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    #46
    My Diary (baclofen)

    edostan;1070604 wrote:[list type=decimal][*]Cravings way way up. Have not subsided since my last update.[*]Ability to drink waning. I just can't drink as much as I could before.[*]Sleepiness, comes suddenly, but also goes.[*]Short-term memory problems bordering on severe. Not working this month, so it's not so bad. But I find myself standing in a location (in front of a cabinet, or in the bathroom, for example) thinking "huh? wha?".Short-term memory problems bordering on severe. Not working this month, so it's not so bad. But I find myself standing in a location (in front of a cabinet, or in the bathroom, for example) thinking "huh?, wha?".Insomnia.]
    :H I think I experienced all of these fairly regularly. The craving? That subsided without my noticing. I would humbly suggest looking for it. I think I drank right on through a lot of opportunities to not drink. You don't have that luxury, , thankfully. I'm glad she's back.
    The standing thinking "huh, wha?". Dude, that's just my life. I'm much better now on 220mg of bac than I have been in more than a decade. Now it's actually frustrating when I can't find my coffee/glasses/keys. Before it was just a fact of life.

    edostan;1070604 wrote:
    Emotional. A lot of John Boehner moments. If you aren't American, he is the top Republican * in the lower house of the US congress. He cries in every interview. I listened to a "This American Life" podcast on Monday. Teared up 3 times in about 40 minutes.[/list type=decimal]
    omg. That had me rolling and I'll add it to my repertoire of things that make me smile.

    The last TAL I listened to, and I listened again last night, was DIY about the guy who took it upon himself to learn legalese and save an innocent man from a lifetime of incarceration. That's moving. Maybe even tear-worthy. (tho, ftr, I didn't cry.)
    Love that show. Have you listened to Mothradio? It's newish and AMAZING.

    Glad you're clear/here. Have you thought about what you're going to do if you have to return to work and are still taking high-dose-bac?
    Hope it's a good night!
    :ls
    Important note: I don't like those words very much, either. Somnolence? What the hell is that? (I know, it just means nothing to me.) None of us are doctors, or those that are are unable to be doctors here. We are all playing doctor with exactly one patient. Keep that in mind, folks!

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      #47
      My Diary (baclofen)

      Morning Deva Neva!


      You rock!


      Lady!
      The hardest arithmetic to master is that which enables us to count our blessings.

      *Don't look where you fall, look why you slipped*

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        #48
        My Diary (baclofen)

        Ne/Neva Eva;1071072 wrote: :H
        The last TAL I listened to, and I listened again last night, was DIY about the guy who took it upon himself to learn legalese and save an innocent man from a lifetime of incarceration. That's moving. Maybe even tear-worthy. (tho, ftr, I didn't cry.)
        Love that show. Have you listened to Mothradio? It's newish and AMAZING.
        Yes Ne, that is the episode. Walking down the street sobbing.

        I love The Moth too!
        Stan... Edo Stan... "shaken, not stirred"

        Started baclofen on February 16th. Now at 210mg divided into six doses per day. You do the math.

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          #49
          My Diary (baclofen)

          So do you!
          That's my fave nickname so far. Thanks for the smile!

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            #50
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            Cross post, edo.
            One of the things on my 'do before I die' list is to get Carl Kassell's voice on my home answering machine. (Or rather, my cell phone voicemail.) Do you listen to Wait, Wait too?
            I should've known you'd be an NPR fan...
            xo

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              #51
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              Ne/Neva Eva;1071084 wrote: Cross post, edo.
              One of the things on my 'do before I die' list is to get Carl Kassell's voice on my home answering machine. (Or rather, my cell phone voicemail.) Do you listen to Wait, Wait too?
              I should've known you'd be an NPR fan...
              xo
              Wait wait every week. Terri Gross every day.

              You got me!
              Stan... Edo Stan... "shaken, not stirred"

              Started baclofen on February 16th. Now at 210mg divided into six doses per day. You do the math.

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                #52
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                Aw man, Wait Wait & This American Life are both staples of mine.

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                  #53
                  My Diary (baclofen)

                  hulllooooo!?
                  What's news?
                  (Hi LL. missing you too)

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                    #54
                    My Diary (baclofen)

                    Ne/Neva Eva;1072409 wrote: hulllooooo!?
                    What's news?
                    (Hi LL. missing you too)
                    Hey Ne!

                    Ok, so I've been going up rather quickly, like 20mg every few days. Today was like this:[list type=decimal][*]8:00 40mg[*]12:00 40mg[*]16:00 40mg[*]20:00 40mg[/list type=decimal]When I go up, I put an extra 10mg in the middle two doses.

