I've been on Bac in various does and cycles since April of last year. There's been lots of ups and downs and the entire story would take pages here.
I'm not AF but I'm more sober than not. I found that my emotional addiction has been greatly improved with Bac and I can't imagine life without it. I also realized over the course of many months that there's an underlying physical addiction to sugar. In the beginning of the journey, I gave in to any sweet cravings but realized that sugar was feeding my addiction. The more I had the more I wanted. I know there's been a lot of discussion about this and there's a lot of material out there on the subject but I'm hoping that my realization might help someone else esp. in the early stages of detox.
Before going AF, I had a low carb lifestyle.. Among other reasons, it kept my weight in check. But I was feeding my "sweet tooth" with wine. Now that i've had that heavy cloud of too much alcohol consumption, I'm getting away from all sugars. One simple book that put a lot of this into perspective for me is titled "Potatoes Not Prozac" (google it for the website) which goes into "sugar sensitive people" and underlying physiological base for addiction. At this point, I'm committed to a low carb diet with as few drinking days as possible. I'm very envious of the people on Bac who are able to walk away after a couple of drinks... that is not me, yet. I have not been in a place where I can exceed much more than 200 mgs safely. The few times that I tried, I ended up lowering my dose due to the SE's.
Of course there is the psychological component as well. I think some form of support is necessary but for most of us that don't choose the AA form, this board is a lifesaver.
Currently, I am on 120 mgs per day and I can easily avoid alcohol except in social situation. I try not to beat myself up when I do indulge but the combination of bac and drinking is not a good combination for me. I tend to miss or skip a dose if I know I will indulge which is counter-productive but my means of managing some form of moderation.
So that is my story... For better or for worse... Bac does work, it really helps and many of the SE's that I had at this dose subsided.
--HS
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