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[Bruunhilde]

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:lOh Pete its so true, having someone actually hear you ... and validate your feelings. Fuck that dog and owner!

Ne, I got really pissed at the other dog park today, hot chick let her dog take the ball I was playing with my pup with, its just a ballpark ball (people contribute their old tennis balls for the greater good) and let her dog tear it to pieces. BITCH. Then the dog started on another ball, and there was only one other ball in the dogpark and I had a hella time finding it. I gave her some shit about letting her dog ruin it for all the other ball dogs. She didn't give a crap. Spoiled bimbo bitch. I wanted to fuck her up. Damn.

Sooooooo.... I guess PMS is here AND all the shit is still surfacing. Ugh, wine sounds soooooooo good right now. And I ovulated already so I can drink right? Just kidding.

Thanks for the kind words, both of youse. I am struggling and you help me.

[SlipperyPete]

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Bruunhilde;1157291 wrote: I wanted to fuck her
Bruunhilde;1157291 wrote: ...up.

Violence is NEVER the answer, B!

If you drank wine, then you wouldn't be able to ponder all the wonderful stuff your hypno-doc told you today!

[Bruunhilde]

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Haha on you Pete, sexual violence was one of the issues Hypno Girl brought to surface. Although I appreciate the joke - sorta. It has been a long long time since that. I do think it has been one issue fucking me up with men.

I'm drinking wine.

[Murphyx]

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Hey, I heard this was the place to make jokes about sexual violence and I wanted to join in. Here's one and it's also relevant to your doggy park experience.

Bruun, a couple of weeks back a Staffy/Pit Bull cross type thing (basically the sort of trophy dog, boys with tiny penises own) slipped his leash and came bounding over to my 2 pups. I was ready to kick it in the face, which I've happily done to dogs on more than one occasion, but it just started sniffing my collie. One of the oafs who owned the dog swaggered over at a far too relaxed pace for my liking, especially as the dog started to try to hump my (boy) dog. I grabbed it by the collar, lifted it off and threw it on the ground. This forced the pace of oaf number 1 and oaf number 2 started running over. Undeterred, the oaf dog then tried to mount my collie again, so I grabbed it by the collar and held it in the air. By this time the oafs had arrived and advised me it was unwise to treat their pooch in such a manner. I disagreed and verbalised my dissent in a most forceful manner. I further emphasised my position when I threw the dog at oaf number 1 and told him to take control of his gay-rapist dog. I also speculated as to how their dog may have learnt such aberrant behaviour and suggested they in future refrain from demonstrating such acts in front of him, or indeed on him. Although the wild gesticulations and fantastical use of profanity could suggest otherwise, I believe they learnt a valuable lesson and no doubt, as they walked away, they were actually considering my suggestions and plotting to turn their lives around and dedicate themselves to the betterment of humankind.

The point of my story is, next time da biatch's bitch fucks wit yer pooche's shit, pick it up by the throat, shove it in her face and threaten to strangle the pair of them. It's BOUND to have the desired effect.

[SlipperyPete]

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Yikes.:sorry: I'm an idiot...

[Doggygirl]

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Bruun, so happy for you than you are uncovering all this with your hypno person. It must be very uncomfortable to stir it all up, but maybe it needs to happen for some healing and moving on?

DG

[bleep]

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I think perhaps discussing Murph's incident with the hound with your therapist might be more beneficial than discussing your own, less traumatic ones?

Stay good Bruun.

[Doggygirl]

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Bleep, I'm thinking that if a person were to mention Murphy at all during a session, the therapist would immediately double the rates???????

How are you today Bruun?

DG

[RudyB]

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hey bruun! i've been reading a book called 'the marriage of sex and spirit'. it's an anthology from many different thinkers on the topic. i keep running into relevancies. seems every book i randomly pull of the shelves has something important to say to me. guess the pulling isn't so random afterall. today's essay was about how important it is to dig around our childhoods and unearth from whence our pathologies came. in that way we can become closer to whole, and be better able to live fully present in our relationships. good stuff, and also relevant to you and your process. glad the therapy went well. the truism is true: the only way out is through.

[Bruunhilde]

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Murphyx;1157343 wrote: I further emphasised my position when I threw the dog at oaf number 1 and told him to take control of his gay-rapist dog. I also speculated as to how their dog may have learnt such aberrant behaviour and suggested they in future refrain from demonstrating such acts in front of him, or indeed on him.

:H:H:H You got me on this one, classic Murph humor at its best.

Sorry to make you feel bad Pete, I have been feeling really volatile this week and I shouldn't have made you feel bad. Now I feel bad too. I'm being overly sensitive. You are allowed, indeed welcomed to make off color jokes here. In fact, please do! Its the only kind of humor I 'get'.

Luckily there's Murph to cheer us up. And DG! Rudy, thanks for the book recommendation, I'll check it out on Amazon. Always looking for fixme books. Thanks for your observations. Bleepster, as always, thanks for your support. I'm trying you guys, I'm trying. I had wine the last two days! No hangover but still more than I should. I went up on baclofen last night and was super dizzy this AM. But I got through it, meeting with senior management, I did great, but driving back I kept weaving. Glad the cops don't test for bac! My plan if I get pulled over ever is to plead inner ear rocks. I do get dizzy from them and its actually pretty bad. My friend calls this "the flopsies" when she gets it.

[Doggygirl]

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Don't give up Bruun. You CAN get this figured out. I think once you are able to crack the code and get free of AL, you are going to be amazed.

I had a very tear filled evening two nights ago - we had to put our Beagle to sleep. Crying really affects me badly. The next day I always have really swollen and scratchy eyes, and sometimes (like this time) a bad headache. It's nothing compared to the old hangovers, mind you, but I thought I was going to die by noon yesterday! I seriously don't know how I made it through life being so hungover and having to function every day. YOU ARE GOING TO BE AMAZED. That is all.

I miss my little buddy. :upset:

DG

[Murphyx]

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Aww DG, I'm so sorry. I had to do it for both my boys last year and it broke my heart. :l

Bruun, how much did you go up? Was it part of a programme of titration or just a one off experiment. And have you checked your BP since?

[RudyB]

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hi bruun! the weaving! i was almost home once, prob around 120 mg, and i wove right into the other lane all of a sudden. they say most accidents occur near home or a very familiar place. be careful in those final miles! how lucky for you that you have a friend in 3D who also does bac! (do i understand this correctly?) i'm always pushing the bac to friends of drinking friends. so far, no luck finding local buddies, but i am not giving up...

glad no hangovers for you! keep up the good fight, girl!

sorry dg about your dog. that has to be very painful. my rosita died after 11 good years with me. her kidneys failed. she died after a week of no drink or eating. one evening, during a rainstorm, she used her last bit of strength to dart out the door, lie down, and go on her restful way to doggie heaven. i took comfort in her good life, and knowing that she probably didn't suffer much. dying is the natural end result. cry those tears. and i hope for minimal itcy eyes and no headache for you.

xo rudy b

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Bruunhilde;1157748 wrote: I had wine the last two days! ...
I went up on baclofen last night and was super dizzy this AM.
Hi, Bruun! Bac+Booze=SEs
I know it's not the only tool you're using, and what you're doing is certainly working for you! (yay!) Just be wary of using that particular tool in a way that might make things worse, even if it's just temporarily!
KOKO, B!

Doggygirl;1157764 wrote:
I had a very tear filled evening two nights ago - we had to put our Beagle to sleep.
DG

I'm so, so sorry DG. :l

[Doggygirl]

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Thanks you guys...:l

Good morning Bruun! Hope you are feeling good today.

DG