                    Side effects are:
                    • Sleepiness (not gonna use that other word), occasionally heavyinsomnia -- can't go to bed, but when I do, I can sleepExtreme forgetfulness (almost ate dinner twice tonight)Fuzzy / dopy feeling

                    But, I don't care. None of the SEs are debilitating. And the good effects, smiling at everyone and general lack of anxiety, are continuing. Tokyo is a really crowded city with a lot of beautiful women. I always look, but with baclofen, I find sometimes find myself gasping or saying "wow" out loud. I'm not sure how much noise I'm making because I'm always wearing earbuds. Long story short, riding the train has never been more of an emotional experience. One side note about earbuds - Did you know that just because you are wearing headphones, it doesn't mean that other people can't hear you fart. Just a helpful hint for any other music / podcast addicts.

                    Been back on the Antabuse since Sunday. Will take it till Thursday and then Friday is off in anticipation of my drinking day on Saturday. Taking the Antabuse shut down my cravings for the most part. Purely psychological of course, but it works. I know I can't, so I just don't think about it as much. Craved a little today, but browsing the electronics shop in Akihabara on my way home from work put an end to that.

                    Was pretty productive today (means I didn't sleep in my office). Met with one professor who usually makes me nervous. Today, I just laughed a lot with her and had a nice meeting. Did I mention that I've completely stopped taking Xanax?

                    Overall, very positive. I'm going up (will not say titrate) fast because I'm gonna do the "switch" thing in March, before I have to teach. I'm not however, in a race with Lady Lush (yes I am). It probably wouldn't matter if I taught like this anyway, my students would love it. "Why did the teacher hug me?" Just, I wanna get there in March, and I think I can. I'm so grateful that I haven't been too negatively effected by this stuff. Thank god I don't work with automobiles, patients, or knives (I really feel for you folks). I've got a car, but I rarely need to use it. Drove to Costco this past weekend. It's about a forty minute drive, and I really had to try to focus. My house is baby proofed, so that works out well for me.

                    I love you guys (but not as much as that one girl on the train)

                    ジェフ
                    Stan... Edo Stan... "shaken, not stirred"

                    Started baclofen on February 16th. Now at 210mg divided into six doses per day. You do the math.

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                      #55
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                      I think I know that girl from the train, she is lovely.

                      The unexamined life is not worth living

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                        #56
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                        Go, Edo, Go! Yay!
                        I was in a race with Serenity, (she was still seeking_serenity bac then!) and one other, because Bleep thought he was going to hit the switch before I did. :H (Neither of them knew it, of course! And of course, it doesn't really matter when the roller coaster pulls bac into the station! We're all there waiting and cheering.)

                        And, um, I think I was that girl on the train. Or is that my own bac-brain?
                        Love you guys, too.

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                          #57
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                          You said you were going to have your last antabuse on Thursday in preparation for saturday drinking. That seems a very short time frame to leave between antabuse and booze. Have you tried that before? I always heard it was 14 days although I have heard of people who got away with shorter timeframes than that.Antabuse consumer information from Drugs.com
                          I am a sobriety tart. AA/Smart/RR philosophy, meds/diet/exercise/prayer,rabbbits feet/four leaf clovers/horseshoes. Yes please.I will have them all thank you very much.Bring them on


                          There is no way the bottle is going to be stronger than I am.

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                            #58
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                            coalfire;1072474 wrote: You said you were going to have your last antabuse on Thursday in preparation for saturday drinking. That seems a very short time frame to leave between antabuse and booze. Have you tried that before? I always heard it was 14 days although I have heard of people who got away with shorter timeframes than that.Antabuse consumer information from Drugs.com
                            Done it like that for about 6 months. One day is not enough, I had a histamine / allergic reaction to alcohol. After two days, no problem whatsoever. (For Me)
                            Stan... Edo Stan... "shaken, not stirred"

                            Started baclofen on February 16th. Now at 210mg divided into six doses per day. You do the math.

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                              #59
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                              Ne/Neva Eva;1072461 wrote:
                              And, um, I think I was that girl on the train. Or is that my own bac-brain?
                              Love you guys, too.
                              She jived pretty well with the image I have of you. :h
                              Stan... Edo Stan... "shaken, not stirred"

                              Started baclofen on February 16th. Now at 210mg divided into six doses per day. You do the math.

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                                #60
                                My Diary (baclofen)

                                Murphyx;1072444 wrote: I think I know that girl from the train, she is lovely.
                                We all know that girl Murphy, just not well enough. :upset:
                                Stan... Edo Stan... "shaken, not stirred"

                                Started baclofen on February 16th. Now at 210mg divided into six doses per day. You do the math.

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