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[Doggygirl]

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Bruun, that is a GREAT gag gift!!!! How are you doing?

My family is just sort of f'd up. Mr. Doggy's family is very "religious" (can you imagine me drunk among them???? :H). We just try to get through it. A few more days and it will all be over for another year! YAY!! I hope you have a lot of fun - especially with your naughty gag gifts! :H

Where is everyone?????

DG

[Cassander]

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RudyB;1228860 wrote:
i finally did crack spark, that cass-recommended book about exercise and the brain. the intro is captivating! exercise does seem to be the answer to much of what ails thee, and society at large. i'll have to try to generate a conversation w the athletic director from my school (a meathead). maybe we could get somewhere with the million dollar grant our school just got for athletics...

Hi Rudy

Glad you finally got to Spark. Keep going...there's interesting stuff about anxiety, alcoholism and addiction in there too.

Best,

Cass

[Bruunhilde]

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Hey DG,

No wonder you drank! LOL Glad you have Mr Doggie tho. R U done with school for a while then, like Ne? Can you come over here and help me organize all the mess around here? I'm off starting tomorrow, taking a week off, and all I see is the gym, the giant chores waiting for me, and avoiding the booze. Always a hard thing for me over vacation. In fact, vacations are the hardest/worst time for me historically. I'm hoping this time its different. I'm really going to try to make it this time, avoid being home at the witching hour, etc. Too bad its so dark outside at 5-7pm, makes it hard to be out with the dawg. I hate walking at night, I trip and fall over everything.

[Isolde]

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Hey guys. Checking in with everyone. Bruun, I hope this time will be different, too! Having a lot of things to do is a GOOD thing! It should make it easier to avoid the booze. The problem that I would run into there, is I would bust my ass all day getting stuff done, and then "reward" myself with alcohol at night. I don't know if this is a trap that you would fall into. You seem to have gotten a pretty good mindset towards AL since reading that book though, which is great! Don't look at the things you have to do like giant chores - just think about how much better you'll feel once you've accomplished them.

Cass, reading Spark is so frustrating for me right now! I am reading all about the benefits of exercise, especially where ADD is concerned (apparently it can help people get more out of their medication, which I sorely need right now). It makes me want to get up early in the mornings before work and go for a run, but I am back to limping lately. I think I tweaked my knee in hot yoga the other day. Grr! So I know all of the great benefits of exercise, and I know first hand how amazing I feel after I go for a good hard sprint session, but I can't put it into practice. Maybe I'll get a new knee for Christmas.. ? :H

Aww, DG, I'm sorry that the holidays are rough for you! I'm enjoying them immensely this year. I wish we had another week before Christmas. I end up wishing for that almost every year, usually because I need the extra time to get everything done! But this year I want the extra time to just enjoy everything!

And Red, I love your current avatar!! She's hardcore, beautiful, and impenetrable! She's one tough looking bitch.

So I've found that I've very quickly built up a tolerance to Vyvanse. Apparently that's quite common, but that once you find your right dose, the tolerance takes longer to build and the effects last longer throughout the day. Right now it hardly feels like I'm taking anything at all. The lack of focus is back. As can be attested to by my posting this during work! :H My next appt. is in 2 weeks and I'm sure my dose will be bumped up. I'm on the starter dose, as it is.

Hope everyone's having a good Wednesday!

Bruun, forgot to update you on the kombucha front. I do love how easy it is to brew. I wish I had started doing it years ago. The problem is that I'm not drinking it anymore! It's something to do w/whatever weird version of IC my body has. Kombucha makes my body very decidedly unhappy lately. My last batch has been brewing for far too long, and I haven't drank any of the previous batch yet, so I don't even have any empty bottles to put the current batch in. I think I will just add the scoby to the the "hotel" in my fridge, along with enough of my current brew to cover it and let it hang out for now. It sucks that something that is supposed to be so good for me, and that I can make so cheaply myself, isn't being well tolerated by my body. Me and my body just haven't been getting along for the last few months! Hmph!

[Doggygirl]

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Hi Bruun! Yes I am off school until Jan 17!!! YEAH!!! I have a LOOOONG list of stuff I want to get accomplished but it is very slow going so far!

