Bruun's Titting UP

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

LOL, I have no memorabilia, I think I met that relative once in my entire life and anything he had was left to cousins I've never met. Try ebay!

Yes, I think there's major damage in my brain and body too, but I'm hopeful that it will improve with abstinence. Dr Levin says that after a year or 18 months life will get easier and you'll become better, smarter, nicer, etc. Have you found that to be true, DG?

I feel like I can accomplish abstinence for a week at a time, and maybe more. This is the time to push for more, the diet is the platfrom I'll use for going AL publicly. Although it's a drinking man's diet, meaning you can have a drink at night if you want. Of course, no beer, and that's the only kind of drink I can limit myself to one of. It's always a conundrum, isn't it?

Hand santitizer? OMG. The Nyquil thing I heard from a teen complaining about some psycho girl she went to Europe with, who couldn't get alcohol so she kept buying Nyquil.

[Doggygirl]

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Hey Bruun. I've done hospital visits with a couple of guys who are really far gone alkies and will most likely die on the streets (although I refuse to give up hope while there is breath in these bodies!!). They always take the hand sanitizer out of the rooms. No kidding. I am so grateful that in all my insanity I never considered swallowing that. But had I kept going...who knows. Once they start removing the tubes and weaning these guys off the meds...look out. It can get a little crazy in the desparation for a drink. Then they just shove 'em out the door back onto the streets. One guy I was helping was lined up to be transfered to one of the charity recovery programs as soon as he was ready for release. My name and all my phone numbers were all over his records saying "call for pick up." They shoved him out the door - didn't even call a cab that the charity would have paid for - at 10PM. Never called me or a cab or the program. There is some real resentment going on in my local hospitals towards the street level hopeless alcholics.

Now if you have some $$$$ that is another matter entirely! We have red carpets for that.

Anyway...bet you never thought a Q about drinking hand sanitizer would net your THAT sandwich post now did you???

I am very interested in bac (and all recovery possibilities) not only in case I ever need to use some different tools but also with an interest in helping others. That's sort of how I end up in the meds section randomly posting in various threads. And hopefully not annoying too many people!

This piccy was taken about a week after my last drink in May 2008:



This piccy was taken summer 2009:




If I can do it so can you. Really. I went for years not being able to string 2 sober days together. Heck, I couldn't string 24 hours together for a very long time. Keep going in the positive direction that you are. NEVER GIVE UP. NEVER.

OK. There is serious shit I'm procrastinating and it's time for me to get to it. ALthough posting here is WAAAAYYYY more fun. HAVE A FABULOUS EVENING!

dG

[coalfire]

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Oh wow DG you look amazing. If you had said this is a picture of my aunt and this is her daughter I would have believed you. I wouldnt have blinked.Well ladies if this doesnt motivate us nothing will!

[bleep]

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That's an amazing transformation!

Drinking hand sanitiser sounds like a rough thing thing to do, I'm so thankful for baclofen - the problem was getting worse, so whose to say that wasn't me 10, 15 years down the line.

Yous was willpower DG?

[Bruunhilde]

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Holy Cow of India

DG,

THANK YOU for posting those pics, I look forward to being awesome like you. Dang, girl, YAHOOOOO!!! I won't give up. I'm serious about making some progress before summer, to boost my self-esteem because I'd like to actually date again (I guess). Doncha love my ENTHUSIASM? LOL

Okay, since this is me letting it all hang out anyways, can I ask the lovely menfellas a question? I know you all have needs, but do you all have needs all the time? Can a sister have sex once or twice a week and make ya happy? I only had ONE boyfriend that could make me happy to have sex nightly, only ONE that didn't frustrate the hell out of me. Yes, the common denom was me, with the others, but that one found the G spot and none of the others did. They just acted like I was keeping candy from a baby. If I wanted to shower alone, it was me being selfish. OMG, do I really want to date again?

Weight protects me from having these issues. But do I want to be alone forever? I always have wanted to be alone, but maybe I could do a duplex with a partner someday.

