Bruun's Titting UP

[Doggygirl]

Bruun's Titting UP

Hi Bruun. Glad you checked in. No AC sounds like suckage! How are you today? Hope the AC is working.

DG

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

Hey DG, my home office is so hot, and I can't afford to cool the whole house every day, I just sweat out toxins on the worst days, dress in very little. I find cold wet socks help.

On to the important stuff: I just saw this post and wanted to give you a hug. What a mess of confusing feelings in that memory. I know we all felt awful and horrified that day, my parents told me this was how they felt after Pearl Harbor. I guess we never see the violence against US on our home turf, and when we do, it's on a massive scale. It shocks.

I was about to leave for the airport when my brother called and said, you might want to rethink that trip. Turned on the TV, and of course, crazy world like a movie on the news. I ended up at home because all the appointments I was going for were canceled. Glad I didn't fly that day for many reasons, one being that forever on, if you did fly that day, they practically strip search you each time in airport security. So so I hear.

Just look where you've come since then, DG, you should be proud of yourself. You are an inspiration to me.

Doggygirl;1108388 wrote: Bruun I was thinking this morning about where I was when 911 happened. I was still a semi-functioning-on-the-job alkie at the time. I was in my car on the way to a client when the first plane hit, and then the second. It was so confusing - the radio people had no idea what was going on. Listening to it was like a train wreck happening in slow motion.

My original plan for the day was to visit both of my customers - a several hours adventure to two disparate and distant points in the Chicago metro area. When I arrived at the first customer, they were closing for the day as there was so much confusion about what was happening, and IIRC there was talk of fears about the Sears Tower (now some other name) downtown being a target. So I called my other customer to see what their plans were. They were closing down too and sending everyone home.

So I was very very relieved. I went straight back to home town and to a bar. Sadly, the drinking was far more important to me than the news I was watching. Also, it was a lot like being in a bar on Christmas Eve, which I've done many many times. A very lonely place. Even the noon time lunch drunks decided to stay home with their families in all the 911 confusion I guess. But not me.

Of course thoughts of 911 always bring about deep sorrow for all of the lives lost that day, and all of the living people whose lives were changed forever. But it's impossible for me to stop myself also thinking of how pathetic my drunken life was on that day too.

I guess I should have posted this in my resurrected journal.

Thanks for listening.

DG

[Doggygirl]

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Hey Bruun. I'm glad you didn't fly that day either. What a scary mess that would have been. I knew a couple people (former co-workers) who were in the tower when it went. They both got out, thank God.

Do you work for yourself from your home office? Or for a company? I work for myself now but back then was working for another company.

My Dad is back in ICU since last night. Mom called this morning. I've been taking care of some necessary stuff this morning, and now just having lunch. Then I'm heading back out for one more business thing, and then down to see Dad. I've been in a real funk the last few days (still am) and am sort of wondering if maybe the spirit world has been whispering to me. I have a lot of conflicting emotions about my Dad. Sometimes it feels like the plusses and minuses sort of cancel each other out, leaving me rather emotionless when it comes to him. I don't think he'll be with us much longer - I'm a little scared of the feelings that might come blubbling up when that time comes.

Hope you are having a better day than that!! sorry to dump here in your thread!

Ice water socks are just creepy Bruun! :H

DG

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

So sorry to hear of your dad's situation, I can totally relate to the fear of fallout when the inevitable happens. I've thought of it lately for some reason, which gives me the willies.

Will talk more about this stuff offline if you want - I don't want my entire life on the boards, although it's too late likely, I'd like to avoid reducing my anon status completely..... if you want to FB or something, let me know.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Doggygirl;1108377 wrote: Morning Bruun. I will come wear a lab coat and play a part at your clinic in Mexico!

I saw some horrible movie my dad dragged me to a couple of years ago...A nurse undoes her skimpy little nurse's uniform and reveals some really big guns. (ha!) She goes on a shooting rampage. That's the image that came to mind when I thought about my role. She was a skanky ho. Plus I think she got blown away in the first scene. I think I need to work on my images... :H just sayin
Can I go, though?

Doggygirl;1109671 wrote: My Dad is back in ICU since last night.

oh, geez DG. I'm really sorry. Strength and whatever else you need be with you. That Dad thing is really hard.
I completely agree about the wet socks. But if the AC goes out this summer remind me of it, will you?
Also, it's a little hard for me to conjure up too much sympathy considering the fact that it was 40degrees here last week, 80 yesterday, and 50 today...
But sweating while sitting sucks. So sorry.
Bruunhilde;1109674 wrote: I'd like to avoid reducing my anon status completely.

ha! good luck, sister.

Cheers to 30 days, b! I don't want to start today, either, but it's right there in black and white. Can't go back now!
xxoo

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

HEY NE! DG! LADIES!

I had a good day, I got out of the dang home office and actually had lunch with someone in person and then saw a client, rocked it and went home doing errands along the way. The traffic didn't bother me because, I am for the first time in my life, able to ditch it 99% of the time and feel I have paid many dues (1.5 hrs each way for hundreds of years in LA and 120 miles each way with toll road also). I endeavor to continue to deserve this break in my life. Not implying I'm an angel or doing anything right, just striving...
:wings:

Anyways, DG, so glad your friends got out.

