I am a trainwreck!

[taw]

I am a trainwreck!

On weekends, it is usually about noonish....I want to start about 11 but can usually try and hold off for an hour or so...by then he is usually out playing in the neighborhood with his friends....

[Bruunhilde]

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Okay, then we need to get you out of the house for lunch. Do you have friends around? Can you afford to take your son out for lunch?

[taw]

I am a trainwreck!

I am pretty much a loner....I have a couple friends but none close to me....and the mom's I get along with my son does not like their kids...so that makes hanging out with them a tad difficult!

Thanks, Bruun! We will think of something!! How are you doing?

[Bruunhilde]

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I still think you should take your son out, even if you make sandwiches and have a picnic. Being outside can really lift your spirits, even if only for an hour. Do you have a park you can go to?

I'm okay, struggling like you. I'd be drinking more but I think I have cancer or something in my stomach/esophagus, if I drink more than a couple glasses of wine, I get sick for days. My whole abdomen hurts from my ass up to my throat. Makes me nauseas and sometimes I get sick from both ends, which is a gross thought, sorry. I'm worried.

Does the Nal still make you throw up?

[taw]

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Yes, it does...which I guess would deter the drinking, but it just makes me feel yucky all over! And I only have a few left that a couple angles sent me...my doc won't give me a scrip for it.

That sounds terrible, Bruun! Are you getting to the doc about this? That does not sound like something to mess around with!! Please take care of yourself!!

[Bruunhilde]

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I just canceled a dr appt for this AM, felt too sick to go in. I feel like I have to get a grip on the AL so I can heal up and eat all the good for you stuff and be a healthnut. I believe I can heal my body through food if I can just stop feeling like shit. If I feel better, I can accomplish the things a whole foods diet requires, all that work. I wish I could afford Oprah's personal chef! LOL

Think about the picnic Taw, maybe there's a local kids game going on and you and your son can watch it and eat sammys.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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:ls to both of you!

[Pink Angel]

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Anything at all i can do to help you girls?? Worried about both of you! xxoo

[Bruunhilde]

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Maybe think up things for Taw to do with her son in the afternoon so she's not at home with the bottle? Nothing to be done with me except you could pray my guts heal nice and pink! Thanks girls, for the support. Taw, keep posting my friend.

[RudyB]

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heya gals! i wish you could both just move to my area. we're tons of fun here, with cool neighbors and lotsa boring fun stuff to do. i tell ya, when you're with people you like to be with, it is a fuckload easier not to drink. it doesn't always come overnight, though, does it? in my case, it feels like it did. suddenly, i have a whole batch of new neighbors who are extra-cool and fill my social time beautifully. even if i were still in a serious problem-drinking way, i'd have a reason not to, implanted practically onto my doorstep.

so, what's to be done if you don't have that great good fortune? taw, find folks who don't hate their children. however you can. picnics. parks. playdates. i dunno. taw, change up your routine somehow! find worthwhile folks. like i've said before, go with even the smallest thing that holds your interest, and run with it. even the tiniest thing like loving food. or your son. or a particular book. find a way to make it even more meaningful. share it with someone. strike up a new friendship in the bookstore, the grocery store. anywhere. just try something new. break the chain of patterns that govern your life which currently is totally unfulfilling. find something that can take the 'un' out of that equation. even the smallest effing thing. every day, just expand your universe a little tiny bit.

that's the best i can do for now. i really should be off to bed.

as for you, bruun, keep up the good fight. and PLEASE keep being the positive voice that we need so much around here. even with all of your own struggles, you give so much and it is not lost here. ergh. can we turn this ship around, whilist we try to turn our own individual ships around lest they sink? i think so.

i'll be back, gals. meanwhile, keep your chins up. keep eating the best food you can find. you desreve it and need it. keep supporting each other, as might be that nobody else will right now.

sweet dreams, above all else.
xo rudy b

[RudyB]

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how ya doin, taw? we're still here for you...

[Bruunhilde]

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Thanks R for keeping this thread up there. Taw, halloooo, come say hi!

R, thanks for the kind words. I'm doing better today than a few weeks ago. Wish I had your neighbors, but having no kids, and all kid/families and retirees around here gets pretty damn boring.

Taw, what's your situation with the neighborhood? You said at one point the woman you like to hang with, your son doesn't like her kid. Is there a park you can go to and meet other single parents? How about a group? I know how that is, the groups - I went to a German Shepherd meet up and that was okay, but people to people meetups are much harder. But it would be easier with your son, so if you could google "meetup" and single parent and your locale, you might find something worthwhile.

[taw]

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I need help!! I just called called out by my mother for drinking and now she wants to take my son away!! I thought I could do this...but I can't! What am I going to do?

[RudyB]

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good golly, taw! wow! i was just writing about how i close i came to possibly losing my son from drink, and now you post this!

what are you doing to stop drinking? how bad has it gotten? what circumstances led to your mother's threat? flesh it out so we can help you better...

[taw]

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I have been doing bac...ok during the week....weekends suck! showed up at my mom's house Sunday for a family meeting drunk at 3 in the afternoon....I don't know what to do!!! I need to stop drinking!