Regarding the hospital lack of sympathy for the AL's, my sister is the same way, she's a nurse. She's the person who will rescue any stray and break her heart and her live over it, but the alcoholics in the hospital, she says, "they did this to themselves, why should I treat them any better than they did to themselves?" I tell her that even though she feels she "beat" the alcohol, not everyone gets that help from their parents and health insurance. Still, she has no sympathy. She is the most kind hearted person I know when it comes to anything but people. I think she needs some super personal experience with this, and I don't mean tending to herself or me in the situation, but maybe a friend. I haven't figured out how to get through to her. Part of the problem is the hospital itself; they look down on AL's and don't give the folks leaving any chemical support, like supplements or baclofen or whatever they need to balance the issue. This could be done IN hospital while they're there, and continued on an out patient basis. It's our frickin' medical community and society's opinion of drunks. Like welfare mothers, IMO, don't educate them but just blame them. Don't help them avoid the situation, just condemn them once they're in it.

[Isolde]

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Doggygirl;1071152 wrote:
What all do you put in your green smoothies? I'm a wild salmon girl too. Recipes??????

Green smoothie combinations are endless. But I do have one that is a great "starter" green smoothie, and one that I always go back to because it's so good and easy.

2 frozen bananas (take peels off prior to freezing!)
handful or 2 of spinach
Enough water to combine

Super easy, super delicious. I add a few extras - tbsp. or so of coconut oil, a little vanilla extract, and lately a handful of frozen cherries.

The idea is to use about 2/3 fruit to start (any fruit!) and 1/3 greens, then build up to more of a 50/50 ratio, and then maybe more greens than fruit. I'm somewhere in the middle there, I still like for them to taste good!

And it just so happens that I recently found an awesome salmon recipe. It's from my fav. recipe website, AllRecipes.com. I make sure I eat a piece of salmon once a week, and for about the past 7 weeks, this is the only way I've made it. I've included my (copious!) notations:

Marinade:
2 Tbsp. maple syrup (I use organic Grade B - same stuff that the Master Cleanse calls for, if anyone is into that - but any kind will do)
1 Tbsp. soy sauce (low sodium Tamari here)
1 minced garlic clove (I prefer grating with a microplane)
dash of salt and pepper

Marinate fish in the above for 30 minutes, then bake at 400? for about 15-20 mins. I use this recipe for a 4 oz. serving, and I pour the sauce all over the top when it's done and use it for dipping each bite! It's definitely the most delicious salmon I've ever had at home.

bleep;1071471 wrote:
64f is 18 degrees Celsius, is that right? Jesus, that's not a temperature to boast about, that's unpleasantly cold!

Ok, I'll go ahead and boast. Tomorrow the high here will be around 83?F, which is 28?C.

[bleep]

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Isolde;1072784 wrote: ...

Ok, I'll go ahead and boast. Tomorrow the high here will be around 83?F, which is 28?C.

That's a little warmer than our winter temperatures, by about 3 degrees! Best weather in the world! Does anyone know how to get that little degree symbol to show up?

Bruun, how's your BP now that you are off the baclofen? Are you making some form of a plan to try again, or is that it?

I'll answer your question, just need to think about how for a bit...

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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omg, DG, you continue to amaze me with the depth and breadth of your recovery. There aren't any icons I can use to describe how much YOU ROCK!
Will you continue to be one of my senseis, please?

Bruun, I'm spending so much less time on MWO these days. I respond mostly to those that are new or because of some other weird Ne-brain-criteria. I think you are amazing too. Love your strength and fortitude. Love your attitude and your humor. With you every step of the journey.

I love it when you update, and when you post on my thread. Keep it up, and thanks for your thoughts too. Glad we know each other for real in the real.
xxoo
K

[Bruunhilde]

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Wow, Is, great recipe, I have a filet defrosting for tonight, will try this. Do you ever add ginger to that recipe?

Ne, love you, also am limiting time here due to other things taking my time like focusing more on my work, and another initiative - losing weight. Not on FB much either, can see you aren't as well. I'd rather be here than FB anyways.

Bleep, my answer to your bac Q is that if I can lose significant weight, I will reduce my BP somewhat, and then I can try bac again. I'm about to go on a diet that requires me to be AF. I will post regarding my ability to do that. Two weeks ago I did 6 days, which was a new record for me. My goal is four weeks this time and includes giving up all sugar and starch.

I expect this time to be different, because I'm stronger with you, Ne, DG, Is, Beatle, Coal, Red, Tracy, Serenity, and everyone else I haven't mentioned which doesn't mean I don't think about you Grommet, Grat, Low, etc.... it just means my hands hurt from typing. I expect this time to be different also because I'm at a crossroads in my health. I need to get fit enough to do the PT to fix my off-kilter body, so I don't end up needing knee and hip replacements in twenty years.