I hope your daddy does well, and that you prepare for whatever could happen. I feel for you. :heart:

Neva, the boobs-shooting thing is weird, not sure why you would keep that in mind unless it disturbed your for a certain reason and I believe you don't have fake knockers do you? I wouldn't have thought it, but why else would you have an ammo slant to the idea of mammaries? :H I admit to seeing a boob-shooting movie, maybe but I think it was a preview, can't imagine I would rent something that stupid. Maybe it was an Angelina Jolie preview. I refuse to rent her stuff. Your daddy may have mammary dreams.

Also, to help with YOUR green monster, it's been cold here for months and months, raining all the time, flooding, and to have a little warmth is wonderful. I freeze til about noon then I roast until I quit for the day. It literally goes from 63F to 95F in a day in my office. Talk about hot flashes. This has only happened twice this year, so don't get your jock strap in a wad.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Bruun's Titting UP

Hiya, B.
No, no, no. It was guns literally. (Her ginormous plastic breasts were wrapped in some lacey thing if I recall correctly but I wasn't really paying attention to those...)
She had guns hidden under her tiny little nurse dress. (What kind of movies do you think my father watches anyway??? With me, no less. He does drag me to Tarantino flicks without a heads up. Irritates me, but at least what's-his-name, the guy you hate, was in the last one...)
Gotta remember the movie. I think it was one of the Drive Fast and Be Tough movies. With the hottie... hmmm.
I'll reflect.
I can relate to the temp change thing. More on that fascinating stuff later. zoom zoom!

Glad it was a good day! yay!
xo

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

Titguns, I still think I've seen'em.

Maybe they were mine, but no worries, had the calibers reduced some years back.:bust:

[Doggygirl]

Bruun's Titting UP

Hi Bruun. Come out come out wherever you are. Keep your titguns holstered, OK? How are you?

DG

[Isolde]

Bruun's Titting UP

Heya Bruun! Haven't chimed in for a little while, but now that the boards have quieted down a bit I'm trying to get back in the habit of posting regularly again. So glad to hear you had a good day recently! We need those to remind us that they ARE possible!
Ugh, that LA traffic you were talking about sounds wretched, so glad you are not dealing with that BS now. And yes, you absolutely DO deserve this break! :l

As to the weather... well, it's been summer here for awhile now, highs in the 90s every day and lows in the 70s. I know it sounds great to some of you who are still dealing w/cold temps, and it's actually not terrible now. But if it's already in the low 90s, that means it's going to be another absolute scorcher of a summer, and we just HAD one of those. The kind that if you happen to walk outside in the middle of the night, it's still in the upper 80s and STICKY. Like walking out into pea soup. There is no relief for months. And it's impossible to know how to dress for it! You want to wear as little as possible for when you have to venture outside, but then everywhere that you go (grocery store, work, etc.), the A/C is on full blast and when you walk in all hot and sweaty, you end up with a thin layer of ice all over your body after a few mins! It's absolutely retarded, I tell ya.

The swimming pool doesn't even offer any reprieve. It's still somewhat cool right now, but by July/August, when you really need to cool off, it's about the temperature of bath water. It's wet, that's about it.

/rant

[RudyB]

Bruun's Titting UP

brunn,
i'd like to be one of your first customers at your clinic in mexico. finances are tight, so could i do a trade? i can be an interpreter for those who don't speak spanish/english. i could also put on a pretty paper hat and play nurse, tho i don't have big boobs, if that's okay.

on 911 i was teaching elementary school for the fourth day. my colleague came in and whispered what had happened. we all locked our doors. later, from the gym, we watched plumes of smoke rise across the river (i was in brooklyn) while sobbing parents came and picked up their children. it was surreal. ashes and bits of paper floated down for at least a day. glad i wasn't any closer. glad you didn't get on a plane...

on a lighter note, i once had a step-daughter-ish whose mom was into all kinds of alternative remedies. she treated her daughter's allergies with wet socks. i don't think it worked. and i don't think the little girl liked it much.

hope you're staying cool. it's a pleasant 60 degrees where i am. i'm off to work in the garden. was it you who said that active things are better than passive to avert the cravings? i totally agree. i've just pulled a hair-of-the-dog, as i tied one on last night and am horribly exhausted hungover, but not anxious which is unusual. but sis is on her way over so that hair won't turn into a wig. kinda resent that, but it's for my own good. i'm struggling here, waiting for the bac to kick in. knowing that i must employ some more tools, cause this ship feels sinking.

just wanted to chime in and say hello and i hope you are well. i'm curious how your (non?) al journey goes. always love reading this thread. oh, and i so relate to your dad stuff. you could be me the way you describe the cancelling-out phenomenon.
rudyb

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

Isolde;1111033 wrote:
As to the weather... Like walking out into pea soup. There is no relief for months. And it's impossible to know how to dress for it! You want to wear as little as possible for when you have to venture outside, but then everywhere that you go (grocery store, work, etc.), the A/C is on full blast and when you walk in all hot and sweaty, you end up with a thin layer of ice all over your body after a few mins! It's absolutely retarded, I tell ya.
/rant

Hey Is, great to see you, I'm not posting as much and will likely post less over time here unless I order the Nal and it works. I hear it works for some peeps.

