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Wowsers, glad you are yours are safe.

[TracyA]

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Jeff, so glad to you are safe! The footage that I saw looked terrifying.

Have a safe and restful night.

[Bruunhilde]

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Thanks for letting us know you're alright, thank goodness for that. I can't imagine what it must be like now, and what that earthquake was like. Sorry about hijacking the thread with talk of muppets and cigars, totally off center. Again, glad to know you and family are okay and safe.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Jeff, I don't know when or even if you will be able to check in here.

I received a package today.

Thank you. You filled my already happy day with profound joy and sincere gratitude.

I hope you and your family and the people of your chosen country are doing as well as can be expected. In my small corner of the world there is a flurry of sentiment being cast to the heavens for a return to peace for you all.

:h and :H my new friend.
Karen

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I'm glad for you Edo I can't even imagine what it must be like over there right now.:l

[TracyA]

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I just read that Japan is bracing for what will be over a 5.0 and likely a 7.0 earthquake and another possible tsunami. This is on top of one nuclear reactor threatening to melt down and another one that could explode.

I can't believe how much this sucks!!!! :upset:

Edo, my thoughts are with you and your family, and the thoughts and prayers of the whole world are with Japan. :l

[redhead77]

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That's horrifying Tracy. Prayers for you Edo and all of Japan.

[edostan]

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Hey All,

A quick note as I probably will be busy this week. We are ok. The aftershocks are continuing, but are getting farther apart. I'm afraid about the nuclear reactors. Apparently, the prevailing winds are out to sea, so if there was a chernobyl type of event, we'd probably be spared, but it is scary. An evacuation of Tokyo would be impossible. Even if it was possible, where would we go? It's a tiny country. Anyway, it won't come to that.

To those of you who have sent emails, I'm sorry that I haven't had a chance to respond. I was trying to spend as much time with my daughter this weekend as possible to help to erase any trauma that she had felt. We went to the park yesterday and she went on the slide a million times and swung on the swing for a long time, then she rode home on Papa's shoulders. Today, we walked to the supermarket together. She is doing fine now. Her 2 1/2 year old mind is quite resilient.

Gotta go, but hopefully will be back on topic (bac and alcohol) soon.

Thank you everyone for your support.

Jeff

[Bruunhilde]

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Edostan, thanks for the update, I know everyone is worried about you & your family, what a great Papa you are! Blessings to you and everyone around you, I pray (in my way) that all are finding each day better and coming together in community to help each other.
:h

[edostan]

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OK, The nukes aren't gonna meltdown. We're ok!! PM me if you wanna talk about quake stuff. I wanna talk about what follows.

So, back on topic!! I've got BIG NEWS on the bac front (i like that).

Drank on Saturday night... a lot. It's understandable under the circumstances. Had every intention of drinking on Sunday night too, but...


Miracle on ドレメ Street

Curtis: You boys could use some churchin' up. Slide on down to the Triple Rock and catch Rev. Cleophus.
Jake: Curtis, I don't need some jive-ass preacher talkin' to me about heaven and hell!
Curtis: Jake...you get wise...you get to church!

There's a Catholic church my street about 100 meters from my house, a relatively rare thing in Japan. Amazing architecture, which is something I love. My family and I go there on Christmas. I'm not catholic, so never go up for communion or the like. I decided to go there on Sunday for the English mass at noon. It seemed like the right thing to do in the wake of the tragic events. I'll go pray for the dead, injured and missing, and give thanks for my family's safety. As many of you will be aware yesterday was the first Sunday of Lent. I was not aware of this until I got the little leaflet at the door. Still didn't know really what that meant. I just knew the expression "to give something up for lent!". Before I even sat down, I had decided that it was alcohol. I was gonna "give it up for lent". I sat down and it started to sink in, I didn't eff'n care! They started their singing and chanting and stuff, and I started to cry. The priest, who was maybe French or Belgian, told some story about a diamond thief, but the story bounced around inside my head and changed to something like this. "To continue to drink now when you no longer need to is selfish and disrespectful to your family, but you don't need to do that, the alcoholism is not yours anymore, if you refuse to claim it, you can leave it here". The diamond thief story was interesting in of itself, but this translation which occurred in my body, I'd say "in my head" but it was more than that, while basically unrelated to the story being told was more real to me than anything I was actually hearing. I knew it to be true. Then people were standing to go up front and have the priests put ashes in the shape of a cross on their foreheads. I joined them, what the priest said was not this, but what I heard as he touched my forehead was "it's over". Walking back to my seat, I knew it was true. I was really starting to cry so I left, and went outside to a corner of the churchyard with benches and ashtrays for smokers. There was a priest sitting there, in all his priestly garb. A guy about my age, we started talking, I kind of expressed what had just happened to me, he said that he had been an alcoholic as well and had quit a long time ago. We talked for what seemed like 10 minutes, but it turns out it was over an hour. That was really interesting as he wasn't a priest at that church, or even catholic, he is ukrainian orthodox, and he doesn't smoke. Why was he sitting there?

I walked home a free man. I truly believe that I'm no longer an alcoholic. Gonna keep going up on baclofen until I'm certain that the actual chemical change has taken place and I have hit the switch. But, in the mean time, I'm finished drinking. No more Antabuse either. Don't need it. I don't know if my recent trauma and adrenaline surge helped prepare my brain to receive this message, and boost the baclofen's effectiveness, but I know that I walked into that building with alcohol on my mind having drunk the night before and walked out with it being the furthest thing from my mind.

Up to 200mg today. I'm still numb from all that has happened, but it is a really nice numbness.

Thanks everybody.:thanks:

ジェフ

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edostan,
welcome back. so happy to hear you and your family are safe.
what a truly inspirational story in such tragic circumstances. I wish you the best in your journey. gratitude

[coalfire]

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Wow Edostan. This is a week in your life that you wont forget in a hurry! What a rollercoaster!

[edostan]

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coalfire;1076094 wrote: Wow Edostan. This is a week in your life that you wont forget in a hurry! What a rollercoaster!

You ain't kidding!

[Murphyx]

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Nice one dude!

Jake: YES!! YES!! JESUS H. TAP-DANCING CHRIST...I HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT!!!

[edostan]

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Murphyx;1076130 wrote: Nice one dude!

Jake: YES!! YES!! JESUS H. TAP-DANCING CHRIST...I HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT!!!

:goodjob:


...like a thief in the night