It sounds like you are on a really good track for accomplishing your goals over vacation by making a solid P-L-A-N!!!!! I think you are wise to find specific things to be doing during the witching hours. There is a lot to do in this big ol' world - so no reason not to fill that time with something that will work! (:b&d:, I know! )

My strategy for getting my eating (both sugar and volume) under control is to have a written down plan every day, which I share with others and report back honestly how I did. (on the weight watchers forum) Somehow that accountability is helping me stick to my guns during iffy moments. And now that I have 24 sugar free days under my belt, sticking with my program has gotten a whole lot easier.

YOU CAN DO IT TOO!!!!!!!

More family drama over gift exchanging. Why the sam **** do we need to be bothering with that anyway?????? Ugh. I will be so glad when it's over! BAH HUMBUG! How is that for some holiday cheer? (sorry to bring a rant to the camp fire!!!)

I bought Stephen King 11/22/63 today as a Christmas gift to ME for some leisure reading! I think I shall crack that baby open tonight!!!!

Have a good evening Bruun! Friends too!

DG

[SlipperyPete]

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Doggygirl;1230614 wrote: Why the sam **** do we need to be bothering with that anyway??????

Isn't the expression "Sam hill"? That's how I've always heard it used. Good thing you censored that terrible word, DG

Quick update from me: After raising my bac dose a little bit, I've managed to go around 5 weeks without drinking. My goal was never to go completely AF, but this is much easier than modding, and I have some serious interest in re-wiring my brain.

Paleo is awesome. I've cooked everything I've eaten over the past month, and it's all been surprisingly delicious. I just need to meet a paleo chick to show her my crazy cooking skills. I've gone from 205 lbs to 190, and spend at least 2 hours a day modeling in front of the mirror with my shirt off.

I'm enjoying this job quite a bit, and I survived a round of lay-offs yesterday that came with the end of the holiday season. The only thing I'm having trouble with is keeping my thoughts positive for the whole work day. I'm wondering if looking into some sort of mindful meditation or what-have-you would be worthwhile that I could do in the moment. Anyone have any ideas?

And Happy Holidays, everyone.

[SlipperyPete]

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Here we are :H

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sam_Hill_(euphemism)

[ifulovelife2]

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Hey Chickeys (and Pete), 'sup?

I hope everyone is happy, healthy and (relatively) sober.

Now I've got the pleasantries out of the way, how'd that fat bloke manage to get his end away then? The reason I ask is, I've been hitting the pastries pretty hard lately and just want to have that information to hand should my love of pan au chololatte get too much for me.

Anyhoo, ta ta for now!

[Bruunhilde]

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Yo Campers!

Happy season of time off! I hope you guys get time off if you want it, or at least enjoy your workdays like Pete. A job is a good thing to have when you need it. Especially jobs that come with vacation time. I saved my vacation for this six days off, and today is day number 1 and I AM NOT HUNGOVER. That is a milestone for me, and it was relatively easy. I made chocolate chip cookies and a huge mess in the kitchen, which I will now work through. That's easy enough, and Is, I'm really working on changing my perspective to thinking about how good it will feel when this or that task is done, vs dreading and enlarging the task in my mind. Its the same mind-fuck that alcohol does to me, that romancing the alcohol is like the demonizing of the chores.

SO. I'm glad to see everyone is alive and awake, very cool. Been missing you vagrants who have not checked in lately, not to single you out specifically PETE but HORRAY on the AF of FIVE weeks. That's awesome, you must feel like the god you think you are! LOL, two hours in front of the mirror.

DG, never fear, I'm being vigilant. Sounds like you're doing well with the sugar - remember you lost 50lbs, what an accomplishment! About the gift swap, I kinda miss that because although I feel weird receiving things most of the time, I LOVE to give. So screw it, I'm giving something again this year, and no one can complain if its a gag gift, right? Especially if its a santa that farts and my 4 YO nephew loves it. I can also clean out my gift cabinet and unload crap on unsuspecting family members. HA.

Is, the kombucha and your IC. SUCKS. And I'm sorry you discovered this marvelous tea and now can't drink it. Reminds me to go make some now). Is the IC an immune related disorder? If so, kombucha should help it, right? Have you tried FOS? How about aloe vera juice? It helps with some pain disorders like arthritis and joint pain? I hope you feel better! What did they decide about your knee, it needs rest but you've been resting it. And the hot yoga screwed it up? Is it just a learning cycle about your limitations with the knee, now? I know I learned about ten years or fifteen years ago that I can't bend certain ways due to my lower back.