BP is borderline, but stable at around 185/87. Thanks for posting and caring and hugs to you all! Bleep, still want that answer.

[coalfire]

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Ok we will see you down in holistic. Looking forward to seeing how you get on with hcg(once I actually accepted that it existed!):goodluck:

[Doggygirl]

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Hi Bruun and friends! Happy Wednesday. Sucky rainy one here, but the good news is that it won't last forever.

Bruun, I really like your positive energy. It's hard but I really think if you can get some momentum going with some of this healthier stuff, it will all start building. That's sort of how it went for me. I love what you said about feeling stronger in the company of others who are working towards the same goals. I get strength from that too. I can't do any of this shit by myself! I could not string 2 sober days together before I found MWO. What sent me in search of something like this was quitting smoking with the help of a group of people at Quitnet. Wow the first few months going without smoking was like taking a trip through hell!

Anyway..I think you are onto something good.

bleep;1072739 wrote: That's an amazing transformation!

Drinking hand sanitiser sounds like a rough thing thing to do, I'm so thankful for baclofen - the problem was getting worse, so whose to say that wasn't me 10, 15 years down the line.

Yous was willpower DG?

Nope. My will power all by itself wasn't enough. I read the MWO book and followed everything with the exception of Topa. It wasn't easy and I relapsed after 60 days and then STRUUUUGGGGLLLEEED for 8 months before I was somehow able to get back on the wagon again. When I finally did manage to get several months of sobriety under me, I was still afraid of drinking again - like something would happen and I would not be able to stop myself from picking up a drink. That fear is what prompted me to finally darken the doorstep of AA which has really helped me a lot. (I know it's not for everyone and I'm certainly not pushing it!)

Anyway... IS that recipe looks fabulous. I'm printing it out!! I love Allrecipes. It's so easy to search for stuff and try new things.

Bruun my BP was a little high when I first quit drinking but now after losing the weight and being off the booze, etc. it's well within my doc's Happy Range. I'm sure when you get all this stuff sorted your BP will be a lot better too!

I'm really glad I can have a shit day now and then and not feel like drinking over it. That my friends is a miracle! If I can, you can. That is all.

Oh - Spanx update. I figured out that the Leggs people make a capri type slimming thingy for under $10. So the spanx bottoms are going back. I liked the bras though but decided to try one size bigger. Those arrived today. We'll see if they make that nasty back fat disappear as claimed. One can hope. And when the problem is "behind me" I can ignore. Either way I guess I win!

Hope you are having a good day Bruun!

DG

[Isolde]

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bleep;1072975 wrote: Best weather in the world! Does anyone know how to get that little degree symbol to show up?

I looked it up a few weeks ago, and I've been using it quite a lot since!! Alt + 0176.

Don't go crazy with it, eh? :H

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[Isolde]

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And Bruun, yes, ginger is a good addition to that recipe too. I keep forgetting to pick up some fresh ginger and so have been using some of the dried powder that I have on hand. But I know it's nowhere near as good as the fresh stuff!
I'll have to remember to put it on my grocery list!!

[coalfire]

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" When I finally did manage to get several months of sobriety under me, I was still afraid of drinking again - like something would happen and I would not be able to stop myself from picking up a drink."-Doggygirl.
:yeahthat:

[Bruunhilde]

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Is, I keep ginger root in a freezer bag and then chop a little off now and then, works fairly well. Don't let it defrost, gets disappointly flaccid. Cook it up immediately! Or throw it in the marinade.

DG and Coal, that constant craving enemy on my shoulder concerns me, but I'm going to take it like the sugar addiction and the gluten addiction: If I'm without it long enough, I won't miss it that much. And I'll use bac PRN if it helps, I have plenty of that. And topa. I'm visualizing a strong sexy thin body that is free of the chains that bind me today.

Alt + 0176 gives me BONK 0176 ... so it's BONK 0176 80F today.

And re the holistic thread, would hcg really be there? HCG seems to me like bac to some people, cheating vs the magic bullet many people claim. Not sure I want to post my progress or lack there of here, but I will post the AF days and by that, you can infer some success. I'll fess up if I'm really successful tho.

DG, I think we're all interested in how you do AF today, is it white knuckling daily & ODAT? Or have you gotten to a comfort level plus some vigilance?

Hugs all.:l