Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

[redhead77]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

And don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about.

[redhead77]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

I'm running to the gas station for the last of it. I won't even have time to suck them down today. I'm going into work soon. Damn, shit, fuck!!

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Hello Potty-mouth. I was hoping you'd forgotten.

Not really, I'm up for it still. I tried a stop smoking hypnosis CD yesterday...it didn't work. Well that's not entirely true, it sort of worked but I manfully powered through the lack of craving and managed to pick the habit back up again by this morning. Yay me! I think I might try it again tonight and be all smokey-free by tomorrow AM.

Let me know if you'd like to try the CD and I'll email it to you. But be warned, the woman hypnotist is English and she sounds like she has a plum in her mouth. Oh bugger, now when I listen to it again, I'm going to imagine her with a pair of love-plums in her mouth and I'll just start to giggle.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Not me. I'm quitting on Labor Day. I'm traveling over the weekend and don't want to subject anyone to my minus-nicotine-moods. That and I bought FOUR cartons of smokes before the hurricane. :H Addict, maybe? That in itself is reason enough to QUIT! I didn't even know I was doing it.

I don't mind being the caboose... Bring it on! Inspire me! (and how come you haven't sent us the hypno-thingy yet?)

Edit: Mind out of the gutter, if that caboose comment is going to elicit some sort of something I can't imagine.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

oh you guys are so cute, i say here from my high horse. i was just reporting on my home thread that i rarely think about smoking, ever, and when i do it is with indifference, and a decided 'yuck!'. then, just now, i was telling my sister that in spite of the many small and biggish stressful or painful events i've had in the week since i had my 'touch-up' from my hypnotist, i have yet to cave. in the past, or without hypnotherapy, i would've been hard-pressed or bleeding-knuckled to resist the crushing urge to light up and suck hard. only a fleeting thought or two of the smoking variety have flitted through my changed brain, even in those trying moments. my mom posted a quote and a link on my thread today or yest about hypnotherapy (and eft) that you might find interesting. (not that i'm trying to push any voodoo shit on you or anything.)

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

murph, it's a valiant effort you made with the cd. but you might go for the big guns to start (a private session with a real person), then use the cd for touch ups. (ok, maybe i'm pushing a little. but just cause i wish you a peaceful transition into life as a non-smoker.)

curly, how's it going with your lawn?! i can't believe how lucky i've been! and i say that knowing i'll have been without power for a full week before it comes back from irene's visit. IRENE is the puta!

[redhead77]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

I know I have a potty mouth right now, but I totally didn't realize how close this all got. I've been working like mad. All I do is work and take the fucking pills, and then all of a sudden...today, I realized what day it was. I had a mere glimpse of a day off, until they asked me to come in. I said yes (because all of a sudden I'm a workaholic), and I wouldn't have if I knew I could stay home and smoke more fags in preparation. I haven't prepped myself. I worked right through any hypnotherapy I could have done. I just don't know what to do. I really hate not sticking to my word. If I say I'm gonna do it, come hell or high H2O, I try.

I don't even smoke that much anymore. I can't smoke at work (we have a smoke free campus). I will only have one carefully timed smoke on my way in (so I don't smell like the evil weed when I arrive). I then wait till I'm out of the vicinity of the hospital to light up while on the road. Heaven forbid, anyone see me lighting a smoke. I might as well be lighting the crack pipe. I'm under half a pack a day. Is this good enough? I know it's not. I need to quit entirely.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

well, red, you ask a question i have been thinking about, too. it's up to you, ultimately. and of course. but you know that. for me, if i could have had one or even three a day, i'd have been totally cool with that. i'd probably just have enjoyed them tremendously and without guilt (and there were times in my 20 yr smoking career when i did pull that off, many times -though i rarely felt totally guilt free). but once i got up to a committed half pack every single day -for the last few months- i was making myself sick, mentally, and worried all the time about getting physically sick. yours is a very personal decision to make. what are you truly comfortable with? could you try cutting back to maybe five a day? and why not, as another alternative, forget your word for a sec (though of course it's admirable that you want to keep it), and give yourself the time to see a hypnotist so that you can make this transition as smooth as possible. smoke quitting is potentially the most difficult thing you'll ever have done. why not use ALL the tools at your disposal to lessen the pain? as i've said several times around here, i am FLOORED at how much of a gentle breeze quitting has been this time around. yes, i think i'm due for a touch up by listening to the cd the good man provided, but i'm confident that it will do the trick. i feel free in a way i haven't felt since i was 21, before i ever liked a cigarette.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

also, red, look at ne. she knows the first would be a baaad time to quit, so she's cutting herself some slack and doing it later, when it makes more sense. do yourself the same favor. you deserve it. you've already done so much by quitting your problem drinking. don't hurt yourself with the disappointment of a failed smoke quit. unless, of course, you feel up for and inspired on some level by the challenge. (but i'm sensing that you don't and aren't.) put yourself before your word, red. listen to your gut on this one.

