Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Re-read what I wrote: "Southern Africa" not "South Africa". Zimbabwe is indeed in Southern Africa.

Why were you attached to a donkey? This is greatly concerning.

[bleep]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Apologies, so you did.

Ass in this instance is used as an informal term for buttocks.

[Seethepony]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Who, pray tell, is the enchanting lady in your avatar? I fear I am smitten.

[Lo0p]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

^^^ this is what baclofen did to me. :upset:

[bleep]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Took the shirt off your back?

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Made you take photographs of yourself in the mirror?

[Lo0p]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Oh take your jabs and have your fun at my expense! It's not funny to me! I live in constant fear. I can't even leave the house without being constantly assaulted by brainless bimbos! :upset:

And the looks they give me (more like leers), it makes me feel almost violated..

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Why do they assault you, do you try to steal their make-up? :H

[Lo0p]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Murphyx;1117031 wrote: Why do they assault you, do you try to steal their make-up? :H

I don't know why!!! It's like I'm a freaking magnet for boobzombies! I don't approach them and say: "Please tell me about your new hairdo, seriously, talk to me about it for 20 minutes", "please, please show me your bikini tan lines", "please ask me if I think you need a boob job when you obviously don't [did you just want to hear me say no or have you already had one done and wanna see if I can tell, because they look fake already]", oh and my favorite: "please ask me if I think you need to lose weight". This one I'm actually half tempted to answer sometimes, and it would be like so: "Seriously, heroin chic is so 80's. You need to eat some god damn ice cream. If you spread your legs right now and I fucked you like you wanted me to I'd fucking break you. And FTR I'd never do that, for fear of procreation. To perpetuate your genetic line would be an affront to all the decent humans still left on this earth."

No, they just come up and spout forth these things like it's some little game that I'm supposed to play along with.

If only I could act less gay, less metro. Maybe then I wouldn't have these problems.

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Sorry, I didn't get any further than "boobzombie". I don't know what one of them is, but I think I'd like them.

[Lo0p]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Alright, I think I'll try and end this silliness to save face and hopefully preempt anyone (or anymore) people from getting the wrong idea about me. (edit: Is that vain? :H)

The above posts are a joke and a lie (I hope that was obvious :blush. There are only two people (that I know of) on this forum who know how little vanity actually motivates me, and what actually does motivate me. Myself and one other. Everyone of my family and friends understands. In a shameless and vain attempt to remove my vanity stigma I'll try.

I am an extremely shy person. Three people have seen me in real life (since I've been cured) without a shirt on: My mother, my sister and someone on this very forum. :heart:

You people, on this very forum that I love so much get the brunt of it. I've tried to explain why before here: https://www.mywayout.org/community/f2...nds-42543.html To inspire. I really, really want to do this. To show newbies that they can have what they could only dream about. To try to knock 'em on the head and try to fathom the unfathomable. That in itself, I hope, could be a powerful tool to help beat this disease, which can be beaten.

There are many reasons why I do what I do. My sobriety was a frontrunner. It used to be an imperative that I maintain a state like this in order to stay sober. I doubt it actually is anymore but some of it is probably a carry-over from that time in my life. I do it because of how it makes me feel and couldn't give a shit about how it makes other people see me, unless they know the real reason why. I've tried to describe both here: https://www.mywayout.org/community/f2...ml#post1107080

Uggh, I should probably stop there. Funny. I obviously don't have any qualms about toying with people's perceptions of me. And I even have fun toying with this one (because I know the truth). But the dark side of this one just stings a bit too much for me not to break form and explain it a little. Is that vain? I crack myself up sometimes. :H

Finally, Murph, I do soooo humbly apologize for posting such heartfelt filth on your thread. Can we please get backing to fucking?

Anyone wanna join me?

[Murphyx]

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Loop

If you lob them up on this thread I have no choice but to try to smack them. But if I overstepped the mark and upset or offended you in any way then I assure you that was not my intention and please accept my apologies.

Lo0p;1117094 wrote:
Finally, Murph, I do soooo humbly apologize for posting such heartfelt filth on your thread. Can we please get backing to fucking?

Anyone wanna join me?

Not until you get rid of those love-handles. :H

[Lo0p]

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Murphyx;1117112 wrote: But if I overstepped the mark and upset or offended you in any way then I assure you that was not my intention and please accept my apologies.
Don't know what you're talking about. You don't have boundaries buddy. I'm still waiting for you to hit me somewhere it hurts. :H Good luck though. I'm you're biggest competition and I'm pretty damn good at the self deprecating masochism.

This was more preemptive plus trying to defend against some things that some people might not be saying publicly.

Murphyx;1117112 wrote: Not until you get rid of those love-handles. :H

Love handles? They're hard as rocks! You try to hold on to those babies and you'll hurt your hands!!

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Lo0p;1117136 wrote: Love handles? They're hard as rocks!

Just because your boyfriends say that when they're holding on, it doesn't make it true, lard-arse. :H

OK, I know some of your story, from tidbits here and there. I know your story from before sobriety; I know your bottom (no, not that sort of bottom) and how low you sank (again, not that sort of bottom) but I don't know exactly what happened then. Obviously bac was involved, but so was nal? I want to know. Don't point me towards some thread where I'll have to wade through a hundred posts, most of which will be unrelated and uninteresting bollocks. Is there a single post with the relevant information about how you found your 'way out'? If not, why not write one? When you have time. Or you can just tell me to fuck off...that's cool, I'm used to it.:H

[Lo0p]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Murphyx;1117196 wrote: Just because your boyfriends say that when they're holding on, it doesn't make it true, lard-arse. :H

OK, I know some of your story, from tidbits here and there. I know your story from before sobriety; I know your bottom (no, not that sort of bottom) and how low you sank (again, not that sort of bottom) but I don't know exactly what happened then. Obviously bac was involved, but so was nal? I want to know. Don't point me towards some thread where I'll have to wade through a hundred posts, most of which will be unrelated and uninteresting bollocks. Is there a single post with the relevant information about how you found your 'way out'? If not, why not write one? When you have time. Or you can just tell me to fuck off...that's cool, I'm used to it.:H

Hmm...Just saw this. It's either getting filed to the to-do list or I can point you to a post that I believe explains it succinctly.