I cannot imagine that weather. I have been in humidity about 8 times in my life and most times I got violently ill (bronchitis that turned into pneumonia and lasted for months) and was miserable feeling like there was no 02 the time prior to getting ill. Don't know how you handle humidity all of you who do, but I have to say, it DOES do wonders for your skin. Compare AZ and So CA girls to Houston and FLA and I think you'll find a difference. Discounting the leathery sunworshipers....

DG, my new name is officially Titguns. Fitting somehow.

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

RudyB;1111052 wrote: brunn,
i'd like to be one of your first customers at your clinic in mexico. finances are tight, so could i do a trade? i can be an interpreter for those who don't speak spanish/english. i could also put on a pretty paper hat and play nurse, tho i don't have big boobs, if that's okay.

on 911 i was teaching elementary school for the fourth day. my colleague came in and whispered what had happened. we all locked our doors. later, from the gym, we watched plumes of smoke rise across the river (i was in brooklyn) ...glad i wasn't any closer. glad you didn't get on a plane...
i'm struggling here, waiting for the bac to kick in. knowing that i must employ some more tools, cause this ship feels sinking.

just wanted to chime in and say hello and i hope you are well. i'm curious how your (non?) al journey goes. always love reading this thread. oh, and i so relate to your dad stuff. you could be me the way you describe the cancelling-out phenomenon.
rudyb

Wow Rudy, I had a good friend in Brooklyn and remember that little park where you could see the NYC skyline and alot of news shots of the twin towers were taken from that park, and it felt so immediate for me, because I knew exactly where that was. Kinda wish I was there and kinda thankful I wasn't, the trauma would be unreal. You prob have PTSD. Have you looked into that, I bet most sensitive people in the area still suffer from it. Still have not been in touch with him because he lost his job at one of the big investment houses (he was product, not big buck sales, but still made so much more than me his whole life for some reason)....

My AL journey not going well. Yes, can I employ you full time? Need Spanish speaking at least for start up! Mexico scares me though, being next to the border here in CA, I hear about all the drug wars and how the drug cartels control everything, there is so much violence and murder, it's like the friggin' mob all over again but without any effective govt. At least in the US, there was SOME govt after these guys. You have exactly 2 minutes to live after deciding to hunt the Mexican cartel down, sorta like Columbia I guess. Lots of children and innocents killed for what seems like no reason, although it could be payback for not doing what the cartel says to do.

Thanks for posting, it feels like there's not much input here these days which makes it less appealing to post. If you're having a chat with a friend, why not take it offline? But knowing people are reading and then sometimes posting helps alot. I was just telling DG why not take it offline because no one else seems to get anything out of it. So thanks for posting, makes me feel like I'm in company instead of alone out there...

[RudyB]

Bruun's Titting UP

oh my god, bruun, you are so not alone here! i read these posts of yours and ne and murph and all the others like a lifeline. please oh please keep posting. i need you guys and gals. i'm kicking my own ass every day over this al thing and i wouldn't even have a prayer -or i'd be hard pressed to find one- if i didn't have this place to come to and connect and feel lilke i'm not alone in my struggle.

yes, you can hire me full time, absolutely. that would be a dream for sure, a dream i've dreamt but not dared to live. but until we get to mexico, please stay with me here. i need you.

please say more about your al journey, when you feel to. pm me if you prefer. it's not going well for me, either. but i feel there is an end in sight. i'm relying totally on bac to come to the rescue, cause i ain't got much motivation for any other recourse at the mo'. but bit by bit i'm hedging myself toward taking more responsibility for my condition, and rooting around for ways to help myself. worked in the garden today, instead of getting drunk. that was a start.

i don't think i have ptsd. not from nine eleven anyway. but maybe from childhood or divorce or feelings of being a bad mom. (but that last mention would not be 'post', alas. it's still current.) that day in brooklyn was, as i said, surreal, but it didn't hit deep. dare i admit that?! i was fortunate not to have known anybody directly affected, except everybody around me, durr, like the best friend who smelled the horror as she rode the a train up to work, past the rubble and death whose smell and sights lingered for weeks and weeks. maybe i underestimate the effects of that experience...

bruun, thanks for all you put here, for me and others to read. maybe it seems like the energy for this stuff is lagging, maybe sometimes it's crappy negative. but know that it does help people to read what you've written. it has helped me so much. puts a bit of air in my step, if i may be so corny, and gives me something to laugh about when i tear myself away from my computer. you all are so funny. and wise. and you're doing a lot by letting yourselves be known here. thank you thank you thank you.

see you in mexico. we'll give the cartels a run for their money.
xoxo rudy

[Evey]

Bruun's Titting UP

Hi Brun,

I really enjoy reading your posts. I never add anything because I don't feel that I have anything to contribute. You are very witty and have a great writing style (can't think of any other way to describe it, I know it sounds cliche). Just wanted to let you know that you are appreciated.