Bruun's Titting UP

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

Hey y'all,

Thanks for the ideas guys. LOL and I will mull it over.

DG, YOU are special. Again, good info for me and every reader to have about AA. I'm too zonked to get into the shouting from mtns, but maybe later.

For some reason, I fell out of the daydreams and into the doldrums today in a big thump, felt around the 'hood. Decided to get back on the gabapentin/tryptophan wagon. Work stressing me out and I'm trying to think like my coworkers think, which is MUCH CALMER than I think. They don't let this stuff get to them, they decide what a reasonable expectation is and do what they want. S

o I'm going to do that, I just need to have my "story" ready for the boss when he asks. He's never mean about expenses, in fact, I spend like my father so how could anyone criticize my expenses? Dad grew up in the depression and squirrels away every nut. Even Sarah Palin. He told me he wants her for VP because she is speaks well (so long as you ignore content and honesty), is pretty (will help sell the GOP bullshit) and is "patriotic".... BULLSHIT. Patriotic? All she is is a hairbump with neuticals.

For the first time in my life, I had to end the conversation because I was too tired to talk him to sanity.

Charlie Sheen is funny looking (very sharp angles and even more unattractive when he opens his mouth). Maybe he and Sarah should get it on.

Anyways, thanks for the upper DG. I meant "hook up" as in meeting people and maybe finding a date, that's all.

[Doggygirl]

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Let me know how the G...pent.../Tryp re-start works out for you. I hope it helps your moods. I remember well when I was probably only a couple weeks into my first AF stretch. I was taking the MWO supplements in the starter kit and on somebody's recommendation, I added GABA. (the brand MWO sells) HOLY CRAP!!! That stuff lifted me up off the ground by about 20 or 30 feet! I have taken GABA more recently without anywhere near that sort of effect. (I guess I'm just living at the 20 - 30 foot level every day???!!!!) I take it as a sign of exactly what kind of crap shape I was really in back then!! :egad: It sure was nice to actually FEEL good though! I wont' forget that. I hope you are able to get some of that feeling too at this stage of your game!!

Sounds like the sort of hook up you have in mind is nothing that Murph would be demanding video of. This is good I think.

It was really funny when I finally realized that my brother looks like Charlie. I never really thought of my brother as particularly good looking. But in some of the earlier 2.5 men episodes, I think Charlie has his good looking moments. That is all really REALLY wierd when it's....MY BROTHER I'm comparing too. SICK I tell you!!!

I watched the funniest episode EVER of 2.5 men last night. All of these are Tivo re-runs so I have no idea when it aired. Charlie was wooing and industry exec who was gay, so he was pretending to be gay. He was invited to a party and Alan was his "date." OMG it was hysterical.

Your Dad sounds like my Dad re: the depression era nut gripping. My Mom wears a hearing aid and I sort of understand why she never "remembers" to get new batteries, etc. Sara Palin? :egad:

Anyway...enough of my babble. I am reading "Mastering Leptin" and at least I know I will have no problem falling asleep tonight - probably 1 page max.

Keep plugging away Bruun. You can do it.

DG

[Murphyx]

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Hang in there Bruun, you'll find what works for you.

Good idea to get back to the gabapentin and L-Tryp; I think it's certainly worth giving it a go.

Doggygirl;1164662 wrote:
Your Dad sounds like my Dad re: the depression era nut gripping.

Blimey, the things people used to do to entertain themselves back in the day.

And will everyone please stop dissing Sarah Palin; she's a dish and that's all that matters.

[Doggygirl]

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Happy Wednesday Bruun!

Murph, you made me wonder if there is a "Sarah Palin Commemorative Plate" out there somewhere.

I started exercising yesterday with Bodylastics bands. I really like it! And there are a zillion workouts at Over 1000 FREE workouts with resistance bands | LIVEEXERCISE.COM. I think I'm going to go get me some endorphins now.

Hope you are having a good day. HANG IN THERE. Don't start this stinkin' cycle all over again, K?

DG

[Bruunhilde]

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Good for you DG, get those muscles on!

Feeling better today, took a total of 600 mg gabapentin yesterday in two doses, and one this AM, and also took tryptophan last night, 1gram. Still struggling with the anxiety but feeling like I'm managing.

Murph, did you say you found the gabapentin worthwhile? I don't recall if you wrote up your reactions aside from the initial day of OD'ing on it and the bit you wrote here about continuing to take it. Any SEs or other commentary?

[Doggygirl]

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Glad you are feeling good today, Bruun! Is meditation part of your gig? I really have never pursued it, (time is my enemy!!) but so many people talk up the benefits for helping with anxiety, etc. Just curious. There is some course a few people have recently started on the Deepak Chopra site. Greeneyes and Lavanda are the go to people on that one if you are interested and need more info.

OK - I'm off to torture myself with some Bodylastics!

