Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

[curlygirl7]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

:Hi Rudy , I think the word you're looking for is shmaltz ( way different than smegma).:H:H

[beatle]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Chiming in here from the throes of fast-titration-bac-land.

I'm not really able to post now, but I will soon.

You all are making me lol. Thank you for that.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

yippee, beatle! hooray. glad to see you!

thank you so much, curly whirly, shmaltz it is! thank you! my brain doesn't work the same on bac (thank god!), so i couldn't find that word that is usually a daily part of my vocabulary. and diet. (would that i'd be so lucky.)

beatle, was that you who suggested lard? nope, you were right: lard is only mammalian fat, or maybe only cow's fat. chicken grease is definitely shmaltz. see, i knew you new newbies, previous lurkers, would have tons to share. toldja.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

...nope, it was you, isolde, with that foolish lard notion. credit where it's due.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

oh yeah, and curly, shmaltz IS similar to smegma imho, as they both start with s and they're both grotesque words suggesting somethings that the squeamish (murph) would find grotesque.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

btw, curly, who cares about baclofen? we're talking about very important dietary things here!

[bleep]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Hey Curly, glad to see you here!

Murph is right (I'm sick of saying that). Consider taking more baclofen. It may not help your SE's, but then again it may. Even if it doesn't, it is bound to help in the long and short run. Saying that, there is some important info that you need to tell us! Again Murph is.. Oh fuck it. Read his post and let us know...

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

First of all, how dare you people pollute my clean and pure thread with your talk of smegma? Now I'm going to have to wash my screen down with bleach. I just wish I could do the same with my mind 'cos I have this image of Rudy cooking with smegma and it appals me, but I have to say it doesn't actually surprise me too much.

Oi omnivores: cooking with chicken fat is really no different to cooking with smegma as far as I'm concerned. Both are disgusting, unnecessary and pretty much what I'd expect from the people who contribute to this thread ... Just sayin'.

Curly, That's a good pace of titration you've got going on there. How long have you been on this dose? What was your last increase from?

Whatever you do, don't go down. Now that's the first time I've ever said that to a woman...arf arf! Except Welsh women. They're incredibly unattractive creatures. Except Catherine Zeta Jones. She's smoking hot and I'd let her do naughty things to me if she asked nicely. Sorry, sorry I digressed into Murph-porn-brain. Reducing your dose is counter-productive in the extreme. As Bleep says, an increase may be the answer but perhaps you could answer the other questions first.

Curly, keep posting.

I like newbies, they say kind things to me. Not like the old timers, they say mean things like "please stop emailing me", "Christ, how did you get hold of my phone number" and "why in the name of God would I have wanted to see a picture of your penis?".

[curlygirl7]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

I still don't know what bollocks means.

[curlygirl7]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

I titrated up directly from 125 mg to 150. I need to be more precise about the timing of my doses. I take 25 mg at 6 am and again at noon. Then I take 50 mg at 4:30 and again at 8:30. I wake up frequently during the night (often worried that I'm having sleep apnea). I don't want to increase my dose in the morning because that's when my job is the busiest and it requires a fair amount of critical thinking. (baclofen and critical thinking should not be used in the same sentence) So I guess I'll stay with my present dose for a few more days and then increase my 4:30 PM dose.

I love this thread. Where would you ever find an AA meeting where people talked about cooking with smegma?

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

First to the important things. The word "bollocks" has many and varied meanings. I hope this post helps to explain it https://www.mywayout.org/community/f2...ml#post1112418

Waking up in the night is absolutely normal. We mostly all do it, even now. Less than at first, but still there. You'll get used to it. That dosage spacing is pretty good. Obviously a more even spacing would be good, but I totally understand the need to function at near as optimum as possible for your job.

When you next increase, when will you take the extra? Are you going to keep loading it at the end of the day?

How long have you been on this dose?

EDIT: when I said "a more even spacing" I meant the quantity of mgs, not the times taken.

[Murphyx]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

When we?re alkies and addicts as well as often neglecting our families and careers, we tend to neglect ourselves, both physically and mentally. I?ve allowed my body to deteriorate and my brain to atrophy and since becoming sober I?ve felt a need to reverse the decline. Undoing decades of self-destruction won?t be easy; in fact it probably won?t be possible to completely reverse the very real, slow suicide I?d been committing, particularly over the last 8 to 10 years. However, I have taken steps to do what I can, and part of that is health and fitness: eating well (and less of it) and exercise. It?s early days, but I?m starting to feel the benefits and I?ve noticed differences in my behaviour and attitudes.

On Thursday I was just leaving the house to take the hounds for their morning swim down at the lake, when I realised I hadn?t eaten anything and I grabbed a pear to take with me. Not a particularly strange or noteworthy thing to do, but so very different from my instinct till recently, of reaching for a Snickers or a Mars bar to shove in my pocket.

