Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

[Seethepony]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Wikipedia to the rescue, DG:

"Wine gums (or winegums) are chewy, firm pastille-type sweets similar to gumdrops without the sugar coating...
Wine gums were originally created in 1905 by mixing fermented wine with a gelling agent.[2] Modern wine gums no longer contain wine."

They're ACE. If you're looking for an excuse to visit the dentist, chew your way through a bag of them each day, and forget to clean your teeth. Presto! Within weeks you'll be in Cavity City...

Murph, I'm sure they're a perfect substitute if you're so destitute you can't afford a Snickers. (Old man that you are, you probably remember them when they were Marathons. Me too...)

Happy weekend everyone. It's so bloody sunny here I've nearly got sunburn from mowing the lawn.

[Isolde]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Murphyx;1110872 wrote:
So yesterday I decided to go back up to 175 again and when I went to the supermarket in the afternoon (about 4pm after having taken a total of 125) I realised what it was. It was my bac-grin. I get really jealous when people talk about how their lives have changed post-indifference, how they have so much more energy and focus and a get up and go attitude. That didn?t happen for me, I still leave the dishes for a as long as possible, I still need to sort out a new line of work because my business is slowly going to shit and I still leave it too long to reply to emails (even to people I really like or those who need my help...so sorry). But what I do have on high-dose bac is a completely different way of interacting with strangers and if you knew my back-story you?d realise just how important that is to me. I was walking around the shop looking at people, not with a if-you-invade-my-space-I-will-rip-your-throat-out snarl, but a hi-how-are-you?-this-is-kinda-fun semi-grin. The responses I got reflected my attitude and were all positive, except from one particular woman who tutted and turned away in a huff, but then again she did have rather nice boobs and I may have been grinning at them and not her. Hey what can I say? I like well-built milfs. I know, I know, I?m a bad, bad man.

That?s what I was missing; partly the ability to take some enjoyment from the mundane, but most importantly empathy with random strangers and the positive energy I receive in return, albeit fleeting and inconsequential to them.

I can totally relate, Murph. AL-wise, I was doing just fine on 80mgs. But once I got back up into the 120-range, I started actually looking forward to and enjoying connecting with people again! And I've always been a downright misanthrope. My experience has been the same, that when you give off a positive, welcoming attitude, it's generally returned in-kind. Who'd-a-thunk?!

RE: the tramp stamp (also known as a bullseye!), I can't even appreciate it on a girl that has the body for it. I can't help but instantly lose respect for the girl that would put a tat there nowadays (I won't get into the details of why, mostly because I'm not feeling incredibly articulate at the moment!). Although I'm sure you're much less concerned about the respect aspect! I can still think she looks hot, but there's just no respect... :H
In fact, when I first told my ex that I was thinking of getting a tattoo, and he suggested I put it on my lower back, I very quickly lost a lot of respect for HIM and knew that it just wasn't gonna work!

[Isolde]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Seethepony;1110948 wrote: Hey Murph - "Don't be sexist. Bitches hate that!"

:H Ha! Totally reminds me of something my best guy friend would say!! Hilarious!

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Is, I had to look up "misanthrope". Thank God I did, I was worried you were a werewolf for a minute there.

Pony. Yeah wine gums - diabetes in a little bag.

I've discovered there's absolutely no need for anyone to take baclofen or any other meds, or go to AA or any of that stuff. All you have to do is watch this video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PM9wx3slsOA[/video]]YouTube - The Drunken People Compilation

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

ok, so, the placenta was mine, not the goat's. the midwife said it was just about the most beautiful, healthy placenta she'd ever seen. (i've just about gotten over the regret that i forgot to take it home and plant it under a special tree.) i had been drinking raw goat milk practically straight out of the goat during my whole pregnancy (oh, don't think it was perverted or somethin'; i milked her into a bottle and THEN drank it!). btw goats don't stink if they're not bucks. bucks stink. does don't. my maybelle the goat was in my living room because she snuck in. i didn't invite her. that was shortly before she was found wandering down the road by the dog catcher, who took her home. i was done w goats by then, thanks in part to very bad fencing. the dog catcher needed a friendly goat to help her wild ones become more tame (which clearly mine was, lvg rm reference). i hope it worked. haven't checked in w her since. just glad it wasn't my dog (which i don't have) walking down the road. s/he would've been CAUGHT!

this thing about t-shirts and beer guts is very timely. the other night i was at a function and a woman was wearing what i thought was a too-small shirt which showed off her big ol bellly. i subsequently asked a guy friend how he would respond to seeing that. he told me he'd have run the other way. then, a gal who knows this belly woman said that she does that all the time, shows off her ample midriff. ya know, i gotta give it to her: tho it may not be attractive to most, how cool is it that she's so cool with her own non-standard-beautiful body?!

i hope that explains things a bit, from my previous post. NE: what other word did you need to google? perhaps i could be of help? clearly i have plenty of answers here...
xorudyb

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

RudyB;1111059 wrote: ok, ya know, i gotta give it to her: tho it may not be attractive to most, how cool is it that she's so cool with her own non-standard-beautiful body?!

Um, okay. But really, taste and properly fitting clothes do come into play somewhere, right? I mean if Murphy and Ponyboy don't like to look at it, and a feminine type person is wearing it... I mean, we're talking about a sorry shaved sheep shagger and a vampire who can't stand a little sun...
The other word was the one you defined. (contawhatever. You're not actually Senora Suarez, my 9 grade Spanish teacher, are you? yipes.) And Ruby, yer cool.