DG

[Murphyx]

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I started taking the gabapentin at the same time as 5-HTP and changing a couple of other things, so it's difficult for me to say exactly what's responsible (perhaps the entire combination), but I'm generally feeling a lot happier about stuff, except today. Today I'm feeling crappy and it's because I tried following a new guided meditation and it was a load of old bollocks and pissed me off enormously - 20 minutes of just chanting my mantra?????? WTF? That's NOT good!!!!!

Anyhoo I digress, I still had a slightly high feeling in the afternoons for about a week after starting 300mg gabapentin am and 300 pm, but that's gone now and I'm still in a much better state. Well I would be if it weren't for that idiot on the CD who insisted I chant my arse off and bored myself stupid and annoyed the pooh out of me and made me want to beat his brains out with a baseball bat with broken glass stuck in it ....calm Murph, calm...go to your happy place...watch the bunnies frolic...ahhh, there you go...let the killyness pass...concentrate on your breathing and not the way the idiot's flesh would look once you gave him the thrashing he so richly deserves. Peace.......peace....peace and calm....

[Isolde]

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Hey Bruun! After your shout out on FB, I had to swing by and say hi.
I'm clueless as to what gabapentin is or what it does. I'll have to google it when I have some time.
I had what damn near felt like the beginning of a relapse with AL AND food issues. I figured out what the culprit was and am happily back in the land of indifference. I'll have to post up the details over on my thread (which is probably buried somewhere on page 126 or so by now!). Maybe the info. will help someone else. But probably not, because everything seems to have a backwards effect on me! :H
Will catch up more later, just wanted to say HI! :h

[Doggygirl]

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Is - I am interested in your experience and will look for your post!

How are you doing Bruun? It's almost my bed time (:H) but wanted to just say one more HI and also give you whichever you need of :l:h and/or :b&d: to get you through the day.

DG

[Bruunhilde]

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Murphyx;1164952 wrote: I started taking the gabapentin at the same time as 5-HTP and changing a couple of other things, so it's difficult for me to say exactly what's responsible (perhaps the entire combination), but I'm generally feeling a lot happier about stuff [...] and I'm still in a much better state.
And how can "killyness" be part of a vegetarian's mindset? Oh yea, I recall from my V days, only animals were spared that. People in particular deserved the worst! I restarted as you know and feeling a bit better.

BTW, I found an old RX -my vet gave my sick dog gabapentin after she was diagnosed with a fatal disease which paralyzed her back-end over time. RX was for pain - its 100mg once a day or twice if needed. She was 70lbs if anyone needs to know.

Isolde;1164959 wrote:
I had what damn near felt like the beginning of a relapse with AL AND food issues. I figured out what the culprit was and am happily back in the land of indifference. I'll have to post up the details over on my thread (which is probably buried somewhere on page 126 or so by now!). Maybe the info. will help someone else. [...] :h

You are such a tease, Is, never knew that about you! But I bet L (the king of fit & recover) does! You're killing us with the bait here. Desperate minds want to know! Will you post the magic solution or shall I go buy a bottle of Sapphire and look into its depths for answers?

[LadyLush]

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Bruun,

Interesting on the Gab and your dog. I've had some sort of Shepherd/Collie mix all my life and they always tend to have the hip/back problems. I actually am using Glucosamine with mine and I swear it helps.

I saw you on the Crazy Glue and Teeth Thread....:muahaha:
Stirly Girl always seems to get rid of them early. I saw it from the start. There's another one she stopped about dreams or something I will have to find for you. I am sorry but I know they are Trolls but they are so ignorant they make me laugh.

Anyway, have a good night, sheeez already 11 p.m. here. :bedtime:
Texas Rangers are still on and are tied so I'll give it a few more minutes

LL:l

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[Doggygirl]

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Hi Bruun! How are you today? Hope life is good.

DG

[bleep]

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I was going about my day, and you popped in to my head for no reason at all.

Other than I think of you often.

I hope you are having a good day Bruun.

[Murphyx]

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Bruun, where the hell are you? Speak up woman! Get back here and tell us what's going on in Bruun-land?

Please.

:l

[Bruunhilde]

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Wow, thanks for the well wishes and concern, it really felt good to see your post bleep and Murph and of course DG.

I won't post it all except to say I had yet another relapse Sun nite and Monday was traveling, feeling like death, popping anti-nausea/diarrhea drugs hourly, and fighting to appear normal vs sick as a dog. I don't know how you can eat 500kcal/day and gain weight....

I'm back today and its AF 2. Again. I'm exhausted. These cycles are killing me in every way. Am on 40mg bac and 900mg gabapentin. And greek yogurt and manuka honey for the gut.

I keep hearing about people who've died of stomach/bladder/esophagal cancers, all which I could see myself getting given my weakness is my gut. I'm really trying not to visualize things like falling down stairs and getting cancer because I realize thoughts make reality so instead bringing angels and a soft landing into my dreams instead. I'm thinking by Monday I'll be strong enough to get to the new gym.

As weekly, here I am, yet again. Embarrassingly. :chute:

No, I won't stop stopping - and drawing strength from you who've done it. :l