Walking round the lake it started to chuck it down. When I?d left the house the weather seemed fine so I was wearing shorts and a T shirt. We passed a man with his dog and I nodded a cheery hello and he replied ?doesn?t look like it?s going to stop does it??. I knew a German girl who was always annoyed at the way the British wasted time with smalltalk about the weather and she was absolutely appalled when people said things such as ?hello, how are you?? or started an instruction with ?would you mind?? or ?I wonder if you would be so kind as to??. She considered this sort of behaviour disingenuous and pretending you cared about someone or whether they minded doing something when you were actually giving an instruction, to be bordering on an outright lie. She was a funny girl, awfully small breasts but not a bad sort nevertheless.

I was surprised by a passage in Bill Bryson?s Notes From A Small Island, where he noted the British always smile and laugh when they meet each other outside. Surprised because I assumed everyone did this. When you meet someone, you quickly exchange pleasantries and one of you says something that amuses the other. It can be the tiniest and hardly even remotely funny thing, but just enough to allow you both to show amusement. So to the man in the rain I replied ?I didn?t exactly dress for this weather?, and I pointed at my sodden clothing in a self-deprecating way. This was the quip that should have allowed us both to show amusement and the end of our conversation. However, while he did chuckle, he also replied ?no you didn?t did you, you silly tw*t?. I was more than a little shocked by this but didn?t let it show. I smiled and walked on.

The word ?tw*t? is of course highly offensive and really not widely used, especially in the company of strangers. It is nearly as offensive as the C word, which is reserved for only the most irate and emotional occasions, except in Caernarfon. Caernarfon is a town in Wales in which I spent some time a few years ago. The locals have the extraordinary habit of greeting each other with the phrase ?iawn cont?. Iawn literally means ?very? but has many slightly different meanings depending on the circumstances in which it is used and in this case it means ?right?, as in utmost. ?Cont? is the Welsh version of the English word, just replace the O with a U and you?ll understand the greeting as ?You?re a complete c*nt??. This can also, in Caernarfon, be substituted with the greeting ?s?mae cwd?, which translates as ?hiya scrotum?.

The people of Caernarfon are unique in this regard, particularly in a country like Wales where Welsh speakers tend to hold their language in very high esteem and cherish it?s history as the language of poetry of the bards and druids of old. Many Welsh people will tell you there aren?t even any swear words in Welsh, such is its purity. That?s bollocks, but I digress.

So, for the inhabitants of a Welsh town to so utterly abandon the normal, expected, formal niceties, that people greet each other in such a way is quite shocking. When I say people greet each other this way, I mean men, obviously. I don?t know how the women greet each other, they probably ask about babies, or chat about crocheting or discuss pink and fluffy things, just as they do the world over.

I do hope ?tw*t? won?t become a common greeting, surely only the most vulgar of people would use the word so lightly?or post it on a forum.

[RudyB]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

curly, your mention of apnea sparked me awake on this otherwise terribly droll thread. you may know/have seen my thread about it, but i had a few days of terror with it. what's your story on that front? i hope it's not ongoing, to say the least!

i am amazed at the effect of bac on my mind. seems pretty established, though, that you notice it soon after you take it. drr, i guess that's what drugs and alcohol do, huh? your taking the larger doses later seems wise. i've been doing that, too, but i'm still a basket case during the day. (i'm at 150 as of today.)

glad you get a kick out of the humor here. much more fun than AA, huh?!

[bkyogagurl]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Murph~ your funny.

Being the "twit" I am... I was thinking why is "twit" a highly offensive word.
I wonder where he lives???? Then the "aw" finally came to me..... Sharp as a
brick, I am.
DUH!
No caffeine in the morning doesn't help my pea brain. Thanks for the inspiration about how much better you are feeling since AF.

[curlygirl7]

Murph’s Baclofen (or should that be BacloFUN) diary

Murph, I wouldn't worry about "tw*t" becoming a common greeting. It sounds like you ran into a nasty old curmudgeon(sp?). I loved the feeling around your narrative, choosing the pear instead of the snickers bar and feeling happy about engaging in simple pleasantries. I can't wait to experience that! I decided to go with the advice that you and Bleep both gave and go up to 160 mg today. I have been at 150 for about 4 days. I will add the 10 mg to my 4:30 dose. I just don't want to risk bac brain earlier in the day when I have to be on top of my game at work. Rudy my sleep was better last night, but I have a lot of anxiety around sleep issues and often use Ambien to help sleep. I also seem to have more nasal/sinus congestion since starting on bac and sometimes hear myself snoring. My husband mentioned that I am much more restless at night. I do worry about the combination of wine, bac and ambien but getting to sleep is so tough for me. I so appreciate everyone's suggestions.
I'll let you know how I feel on 160 mg. Rudy, did you start in January? Your titration schedule seems much more sensible than mine.