Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

[redhead77]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

MURPH,

Maybe you're at the doctor's. I hope you called today, and they got you right in. I can't for the life of me think what the breathing thing could have been. I wonder if it was an extremely bad apnea spell? I would say a sleep study is in order and maybe some xrays to check for an obstruction. I'm not sure if there's anything documented in the literature regarding baclofen and sleep apnea, but in theory, it could certainly make it worse. A prime cause of obstructive sleep apnea is relaxed muscles of the neck and tongue. A muscle relaxant (especially at the doses we take it), may make it worse. And get on some bp meds!

Murphyx;1115420 wrote: How does the cyber-boyfriend know this? Is that the sort he's looking for? The whole CL thing worries me. Sorry to interfere, ignore me.

The CL thing worries me too. He doesn't have much faith in online dating, either. He tried an ad, to see what would happen, and I answered it. He would much prefer if I weren't promiscuous. The context of the statement, was him asking me early on what I was looking for. Was I looking for something casual? Something serious? Newly divorced women do often go through a stage where they explore. I had told him early on, I wanted something casual. He is not possessive or jealous (so he says), so he could understand my need to do that. I don't feel the need to casually date multiple men if I find one I like, however. This may also be a way of testing me, to see where I was at. Maybe I was already dating multiple men. Maybe I was a CL serial responder, looking to pick up a new one, every other day. I mean it goes both ways. All he knows about me is what I look like (via pic), and what I write. He has to decide, if I am what I say I am.

I have tested him like crazy. He is nothing less than consistant. He is an eloquent and creative writer. Think Ne, but a man version. He has been incredibly patient with me. If I were him, I would have given up on me a long time ago. I mean, we've been corresponding on and off (the off because I pushed him away), for a month. I still haven't talked to him on the phone. That's going to change tonigh, btw. We have a 9pm phone date. He knows I have a number of kids (he's doesn't have any that he knows about) :H, I'm damaged from a shitty marriage (he's never been married), I've been unemployed (he's employed and successful), I'm walking away from this house and everything else (so I've essentially destroyed my credit). Oh, and he doesn't even know about the bac. Or the drinking (I need him to meet me a few times before I divulge all that shit). Jesus! I'm the one who looks scary. This man should run....from me. But he doesn't. On paper, I'm a train wreck. I guess maybe he has a strong intuition too. Maybe deep down he knows I'm worth it.

Get yourself checked out and report back! rettplease:

[redhead77]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

I guess no doctor for you eh? Find yourself a doc that isn't a quack, so you can get some decent and much needed medical care. Or, don't you have normal docs over there? :H
I'm glad I read about the snuss business. I was going to order that next.

Murph, I am shocked you didn't say anything to Ne about her spitting comment. I had a good one for that. I figured if you didn't think of it, a woman shouldn't say it. :goodjob:

[missyabby1]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Hey red, are you still not drinking ? Sorry haven't been checking in for awhile

Missy.

[Seethepony]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

So I'm going to give you a big smakeroo (you decide if that's a kiss or a smack) and then you owe me $40.

Wait a minute! What kind of Forum is this?

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

redhead77;1115579 wrote:
Murph, I am shocked you didn't say anything to Ne about her spitting comment. I had a good one for that. I figured if you didn't think of it, a woman shouldn't say it. :goodjob:

I only thought of it after I posted. D'oh! There was the whole thing about spitting, the worst thing she ever had in her mouth and the public restroom. I can't believe I missed it first time around.

RE the snus: It shouldn't taste of anything. You don't suck. It is absorbed through the gum.

RE the quack: I'll go if it happens again, but I know he's just going to tell me to stop smoking and eat less cake. Fuck that for a laugh! There is no point to life without cake!!!!!

[missyabby1]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Oh, pulease Murph, get over yourself. Of course the doc is going is going to tell you to stop smoking etc etc.. Just find out what your bp is, get a full blood work out and take it from there. Then you have options, you know, keep at it or not. But really then you are fully versed as to whether you want to do anything about it or not. Simple as.