I logged on to share that I spent the first month not sharing ANY info (really!) about SEs with Ed. He lived through mine, I thought I'd let him experience his own and just be. In an effort to clarify that some of what's going on with him is bac-related I have started sharing a bit. (as in, we took a walk to watch the regatta yesterday and he, um, had an experience he hasn't since he was a teenage boy. I pointed that out as an SE.)
So today something happened and I said, "Oh. That's bac! Everyone has that." and he said, "I always start with my left foot when I walk...Does everyone do that too?"
(Is that funny? It was really funny in Ne-world.)

I read him some of this thread. Thanks again, peeps. Shaved-sheep-shagger is my new favorite insult, but noone gets it.

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

RudyB;1111059 wrote: ok, so, the placenta was mine, not the goat's.

Oh, OK, thank God for that. For a moment there I thought you were doing something weird.

I've never understood the eating the placenta thing. It's a strange thing to do even for Americans. Is it like the drinking your own wee thing?

OK, the fat woman in the short shirt showing off her fat gut. Is that cool? Let me put it this way, I doubt many people would think it cool if I were to walk down the High Street wearing nothing but a pair of Speedos. Now there's an image to put you off your dinner.

Ne, I'm intrigued. What was the experience Ed had? Spell it out, don't be shy.:H

Shaved sheep shagger? That ain't an insult. Not to a Welshman.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Lllllllllllllllove it! love all the frigggin heartfelt disapproval of a too-small shirt on a very large gal. i'm glad there's not something really obvious that i've missed on that one. i also love it when people reply to my posts. shanks all who care enough about goats to continue this chat.

anyway, glad we're in the clear about not-goat placenta. the placenta was mine. and i was not doing anything weird, murph. gosh!

i forgot, what's regatta?

i'm with a pretty strong belly but i intend to keep it covered. how about you?

ne thanks for saying i'm cool. i agree. and i think the same of you.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

ps
NE, i'm not seNora suarez.
and I get your shaved-sheep-shagger reference. said insult will always be understood here.
yours in humor,
rudy

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Wait, Murph. I thought eating placentas was something they do in Wales? hmmm. Maybe they do it in Zimbabwe? We shouldn't have to wait much longer to find out if that's the case. Thank goodness. I miss bleep terribly.

I remembered recently what it was like when I was a newbie. (and I was a newbie for a looooooooooooooooong time. Despite the fact that I lived and breathed and dreamed MWO.)
I hated Saturdays. They were so quiet it was deafening. And Saturdays were really tough for me, personally, because I started drinking at noon. I read the other threads and the other forums incessantly. Dipped my toes in when I was feeling particularly courageous. I went to chat and met lots of people, some of whom I really liked.

And I sent a lot of pm's. And I held my breath until I got a response. I was SURE that I wasn't worthy. I was positive everyone thought I was an idiot. I knew without a doubt my questions were stupid. (bac then I even wrote my messages in word, and edited them carefully so they were succinct and didn't sound too desperate. Then I agonized that they were too long and clearly desperate. I read them now and they're just downright boring and bland. And short. lol)
I was also fairly convinced that this place was a massive selling machine aimed at taking advantage of vulnerable people and that my computer was being bugged every time I turned it on. The lengths I went to to 'protect' myself are funny, but only now.

SO. I'm going to empty my message box, all except the first one I received (from Lo0p) and answer all of the messages and emails I've received recently (and not so recently, sadly.) I'm going to keep doing that until I don't get them anymore. Which I hope is never. I LOVE getting pms and emails and I apologize that I have made it seem otherwise. (text messages and voicemails, too, ftr. I didn't know I had vms because I got a new phone! oops!)

Sorry murph for the digression. Just a little prod from an old friend. Your emails are amazing. :l
Ne

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Cross posted, Rudy. You're up early!

So glad you're not Senora S. She was an uptight pain in the ass, and I recognized that when I was 14! Pretty sure I wouldn't like her now, either, though I'd have the sense to hide it and get a decent grade. Only took me another 30 years to get that...

Thanks. bac at you.
xo
Ne
Stay strong and keep the faith, Rudy. Read Murph's signature.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Borrowed this from the underoos thread:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZ5_SyvxDXE[/video]]YouTube - Who Put the Benzadrine in Mrs Murphys Ovaltine? - Harry "The Hipster" Gibson (1944)

[Lo0p]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Ne/Neva Eva;1111357 wrote: SO. I'm going to empty my message box, all except the first one I received (from Lo0p)

and



and, okay...okay, a little bit of this:



Makes me wonder just what I wrote...I was definitely under the influence of baclofen at the time and...well...we all know how that makes me a lil' randy sometimes.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Nope. It was about Black Rock. I SO wanted to go. Wanted to meet you! I was drunk. Not bac'd. I was miserable. You weren't. I wanted what you had. Ancient history at this point! I'm not even sure I want to go to black rock anymore!!! But I've got it, now. thanks. again.

And come to think of it, it wasn't the first. (But it felt like it! :blush

I have no idea who the first was. One of the granola-eating, monsanto-hating, holistic chicks on general, I think.

And then Bruunhilde. My first MWO friend.

[Isolde]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Murphyx;1111029 wrote: Is, I had to look up "misanthrope". Thank God I did, I was worried you were a werewolf for a minute there.

:alf:

Maybe I'm a misanthropic lycanthrope!!