The order has been placed...
I've come round to the idea that bac will work better and faster if one is AF, or at least drinking very moderately (which I am not -- just about 2/3 of what I drank pre-bac).
There is some empirical/anecdotal evidence for this, but there is no shortage of people who drank heavily right up until the switch.
Bleep, if you did one AF day and felt great (not just because you did it, but actually great), then you can do more. Just remember how good it felt, and that you CAN do it (because you have).
(Yeh,yeh, you say -- what about you beatle? You who has not had a single AF day in the past 2 years, you who is afraid to go AF cold turkey because of all the awful experiences you had over the past 10 years whenever you tried to go AF overnight -- including a grand mal seizure on the motorway?. Who are you to talk?)
Well, I will be AF today for the first time in 2 years.
The fact that bleep could do it once and felt great (I know I won't, because it's only 14.15, and I'm feeling a little bit like a drink, and I already feel lousy) is a great motivator.
All the urgings from the people on this forum that used to be irritating (hey guys, can't you see I'm taking baclofen to GET sober?) are now seeming to make sense somehow.
And you all are great motivators.
I think I was looking too hard for the easy way out. But, with all these SEs, bac is certainly not the easy way out. And I'm thinking, even if I don't hit the switch quicker or at a lower level, maybe it won't feel so lousy to titrate up if I am AF.
I don't think I will have a seizure (thank you UK for your thoughts on this), but I do think I'll feel lousy and miserable. I can handle lousy and miserable. Lousy and miserable is what I've felt for the past 15 years of my life. Lousy and miserable is how I feel on bac now. I wallow in lousy and miserable. Bring on more lousy and miserable.
:day4:
Bleep, I know it's too late for you to join me today, but you have one AF day on me, so we will be even tomorrow. Then what?
I've come round to the idea that bac will work better and faster if one is AF, or at least drinking very moderately (which I am not -- just about 2/3 of what I drank pre-bac).
There is some empirical/anecdotal evidence for this, but there is no shortage of people who drank heavily right up until the switch.
Bleep, if you did one AF day and felt great (not just because you did it, but actually great), then you can do more. Just remember how good it felt, and that you CAN do it (because you have).
(Yeh,yeh, you say -- what about you beatle? You who has not had a single AF day in the past 2 years, you who is afraid to go AF cold turkey because of all the awful experiences you had over the past 10 years whenever you tried to go AF overnight -- including a grand mal seizure on the motorway?. Who are you to talk?)
Well, I will be AF today for the first time in 2 years.
The fact that bleep could do it once and felt great (I know I won't, because it's only 14.15, and I'm feeling a little bit like a drink, and I already feel lousy) is a great motivator.
All the urgings from the people on this forum that used to be irritating (hey guys, can't you see I'm taking baclofen to GET sober?) are now seeming to make sense somehow.
And you all are great motivators.
I think I was looking too hard for the easy way out. But, with all these SEs, bac is certainly not the easy way out. And I'm thinking, even if I don't hit the switch quicker or at a lower level, maybe it won't feel so lousy to titrate up if I am AF.
I don't think I will have a seizure (thank you UK for your thoughts on this), but I do think I'll feel lousy and miserable. I can handle lousy and miserable. Lousy and miserable is what I've felt for the past 15 years of my life. Lousy and miserable is how I feel on bac now. I wallow in lousy and miserable. Bring on more lousy and miserable.
:day4:
Bleep, I know it's too late for you to join me today, but you have one AF day on me, so we will be even tomorrow. Then what?
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