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Ne, I had no idea 'caboose' had an alternative meaning and had to look it up. My mind may very well lie in the gutter but you help to drag it down the storm drain.

Rudy, a session with a real hypnotherapist isn't an option at the moment as the Murph household is having to tighten its belt more fiercely than a Mediterranean Eurozone member.:upset:

Red, cutting down is bullshit thinking and you know it. It won't work, you'll just climb back up again given time. It's all or nothing. At least you don't have to worry about that post-coital ciggey anymore. :H

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

maybe murph knows your smoking better than i do. but i think for a small few, cutting back IS possible. but for most not, so he's right again dag it. clearly you want to quit, so i'd set your eyes on taht prize and do it. but maybe not force yourself to do it today.

murph, sorry about your budget. jeepers. is it really that expensive over there? well, it is here, so i suppose...

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Glad I could help, Murph...

Great advice there, rubyd! Not about the cutting back, though that is helped a great deal by circumstances. You would not believe how little I smoked when I had to go outside in a hurricane to do it. Of course, I did actually do it. Stand on a balcony in a hurricane to smoke a ciggie. wth? I actually locked myself, and the Goose, out of the apartment! Security had to come and open the patio door! But that's a whole 'nother embarrassing story!!! The worst of it was, I forgot to bring the damn lighter with me, so I didn't even get to smoke while I waited! The best of it was that I happened to have my phone with me, because I'm almost as obsessed with it as I am with smoking. It would've been a far different scenario if I had to get help from the third floor balcony in a hurricane when NO ONE else was outside. Ya' know? oy. I can't wait to get this beastie gone.

[redhead77]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Murphyx;1171969 wrote:
Rudy, a session with a real hypnotherapist isn't an option at the moment as the Murph household is having to tighten its belt more fiercely than a Mediterranean Eurozone member.:upset:

Red, cutting down is bullshit thinking and you know it. It won't work, you'll just climb back up again given time. It's all or nothing. At least you don't have to worry about that post-coital ciggey anymore. :H
It might be time Mrs Murph picked up a second job to support you. :H I tend to agree that the cutting back thing usually doesn't work long term. The funny thing is, I was that smoker before HDB. I only smoked a little. Now, I'm like Mrs. Marlboro.

RudyB;1171923 wrote: also, red, look at ne. she knows the first would be a baaad time to quit, so she's cutting herself some slack and doing it later, when it makes more sense. do yourself the same favor. you deserve it. you've already done so much by quitting your problem drinking. don't hurt yourself with the disappointment of a failed smoke quit. unless, of course, you feel up for and inspired on some level by the challenge. (but i'm sensing that you don't and aren't.) put yourself before your word, red. listen to your gut on this one.

I'm listening and I think Ne is smart to move her date around a bit. I have to agree, there is no point in quitting just to fail. I'm going to have to rescind my word. Sorry. I'm going to quit soon. I'll know the date after I get some things squared away. I have 5 forced days off of work (nanny is going home for labor day). I've got to schedule some appts and I'll let you know the route I'm going.

I haven't quit my problem drinking Miss Rudy, I've just modified it. I'm still titrating up at a snail's pace. One of these days I'll dust the cobwebs off my thread and update you.

Have a wonderful day my sweet ones. Sorry Murph, I hope I'm not stealing your thread. :l I want to hear how you're feeling today.

Hi Reg!

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Red, I think it's terribly generous of you to let your servant have some time off. I hope you'll have her working double shifts to catch up, when she gets back.

redhead77;1172074 wrote: It might be time Mrs Murph picked up a second job to support you. :H Funny you should mention that. She's recently dusted off her brushes and got back to her arty thing. A Royal Society has accepted some of her paintings for its annual exhibition in the Autumn. She's terribly excited but I'll be happy when the cheques start rolling in.

redhead77;1172074 wrote: I'm listening and I think Ne is smart to move her date around a bit. I have to agree, there is no point in quitting just to fail. I'm going to have to rescind my word.

PATHETIC! You are a quitter! Ha! I expected better of you Red. You couldn't even manage a single day. Personally, I was so busy today, I forgot all about it and intend on starting tomorrow.

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

If anyone wants that Stop Smoking CD, PM me and I'll give you the download link.