I'm having lots of heel pain, plantar effing something, and the sciattica, and the lower back pain, and I feel like an invalid. Is, we have so much in common! :upset: Gees. My nickname has been "Gimp" since I was in my teens.

I always tell myself that I'm given these challenges because I need the challenge and I'm strong enough to overcome. I feel envious of others and it feels green and moldy and bad, so I try to remember they're just weaklings because they didn't get the challenges I did because they can't deal. The universe is unknowable, after all, so there must be a reason for this madness that my little brain can't fathom.

I'm thinking about going to the craft store and buying those little cardboard boxes that come in star shapes and doing something with them and filling them with cookies and candy. Or mashed potatoes for my sister. Star shaped mashers, cool! But I think I'd get bored after doing one, so maybe not. Also it's too chick-y, it would turn into another chore. Okay, strike that. Stupid idea. I think I'll go shop for porn santa. Too bad its too late to get it delivered for xmas, crap.

Cheers you guys, thanks for being there, NBrenda, nice to see you here. Regarding the fat dude, is that NYC talk translated into how did he get his happy ending? I do not know but I'm sure if he's just lying there unable to move, someone has to do it for him. I wonder if he can reach it himself!? Maybe that's why he was so dying to get married. Damn men, always looking for a ring.

[spacebebe01]

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I wanted to ask a few things i just read on here but cant tremember them or who wrote them but weight watchers site, do you have to join it sounds like a good idea to me and something I maybe interested in I will check it out. housework thinking, I need to know more my house is a mess and relly is the thing that gets me down most in my life, I just cant do cleaning and tidying i spend hours just walking round moving things, talking to myself and stressing out over it, i dont have visitors cos of it, so someone please tell me more.

[spacebebe01]

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ps Doggy I love the whipping smiley, where do you get these

and whats with all the whipping round here anyway!

[Isolde]

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SlipperyPete;1230830 wrote: Isn't the expression "Sam hill"? That's how I've always heard it used. Good thing you censored that terrible word, DG
I was thinking the same thing. :H

SlipperyPete;1230830 wrote:
Paleo is awesome. I've cooked everything I've eaten over the past month, and it's all been surprisingly delicious. I just need to meet a paleo chick to show her my crazy cooking skills. I've gone from 205 lbs to 190, and spend at least 2 hours a day modeling in front of the mirror with my shirt off.

Too bad you don't live closer! You can cook dinner and I'll take care of dessert. I've made paleo candied bacon chocolate chip cookies so far, and have 2 more yet to try out.

SlipperyPete;1230830 wrote:
I'm enjoying this job quite a bit, and I survived a round of lay-offs yesterday that came with the end of the holiday season. The only thing I'm having trouble with is keeping my thoughts positive for the whole work day. I'm wondering if looking into some sort of mindful meditation or what-have-you would be worthwhile that I could do in the moment. Anyone have any ideas?

Congrats on surviving the lay off! I made it through a few rounds at my company a couple of years back. It makes for a tense situation in the office, that's for sure. Wish I had some advice to give you on staying positive. That's something I've been struggling with lately too. The Vyvanse has been helping me a lot in that regard, but I know that the real work needs to be done within. Aside from a gratitude journal (which I know I've written about in detail before on this thread, and so won't go into it again) and being present, I got nothin'.

Congrats on the 5 weeks AF! :goodjob:

[SlipperyPete]

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Bruunhilde;1230975 wrote: I'm thinking about going to the craft store and buying those little cardboard boxes that come in star shapes and doing something with them and filling them with cookies and candy. Or mashed potatoes for my sister. Star shaped mashers, cool! But I think I'd get bored after doing one, so maybe not. Also it's too chick-y, it would turn into another chore. Okay, strike that. Stupid idea. I think I'll go shop for porn santa. Too bad its too late to get it delivered for xmas, crap. If you're in need of a good present, go run to a book store or have Amazon over night this bad boy for you: Big Penis Book 3-D
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Isolde;1231108 wrote: Too bad you don't live closer! You can cook dinner and I'll take care of dessert. I've made paleo candied bacon chocolate chip cookies so far, and have 2 more yet to try out.

