Bruun's Titting UP

[Bruunhilde]

Bruun's Titting UP

DG, I'm so sorry for your loss of your little buddy. He's beautiful. I have had to put a cat (my heart) to sleep in '08 and my pup in '10 on xmas eve. Sucky sucky. I get crying hangovers too. I hope you're doing better today. My heart goes out to you!
:l

Yes Murph & Ne, I did go up on bac AND drank a bottle of wine. The previous night I was up all night with insomnia so I took the extra bac to ensure good sleep, and believe you me, I got it. I also had the thought that it might help me to stop having wine the next day. I should have expected the side effects. I went up 10mg but maybe I went up 20 mg because at bedtime I couldn't recall if I had already taken it or not, before the wine, and I didn't feel it so I took it/retook it. So maybe I took 60mg instead of 50mg. Oh well, I learned a lesson, and I couldn't have been too bad because I did great at the presentation. Everybody said so.
Today I'm fine. BP is fine. It would be very low if I was entirely AF, but it IS lower than it was two months ago on the nightly martinis, so maybe I can go up on the bac. I took it that night as a PRN to sleep and to relax since I was worried about not sleeping and having a high profile meeting. I do love the relaxation element bac can have on my usual high strung self.

[bleep]

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Hmmm. Do you think you'll give baclofen another shot, if the BP remains a non-issue?

As it is, the LDB is helping in other areas anyway, so it might be something to consider?

Just something to bear in mind about taking more baclofen - it's take 4 or 5 days for the increase to work it's way properly into your system, so taking a big dose on any night won't do much for that night's consumption. And an increase will only make a difference if you take it consistently. This is why a lot of people report reaching indifference a few days after increasing their dose.

[Bruunhilde]

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Yes, if I continue to fail at AF. Thanks for the info on dosing Bleep. I didn't know that.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Bruunhilde;1158671 wrote: Yes, if I continue to fail at AF. Thanks for the info on dosing Bleep. I didn't know that.

Hey, B. You're not failing at anything. More AF days than ever before, right? Vision, clarity, focus... The knowledge that you want and can do it. Dude. Seriously. If that isn't progress, a distinct kick in the ass for the beast, I don't know what is.

Bac'll always be there. It's a tool. You can do it the way so many of us have, and suffer through all the way up to the stratosphere, or you can keep charting new territory (at least for MWO) and do it Bruunhilde-style. Slow and steady, using all the tools available...
(I dunno if I agree about the several days thing, at least at the lower doses. I do agree with the CW of bumping up with a plan.)

KOKO, Bruun. Seems to me you're doing just fine. Blood pressure is down, health is better, drinks are sparse.
You're focused on the goal, right? Keep kicking ass. It's inspiring!

Love,
Karen

[bleep]

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It's half two in the morning here, so maybe I'm just a bit slow, but what the hell does CW stand for?

And are you disagreeing with me? Really? I'm shocked! Over baclofen? That's all cut and dried, surely you know this? Jeesh.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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bleep;1158920 wrote: It's half two in the morning here, so maybe I'm just a bit slow, but what the hell does CW stand for?

And are you disagreeing with me? Really? I'm shocked! Over baclofen? That's all cut and dried, surely you know this? Jeesh.

I never disagree with you. :H Conventional Wisdom.
go to sleep! ssssssssnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnooooooorrrrrr

[Bruunhilde]

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Thanks Karen,

Yes, you're right, less booze than ever before in my life, but this past week has been more AL than AF and its got me feeling tired and blah. And I'm starting my vacation which has always been difficult for me. Pray for me that I get through the next two days with less than two glasses of wine, because I'll be with people who drink and I have been drinking. Very difficult especially when the wine provides stress relief (I'll be with my parents whom I love but the visit is always difficult). And cocktail hour is a ritual. In fact, my parents were the ones who introduced me to alcohol's pain reduction benefits (cramp relief) and the instant joy I felt the first time they gave me spiked eggnog on xmas eve was a relevation. They should have noticed that I was overly reactive to the AL, I went from moping, whining crampy girl to being high as a kite and loud, laughing, running around stuffing xmas stockings...

Anyways, sorry for the visit to my "first time". More memorable than my other "first time" ...

I have been having a bottle of wine a day for 5 of the last 7 days. I'd say its PMS but I don't know, my cycle has been so f'd up I just don't know what time of the month it really is.

Bleep, I know you can relate.

:H

Will check in when I can but I'll be on my mom's computer and not sure I want her computer recording what I type or read.

Love you guys. :l:l:l Thanks for not writing me off.

[Murphyx]

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Bruunhilde;1159258 wrote:
my cycle has been so f'd up I just don't know what time of the month it really is.

It's August 6th and I'm sorry to hear about your bicycle, perhaps it'll be easy to mend.

[Murphyx]

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Oh God, I've just re-read your post and now I understand. I'm terribly embarrassed.

[SlipperyPete]

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I'll be praying for you B. Did you feel it yet? Good, that was me.

If I were your mom, I wouldn't want anything less than to find on my computer the story of your other first time. So let's hear it.

If you're feeling paranoid afterwards, you can always just burn the computer to the ground.

[RudyB]

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bruun, your first time made me think of mine. i was about six, i suppose, and my parents were having one of their parties, with wine and special pepperidge farm cookies. i was awake late and couldn't sleep. i asked for a taste of dad's wine, cause someone said it would make me feel sleepy. i did'nt like it one bit! i wish that yuck factor had stuck with me. but instead, i tasted beer at 13, and loved the taste, and it didn't make me sleepy! it made me act like you did with the christmas stockings. and led to first-times of the other nature with various boys. ergh, it was a slipperly slope with that beer...

hope it's going well with your folks. and the al. and everything else.

xo ru

[Bruunhilde]

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:bust:

Can baclofen make your boobs more saggy? Maybe its just the annual birthday sag, HELLO ITS MY BIRTHDAY YOU ALL, how come no chocolate and flowers and sex offers? WTF. And here I thought you all loved me.

So, it WAS my bicycle Murph, and last night the tires blew out and today I'm exhausted an my iron is depleted. Thanks for understanding, I can always count on you and your angry vagina to understand me and mine. Mine is very mad today. I'm afraid to bend down for fear it will cause mass hysteria at the store, wouldn't want it to look like a murder scene there. Its bad enough at home alone.

Yes, Murph, that last bit was just me hoping to gross you out personally. Not sure thats possible but you know me, I always try to make you happy.
:l

Visit to folks was actually very good, my mom didn't insist on making me go to the gym or a forced march (she calls it exercise). I did walk my dog so maybe that turned off her March Switch. (not related to a bac switch you pill poppers). (Oh wait I pop mounds of pills too).

Love you guys and girls, thank you for your posts.

[Bruunhilde]

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Oh and Pete, I have my diary from that first time. I wasn't very free in my writing because I was always a bit paranoid that someone would read it someday. Like me or my mom. And be shocked at how stupid I sounded. Now I'm just sad because I didn't feel like I could let it all hang out. Although I'll have find that entry to know for sure. I read it to a friend last year and she said "that's ALL you wrote???" She was shocked. As well she should have been, because I struggled with whether to sex or not due to Catholicism screwing me up real good.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Happy, Happy my friend. I left you a note elsewhere, but wanted to make it official in our home away from home.

:l and :h
K

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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And holy guacamole, please don't tell me bac affects my boobs too. Please. 40+ is hard enough on them. oy.