Night

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Wow, Murph! That's quite a story. I know what you mean about the Dr telling you not to smoke or eat cake. They often shrug when they don't know what to say. (Though some kind of attention to it might be a good idea. Pretty scary description you made.) I have a funny skip kinda thing on the outbreath sometimes (like when a kid comes down from crying really hard, but the opposite, just so you know), and at about 10 yrs old when I asked why that happened my Dr. told me: "Because you're strange." (He's also the one who told my Dad not to bother w prostrate screening, only to find 2nd degree cancer years later.) But there ARE some good ones out there, so don't take this as deterring input. It's just story swapping. (EDIT: my dad found a different doctor and is now cancer-free.)

A few times since starting bac a few weeks ago I've had a crazy-thumping heart (and it wasn't for want of sex:H), but certainly never a choking episode. Well, yesterday I pulled a good one! I wonder if the weed I smoked had something to do with it... I got all turned around about my dose, decided that my 10 mg pills were 5 mg. Whoopsie! Yep, on a day I should've taken 30 mg, I must've taken 60. Oh my, by the end of the day I could barely move. I was falling asleep at 6 pm while my son watched Avatar. I mean I was CONKING out! Then, this morning, just up, I vomited (bile and water and OH MY! a bit of blood!). So I'm home in bed, catching up on some of that delicious sleep I am not short on, nauseous a bit but not puking, and having diaharreah. I feel lucky I can breathe and type -notice the capitals?! I'm trying to rise up to my own ridiculous standard. Now I think I'll go smoke a pre-rolled cigarette. (Definitely no weed.)

The good news is that the beer I drank yesteday tasted awful. I dumped a bunch out. Then I went back for the final one early eve and it took me an hour NOT to finish it. Very satisfying.

Redhead: I found my phone under my pillow, and he didn't text back except to say his car done broke. Sounds like a line to me. Guess I'd better stop thinking with my lower half for a second, until someone more reliable comes along. And, besides your divorceee-sex story courtesy of cyber beau, there is also a divorce diet. I, and many women I know, lost a heap of weight after splitting up. So if anyone out there wants to be thinner, just dump your guy. HA ha! BTW: Good luck with that phone chat. He sounds nice. Fun stuff.

[Lo0p]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Ya know Redhead77, it's much easier just to pick a bloke amongst the fine young git's here. You already know how fucked up they are and vice versa. Everybody's on HDB so there's no explaining to do. And let's face it, no amount of explaining could explain it to someone who hasn't done it.

That's what I did... and well...

Although, Bedfordshire or Zim isn't exactly a short hop away. But dammit, we all like red heads!

[redhead77]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Take care of yourself Rudy. Hopefully, that blood thing is only from the force of vomiting. Sounds scary. Maybe you should buy a pill box? I know I have one, and many others here do too. It is hard to always remember what you took, or what doses you have. I would prefill mine in the morning.

The guy that you texted, might be a dork. Most red blooded males would try to find out more. Maybe you scared him. I would wait for a man with blood in his loins!

You're not off the hook that easy Murphy. Get proactive with the quack. Demand he meet your needs, or take your business elsewhere. Doctors are like the rest of the people that provide a service. We pay them for it, and they need to deliver, or get fired. Tell him you'll quit smoking when you're ready. And you'll always eat cake, but maybe you'll try a treadmill. Then tell him, you would like meds for your high bp. Tell him also you need a sleep study, and soon. Uncontrolled OSA (obstructive sleep apnea), can cause htn (hypertension). This can lead to heart failure. It's serious Smurph. Really.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

LoOp, what's HDB? I was gonna head over your way but wanna know what to expect in my gits.

Redhead, I'm glad you're encouraging Murph. I think you're right.
As for encouraging me, thanks, too. Pillbox, check.
The guy, he is a dork. And from past experience, I can say with certainty that he needs more blood in his loins! Onward and upward! Pun intended.

[redhead77]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

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Lo0p;1115633 wrote: Ya know Redhead77, it's much easier just to pick a bloke amongst the fine young git's here. You already know how fucked up they are and vice versa. Everybody's on HDB so there's no explaining to do. And let's face it, no amount of explaining could explain it to someone who hasn't done it.

That's what I did... and well...

Although, Bedfordshire or Zim isn't exactly a short hop away. But dammit, we all like red heads!

I'm not hopping a plane to meet my man. Yet. Plus, I'm really sweet on cyber beau. :h If it falls through, I may take it under consideration. The baclofen story, may be a deal breaker. I want him to really get to know me before I tell him. I'm more than just baclofen and all the other baggage.

