for those that come behind that want complete freedom from the burden of craving, thoughts and wishes about alcohol, I want to be clear. It is freedom from that.
I won't talk about Antabuse. I'm really glad it's working for you all. I am beyond thrilled. This is not abstinence because I have to be--or else.
I was always committed to abstinence. Until after I was indifferent! Then it was fun to drink. I got a rebel-thrill out of the fact. But I worried incessantly about what that meant, how it would end up. It is so not worth my time. And having a glass of wine means I don't feel very good the next day. I like feeling good. I don't like feeling bad. This time around I get to decide based on how I want to feel.
Now I just don't care. Drink? Why bother?
GingerDust;1267864 wrote: It is wonderful that you have found what works for you, but to say without reservation that it will work for everyone is misleading. If you said that it would work for anyone willing to live with permanent somnolence, give up their professions if need be, their sense of physical well-being if need be, sound sleep if need be, the ability to safely operate power saws if need be, etc., that might more accurately the experience of the majority as I read it. It would more accurately reflect my own experience, and I believe that I am like "most people" regarding this.
The majority of people I know are handling indifference just fine. We've got a builder, a bureaucrat, an entrepreneur or two, a student, a guru, and the list goes on...We are from all walks of life, on HDB and doing better than we ever imagined was possible because there is nothing left standing in the way. No craving, no impulse, no compulsion.
I'm not sure what your experience was. You reached indifference and titrated down? I think I know that.
You seem to me to be doing really well. I am so glad. And I wouldn't suggest, not for a minute, that you change direction. I would suggest that our paths have very different results.
GingerDust;1267864 wrote: The more weapons we have to battle the beast, the better off we all are.
But I also know that for most of us, sobriety is the absolute most important point.
That said, I believe that for many, many people, if one takes the pills, enough of them, and for long enough, one can be free from alcoholic thoughts and actions. That's it. In a nutshell.
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