I've never met a girl who loves bacon as much as you, but it is hot! :H
If you love coconuts as much as I do then I might be hooked :h

[redhead77]

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Bruunhilde;1230975 wrote:


I always tell myself that I'm given these challenges because I need the challenge and I'm strong enough to overcome. I feel envious of others and it feels green and moldy and bad, so I try to remember they're just weaklings because they didn't get the challenges I did because they can't deal. The universe is unknowable, after all, so there must be a reason for this madness that my little brain can't fathom.


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Yup. I just love this, Bruun. I'm not sure why my life has been as tough as it has, but it must have something to do with what you've just written. Either that, or I was a very bad girl in a past life.

Which avi were you referring to, Isolde? Was it the rainbow or the redheaded Terminator chick before it? I decided to change it right after I picked her. I had a serious self conscious feeling about all the sexy avatars I've had recently. I really don't want anyone fantasizing about my avi. Really. Except, if you were referring to her, she is one tough bitch. And so am I, and so are you, Bruun. Which is why the universe deals us harder cards...

Bebe, I usually spend hours walking around and trying to figure out what to do too. Sometimes I have to pull it together, however. I find putting on certain music helps to do the trick. Get up and go music. Brew a pot of tea, put on a CD, and get into a mental place to just go for a few hours. It may sound simple, but it does help. Just give it a try...once. :H

DG, you've gone without sugar for 24 days? Well, it's more by now, since I'm responding to this late (I hope I didn't read this wrong). I think you're one tough bitch too! You seem to kick things very well. I know it's not effortless on your part, it hardly could be! But in a way, you make it seem effortless. You quit drinking, smoking, and sugar. All on your own. You rock! :l

SP, I'm glad you've found a new admiration for your body! Fifteen pounds is no joke! I'm going to buy myself a Paleo book (even though I think I'm mostly doing Paleo already. I am hoping for some new recipes.) I don't know jack about meditation, although I'd like to learn. I mostly just pray when I don't know what to do to help me. :H

Hi Lifer! I have no advice except to stop. I don't really want to know or hear about alternative sexual positions from you. Thanks.

Alrighty, over and out. I had my last shopping day (just had to get a few more things) before the big man arrives. But since we know I'm really the big man, I think my kids will be very pleased with what gets delivered. I'm very excited for a sober Christmas with them!

Hope I didn't miss anyone, but if I did, don't get a complex over it. I didn't mean it.

Love ya all! (you probably won't hear from me until after the holiday.)

Redhead

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Ah, the lovely campfire.

Hiya, peeps! I'm not sure what in sam-hell has been going on around here, as I've only read this page, but this page warms my cockles.

I am going to try the whole sugar-free paleo thing. I find this very annoying, since I don't believe in diets in general or paleo in particular. (why the Sam F* would I want to eat like my ancestors? They died younger than I am now! And had to hunt! And starved! I get it...I'm not trying to start a brawl. It's just never made sense to me.) Anyhoo, I really want to figure out if it helps me concentrate better. Any thoughts on this? And any cookbook/recipe suggestions for a newbie who doesn't really like or want to eat meat?

Candied bacon? You're kidding right? Will you send me some? Don't tell the part of me that wants to be vegan. Bacon is a curse and a cure. (Ed won't eat it because it's too good. It's the only thing I've ever known him to abstain from. Ever. Bacon is that good.)

Pete! Congrats! Redthread got me started in meditation stuff. I can't tell you how much I love it. (ok. I don't love doing it. I do love the results. Sound familiar?) She's put some stuff on the meditation thread that Bruun started in Holistic. That's how I got started. Jon Kabat-Zinn, and whats-his-name... Jack somebody. Great talks on the dharma site she posted. And great advice from her re. it's all well and good to listen but then you gotta do the work. I've been meaning to ask you why you ditched your coach/therapist?

DG, rock on, sister.

Bruun, you are an inspiration more than usual these days. I know it is...not in line with my whole effort to embrace humility and all that jazz, but I often think, "You f*ers have NO idea what I've conquered! There is nothing and no one that can stop me now!" This is accompanied by my own personal soundtrack that includes vintage Helen Reddy and Eminem. Whatever works, right? (omg, I am so...well, someone will fill in the blank. :blush

For the young 'uns and those that need a reminder:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MUBnxqEVKlk[/video]]Helen Reddy - 'I Am Woman' (Live) 1975 - YouTube

RedH, I'm pretty sure that you're an amazing fat man in a red suit! I'm very happy for you. What happened with the anxiety, the visit to Dr. L and the results? Did I miss it?

xxoo and merry days, peeps!