:thanks: Loop!

[Lo0p]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

RudyB;1115644 wrote: LoOp, what's HDB? I was gonna head over your way but wanna know what to expect in my gits.

HDB = High Dose Baclofen

My apologies Rudy, as I'm sure you're quite the catch, but I've scored myself a right HDB Hottie!! :h:h:h We spend hours talking almost every single day and it seems we just never run out of things to talk about. That being said, when either one of us forgets the 1,000 things we are always forgetting to ask about each other (this happens because our voices straight up mesmerize each other), the silence we share together is precious. :l

EPB's still around but honestly I think he's in some kind of a funk. Every time I get a chance to talk to him he seems seriously bent out of shape. Says he hasn't seen a client in months. Keeps on rambling on about some "muse" of his that he only sees "flashes" of. Doesn't even know her name or what she looks like but swears he would recognize her if "he could but lay his eyes upon her snow white precious skin" or "pick up her scent out of a room full of a 10,000 dames".

I seriously think he's lost it. He says he's met her but when he did he "blacked out" or had episodes of "missing time".

I worry for the poor guy...

[Cinders]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

OMG, I am so effing lost.

That said, Murph, get your @ss to the doctor. My husband has sleep apnea and his life has changed for so much the better since he started on his cpap machine.

Besides, which, I love sleeping next to Darth Vader every night. It's kinda cool.

And, I know when hubby wants to sleep or he wants to... He either puts on the cpap machine mask or doesn't. Makes my life easier!!

He is a different man since wearing that darned thing, though. He sleeps fewer hours, he wakes up refreshed, he has more energy during the day ... and night .. and his bp went down.

Please go to a doctor, one that doesn't sound like a duck.. Did Gilbert Gottfried come over there to make a buck now?

Sleep apnea may have contributed to death - NFL - ESPN

Sleep apnea: a contributing factor to George Hickenlooper’s death | Shift Work Disorder News

I used to think sleep apnea was BS. I don't anymore. I have seen the positive changes in hubby due to a simple machine he wears at night. It means, of course, that I have to put up with him a whole lot longer. :-)

Love,
Cindi

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Cinders;1115688 wrote: OMG, I am so effing lost.

That said, Murph, get your @ss to the doctor. My husband has sleep apnea and his life has changed for so much the better since he started on his cpap machine.
Cindi, what's a "cpap machine" do you mean a "crap machine"? I know you don't like to swear. :H Just kidding, thanks for your post and I will go see the quack soon.

Ne/Neva Eva;1115561 wrote: I got it, finally. You are actually Robin Williams, aren't you? I can't imagine what it's like living with either of you. funny, uproariously outrageously funny at first. but then...
Getting a bit ahead of yourself there aren't you treacle? I don't remember asking you to move in, you cheeky mare.

Red, when you speak to him, if you arrange to meet, make it in a public place (but not too busy), preferably with a large male friend sat at the next table. I'm sorry for interfering but the whole posting on CL, looking for redheads thing just strikes me as sus. I'm the sort of person who insists on meeting my r/l fiends new b/fs so I can intimidate them and let them know they need to behave.:H

missyabby1;1115622 wrote: Oh, pulease Murph, get over yourself. NEVER!!!!

missyabby1;1115622 wrote: get a full blood work out and take it from there.

I don't even know what that means. I often see people talking getting blood tests and such like, but I don't think we do that here.

redhead77;1115636 wrote:
You're not off the hook that easy Murphy. Get proactive with the quack. Demand he meet your needs, or take your business elsewhere. Doctors are like the rest of the people that provide a service. We pay them for it, and they need to deliver, or get fired.

That's not the way it works here Red. We don't pay them and they don't give a shit whether we're happy with the service or not. Changing GPs is a pain in the arse. When I moved to Bedford I had to wait 6 months for a GP to have a vacancy on his/her list before I could join. He won't care if I threaten to leave, he still gets his ridiculously large salary.

Lo0p;1115633 wrote: Ya know Redhead77, it's much easier just to pick a bloke amongst the fine young git's here.
That's what I did... and well...

[Evan the Pool Boy]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Murphyx;1115710 wrote:

I was wondering if someone was gonna catch him in that slip up. :H :H

His true colors shining through!