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[Road to Recovery]

i had a bac through.....

Congrats Taw!!
Keep up with the AF - you will be free of ALs grip in no time. Stick with it and keep us posted.

[taw]

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Thanks Road!! I like THIS feeling!!

[seeking_serenity]

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taw;1040264 wrote: AF LAST NIGHT!!!! Granted I worked 14 hours and was exhausted but I to that a couple times a week and it never stopped me before!

Bumping up to 30mg today!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!

Taw, that's wonderful! And amazing. And a not-unexpected result, thanks to the Bac. :goodjob:

[bleep69]

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taw;1038149 wrote: Rudy I wish you all the best....we are all on this roller coaster together....best wishes...join the ride...

Missed this post first time round...

Reminds me very much of Bill Hicks.

Congratulations on your second bac through!

[Seethepony]

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Looking good Taw! Maybe you're really lucky and only need a modest dose of baclofen to get sorted. I have discovered I am absolutely AF at 50mg /day; I tried 25 and 30 mg/day for a while but that usually puts me in booze mode within 24 hours. Sunny has found a fantastic and enviable balance at 15 mg /day. 15 mg/day must be the most cost effective miracle since the feeding of the 5000...
Anyway, good luck everyone.

[taw]

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Thanks all!! This definitely gives me some motivation to contiune onward and upward!! I am almost giddy....maybe because this is the first time I have not woken up hungover or in a haze in forever!

[Road to Recovery]

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Taw,
I remember when I first went AF - the feeling is absolutely amazing - it was like a high in itself. Knowing that alcohol does not have its claws in you - its great. FYI - after taking bac for 8 months and being AF for 8 months, I slowly started tapering off and eventually stopped taking it altogether. I have probably been off it for about 3 months with no return of cravings. I still have some though in case the cravings try to come back.
Keep updating Taw - People need to hear about the miracle of Baclofen.

[Grommet]

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There you go Taw!

It only gets better!

[ignominious]

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Road, I find it very interesting that you dont take Bac anymore.
Did you taper off after 8 months free and do you miss the calmeness that Bac brought you?

[Road to Recovery]

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ignominious;1040339 wrote: Road, I find it very interesting that you dont take Bac anymore.
Did you taper off after 8 months free and do you miss the calmeness that Bac brought you?

Ig,
Yes I started tapering after being AF for 8 months; watching to make sure cravings did not return. I decided to taper down because I started feeling very tired during the day and not feeling like doing much - I thought it might have been a side effect. After being off bac for 3 months, I realize this was not a side effect of bac - there is something else going on. My wife thinks it is sleep apnia as she says I seem to stop breathing a few times a night and am probably not getting a good nights sleep. I would have taken Bac for the rest of my life if neccesary to stay AF but at this point, I feel safe enough without it.

[Isolde]

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bleep69;1040286 wrote: Missed this post first time round...

Reminds me very much of Bill Hicks.

Congratulations on your second bac through!

I'm a Bill Hicks fan

[taw]

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So I KNOW that if I eat thru out the day or have a snack before I leave work, I am not a hungry, tired, road raged bitch by the time I pick up my son and NEED a drink to calm down the minute I walk in the door in order to deal, interact, respond to him normally....BUT whatever stupid part of my brain that is afraid of getting fat will not let me eat and needs the wine to stave off hunger and give me energy...I know I have issues...I had an eating disorder for many years...on top of everything else...why can't my fucking brain get it self wrapped around the idea that these changes I am making are for the best? That all the decisions I have made for the last 20+ years were harmful? I want all these things to get better....why won't my brain let me? My stupid mom telling me my hips look big? or that my cheeks look full? Drinking takes away the urge to eat, gives me energy....Can woman live on coffee, cigs, and wine alone? I have, but I don't want to anymore...

Sorry, bit of rage just surfaced...I want to change and be healthy...I am tired of being knocked down time and again by my family and others....

If I don't drink, I can eat...exchange bad for good...

Onward and upward!!

[RudyB]

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yes, dear taw, you can move onward and upward! you can exchange wine for food, and probably consume fewer calories. i think booze goes right to our hips and bellies and faces, whereas food gives nourishment for our brains and bodies. you need the food. (i know, i know, you know this. i can see you're totally frustrated w that demon in your head. i've been there a thousand times, too!)

it stinks about your past eating disorder. it stinks what we come to expect of ourselves and our bodies, and the lack of true self-care that results. i know, it can drive us to drink! but love yourself instead (words to self, as well, btw). ...and remember, your face adn alll else will probably get skinnier if you leave out the booze.

don't let the knuckleheads get you down, including the knuckles in your own head i playfully add. you have my total compassion, for what it's worth. i used to hate eating when drinking. i too am a single mom of a single son. life is very challenging! but i am finding it easier to manage without the booze. twelve days have made a huge difference. i've been telling that beast in my head to SHUTUP! seems to be working. easier said than done, but somehow i'm doing. (rational recovery has helped much.)

i'm kinda rambling here. just wanted you to know that i'm rooting for you. you can pull through this!
rudy b

[taw]

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Thanks Rudy and congrats on 12 days! I will be yelling at the top of my lungs when I get to 12 again!

And, thank you for the words of encouragement...not sure where that came from, yes I do, just talked to HER....I may be thin, but I know I am not fit....and she doesn't miss a chance to rub that in...

And to quote my dad "The devil you know is better than the devil you don't"...so what lies ahead? Can't be worse than this!!

[Sunnyvalenting]

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TAW,
FYI booze reduces your metabolism significantly and causes easy wt gain. I just ate whatever I wanted for 5 months so I could nail down the abstinence. Then, armed with my confidence that I was able to effect permanent consistent change I have been very conscientious on my diet and exercise for the last 7 months and have lost lots of weight. Don't shortchange yourself. You deserve the best life has to offer. I am down 52 pounds!
Sunny