i had a bac through.....

[Bruunhilde]

i had a bac through.....

I agree!

I think everyone here is super sensitive and trying really hard (usually successfully) to be kind and understanding. It's so easy to take things negatively at first, when you interpret things defensively, yet, if you read the same thing in a different light, it's completely fine! I do it at work all day long!

I think we're all struggling and recognize the need to put out the extra effort. We're all trying so hard to get better!

[Ne/Neva Eva]

i had a bac through.....

taw, we have that and much more in common. I've never had an eating disorder, or weight issues, even when I was 25lbs heavier! (Thanks, ma, for that bit of healthiness!) But I LOVE food. Part of that is that I've always felt like if I could get my diet under control I wouldn't crave AL so much. (It does make sense that nutrition should allow us a way out, right? Get those brain chemicals under control!) That didn't work for me. My diet is fairly well controlled and has been for the last couple of years. I lost fat, built muscle and found a healthy outlet in exercising regularly. All while drinking outrageous amounts.
To be completely honest, at this point, with my new found love of bac and the ability to see a truly, legitimately healthy future, I worry about losing too much fat! (I like...curvy.) And I weigh more than you!
Take heart, I agree with lo0p et. al. f* 'em. You'll be able to decide what and how to deal with any body dismorphia when the real beast is ground into submission.
xo, sister.

[taw]

i had a bac through.....

Anybody out there today????

[Bruunhilde]

i had a bac through.....

I'm here! Not hanging out all day, but I'll check back later. You need anything?

[taw]

i had a bac through.....

Nope, good, thanks.....just lurking! C ya later!

[Rusty]

i had a bac through.....

Taw,

I'm here....still in Barcelona, working in my hotel room and watching TV. Feeling kinda lonely. I used to love to travel by myself...loved it for years. Now I don't, I guess. How are you doing? Drinking...cutting back, AF?

[taw]

i had a bac through.....

Go Packers!!!

[taw]

i had a bac through.....

So I am frustrated! During the week when I am working I am abel to stick to my bac schedule...over the weekend, and so far today, I completel screwed it up...I have been trying to get to 40 since Saturday and keep forgetting the last one...I am home today again, furlough day, took 20 this morning but now how do I break it up? 10-10-10-10?

[bleep69]

i had a bac through.....

Ya, I would break it up at as much as possible. I think the ideal dosage is 1,1,1,1,1,1,1,1,1,etc but that's not feasible. As much as you can break it down to.

[Bruunhilde]

i had a bac through.....

Hey Taw, most of us have challenges with free time. Hang in there. :l

[seeking_serenity]

i had a bac through.....

Taw! How are you doing? Do give us an update please!:h

[taw]

i had a bac through.....

Sorry things have been crazy....nothing to help my AF days! Going up to 50mg today....going to try anyway...nervous since I have some of my sisters kids spending the nite....no less drinking...hope it kicks in soon!!!!!!!! am wondering at this point...guess too early to tell....fingers crossed!! sorry not a better update!!!!!

[seeking_serenity]

i had a bac through.....

Taw, don't be discouraged. Things will get better for you, jkttdp!:h

[taw]

i had a bac through.....

I am frustrated and disguested with myself! I know it is still soon but am not seeing much progress thus far! I know being AF will help but if I could be AF I would not need the bac...I guess I really don't have any willpower! UGH!

[bleep69]

i had a bac through.....

Whats wrong taw? You ok?