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[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Congratulations, Bruun! WOOOHOOOO! I hope they just roll on in.
:l

[Bruunhilde]

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AF 2

Thanks for the support, bleep & Ne, it helps, it really does. I struggled a bit yesterday but took some neurontin and went to the dogpark after work, got home around 8 and had dinner. So I bypassed the danger that way.

Guess each day I don't drink I save $10.

[RudyB]

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fuckin rock it, bruun!!!!

love it! af day number TWO! that's twice one. every day could feel like doubling again your chances for the life you dream of. keep it up. keep your dog. eat often and well.

yep, and spend that ten bucks on things you want and deserve. like what? let's see, i'm spending mine on plants, super-nice treat food like seaweed salad and kombucha, shin guards for rowing (the runners for the seat can leave nasty bruises and stains), supplements.

watch that hair flow full, bruun.

xoxo rudy be

[anne1232]

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another plant medicine

Ayahuasca Healing in Peru Written by Kira Salak

They can't synthesize this so one has to actually go to the rain forest. It is cheaper than Ibogaine and quite a drfferent spirit- but you do have to go to Peru. And there's a long waiting list.

Search for her full article ayahuasca+nationalgeographic
It is quite astounding

[anne1232]

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found it

Ayahuasca - National Geographic Adventure Magazine

I read that this article got more reader response than any other article they have ever published.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Wow. Thank you Anne. Wow.

[Bruunhilde]

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Big Day For Bruun - and movie spoiler alert

I just shouted out at the end of this movie, thinking, MONSANTO RANT THREAD! If you haven't seen it, because it has a double meaning for us here on this thread.

First, Liam Neeson the actor died of addiction/overdose right after finishing this film. He was a great actor, and I'm sad. I'm so sad he died of an overdose. One of the great lines in the movie by his costar was "None of that matters now. What matters is what you do NOW." He had just discovered he had been a paid assassin (amnesia due to an accident en route to the killing). THAT resonated with me greatly. I'm not a killer, and even if I was, ITS TRUE. What matters is now and the future, the past does not have to have a grip on me and keep me from being who I should be. If I'm still alive, there is STILL TIME.

Second, today is AF 4 for me. I am an AL Addict. I don't want to die of an overdose. Today I was under the weather, so I went to the farmers market (it's Saturday!) and the dog park then sat around all day on the computer and reading. I'm reading You Can Heal Your Life from 1984 by Louise Haye. She said to look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself "I approve of myself" "I love myself" "My life is full of love and all the things I could dream of" "I am worth of all of the things I have dreamt of" and watch how you react. To repeat and repeat over days and days until you start to feel a change. And that you should do all the usual affirmations and all that stuff - many books say this - all the time. But today, I looked in the mirror AF 4, and I told myself "I am healing" "I am deserving" "I am gaining happiness" "I am distancing myself from the Beast" "I AM DOING THIS" and I believed me.

I think today, I feel for the first time, that I can do this. When I came to MWO, and even last week, I felt lost. Less lost than six months ago, but still not knowing and not wanting to know, if I would fail or succeed. Right now I feel that I can reach balance, that there is a light and the tunnel is the healing part just as much as the AF part. I'm sure this is no news to you all, but it is to me.

I won't make any promises about being perfectly AF, but I have started to take a turn, and I DO DESERVE A BETTER LIFE.

And I believe that.

Love to all, hope to all. Thank you for you all, I love you and I am beginning to truly understand what you do for me. And what we share here.

Now going to copy this to my thread. (Originally posted under Monsanto Rant in Holistic)

[Bruunhilde]

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DUH

Okay, I made a mistake, Liam is still alive lol. I must have had this in my head for a reason. Thanks Liam, you rock!

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Bruunhilde;1144641 wrote:
today is AF 4 for me.
WOOOHOOOO!

Bruunhilde;1144641 wrote:
"I AM DOING THIS" and I believed me.

I believe you too! Rock on sister!

Bruunhilde;1144641 wrote:
I think today, I feel for the first time, that I can do this.

You can do it. Ride the wave for a bit. YOU CAN DO THIS! YOU'VE EARNED IT! Worked hard for it. Keep on going sister!

:l and :h
(I almost put in the disco thing, honestly! :H)

[greeneyes]

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Bruunhilde;1144641 wrote: today, I looked in the mirror AF 4, and I told myself "I am healing" "I am deserving" "I am gaining happiness" "I am distancing myself from the Beast" "I AM DOING THIS" and I believed me.

I love, love LOVE this!!!

[bleep]

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What a great post Bruun! Congratulations on the 4 days as well! Everything seems to bo coming together beautifully, keep it up!

You are healing. You are deserving. You are gaining happiness. You are distancing yourself from the beast. YOU ARE DOING THIS!

[Bruunhilde]

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Thanks Ne, bleep, Green, Reggie,

I felt like a complete idiot after realizing I mixed up actors and movies, I guess it's a side effect of growing up practically in Hollywood -I try to know NOTHING about the stars, and I guess I succeeded. But then I didn't care, because I realized that misconception just fed my revelation.

A year ago, six months ago, I would have said I don't want to live without AL. I don't know what I would have said six weeks or days ago, I was too hungover or drunk.

So it's a milestone and I'm not embarrassed at all because everything else outshines that mistake.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Ah, yes. Mistakes. No one 'round here knows anything about that.
Glad you didn't let it phase you.

Lots of shining coming from your part of the world, Bruun. What're you going to do today?
:h

[Doggygirl]

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YEAH BRUUN!!!!!! I am VERY excited for you. THAT IS ALL. Hang onto that feelin' girl!


:yougo::yougo::yougo::yougo::yougo::yougo:

DG

[ignominious]

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Hi Brunn, nearly 12 hours without an update on this unfolding story! Not to put pressure on you or motivate the twisted devil but hope you're OK and well done on the time AF. Hope I haven't jinxed you by this congratulatory post when all's been silent for a few hours!