Indifference.

[RudyB]

Indifference.

ne, what is your favorite show? mine is (was; haven't watched it in a while) 'lie to me'. have you seen it? clearly i am focused on what's important in these threads.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Indifference.

Jon Stewart. The Daily Show.
I can't watch tv anymore. I miss it. Terribly. Really. I REALLY need a mindless activity that is unrelated to booze, self improvement of any kind, intellectual pursuit, education, or groceries. Ya know? You don't know yet, maybe, but you will soon.
What's a girl gotta do to just unwind? Dunno. Will let you know when I find it!

Oh. wait. MWO. :H

Hope you're sleeping restfully, bleep. zzzzzzzzzzzz
:l

[beatle]

Indifference.

I thought you were going to sleep. Just sayin'.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Indifference.

Also, bleep, your supply? Is it maybe switching all those brands? Maybe it'll even out with a constant and steady supply? Some people (terry I think, among others) mixes two kinds together before switching completely to a new brand. Is that helpful?

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Indifference.

lol. NOW. YOU TOO.
not just sayin

[beatle]

Indifference.

lol. good night all.

(soon I'll be back on the Europe/Africa time schedule... then Ne can't tell me when to go to bed, lol)

[bleep]

Indifference.

Thanks for the replies, it's nice to know I'm not alone! Unfortunately, I can't drop down below 300mg's. If I do, bleep69 reappears, and he does it so gently I don't even notice he's around, until I wake up the next day and I see the stamps on my wrist from the nightclub! It starts off so slowly, a good idea to call someone and have a drink on the way home from work, etc... I had forgotten how subtle it is, until it's not subtle at all, and I am being righteously shat on by Mrs Bleep for trying to invite the bar home for an orgy the night before.

Sigh.

I have NO willpower, nor do I want any, and below 300mg's the only effect I get from baclofen is an amazingly large increase in the size of my hangover. At 300mg's indifference is effortless. I switch between a half a glass to be social with Mrs Bleep, and nothing, on a nightly basis. Strangely, at any dose below 300mg's, I experience no SE's. I wonder if it isn't psychosomatic?

Regardless, it kicks me. So I am being religious about taking 300mg's, for the first time in my whole titration. Before if I was uncertain about a dose, I just took more. Now, I have my two weeks planned out, and it's a good feeling. It's the most baclofen I have ever seen in one place (the month's supply), and I can relax, for three weeks at least.

The cost is prohibitive, no doubt about it. Together with the help of some people from this forum (enormous shout to Ne and Beatle!!) I am looking at ways around it. However, I don't see at as merely the price of stopping my terrible drinking habit. Baclofen has given me so much more than that.

It buys me a better quality of life. I am not waking up every morning wondering what the fuck I did the night before. I do very strange things drunk, that normally aren't conducive to married life, or even just a calm existence.

A stable and happy marriage. Well, a marriage I am now available to provide some input in to, for the first time, rather than just being the useless drunk causing all the problems.

I am available for my son to play with, both in the evenings before he goes to bed and first thing in the morning. Needing less sleep means I wait for him to wake up, rather than getting woken up by him! I will actually have a role in raising him, and have a positive influence on his life, which was not going to be the case pre-baclofen.

I am a calmer, happier person, despite my recent rant. I am in a much better place in my head to exist from. I am more focused, more centred, more insert-hippy-verb here, but it's true. So much so I have been promoted hugely at work since this began. I am more able to deal with the increased responsibility this promotion entails, and the responsibility is enormous.

There is more, but I am at work, and busier than I have ever been in my life, so back to work for me. I am reminded of the Visa advert. Cost of baclofen - $530. Effect - Priceless.

So I will stick on 300mg's for two weeks, and see what happens. I'll let you know.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Indifference.

:yougo:

Oh, I know what's going to happen.

Yay, you.

Hope you got some work done.

L, Ne

[bleep]

Indifference.

Alas, my laptop fizzled and died, so I am out for the time being...

Don't ask the obvious question, this is a borrowed one.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Indifference.

pfffft. that's lame. Hurry bac. I worry. And we need you.

[tiptronic_ct]

Indifference.

I wonder if he'll fall back on the good old bush telegraph?

[bleep]

Indifference.

No, even better, I stole my wife's laptop. It won't last long before she gets annoyed with me though.

[Bruunhilde]

Indifference.

Just stopping by. Bleep, it sounds like you're on a good dose and it's great to know what the magic number is. There's got to be a better way moneywise. Ridiculous cost but what a benefit. That is a MasterCard not a Visa commercial, btw.

By the way, if this posts, it means I have NOT been kicked off the boards. I tried to post on my own thread twice and to write emails twice and nothing appeared. I hit submit and there's no entry. Is that what it means to be booted?

Hmmmm.

[bleep]

Indifference.

Well, you'll have to just post here from now on Bruun. It's great to have you back.

I think the number changes, depending on where you are and what you happen to doing. For now though, I'm happy to lurk at 300 and see how it goes.

[tiptronic_ct]

Indifference.

bleep;1130252 wrote: Well, you'll have to just post here from now on Bruun.

Getting other people to keep your thread going for you, Bleepster?