Sassy, I will most certainly race you. I am at 100 mg because I couldn't follow the titration schedule with my job, and often had to go down because of the SEs. I go up to 120 mg tomorrow. I have now fallen off of Dr L's tit schedule not because I don't believe, but because of life. I have quit my job and I'm not independently wealthy. I only have so much time. I am now going to try to go up by 20 mg every 3 days. I am scared to do that. I am at 100 now and go up tomorrow, but I'm finally starting to feel good again on the 100 mg and now I'm going to throw my body off.
Tracy, I sense that you are losing faith. I think you were on that AA thread for too long. :upset: I tried to go back and read today and again was dismayed. You my friend must be completely and utterly drained. It has a very negative vibe. Not, I hope what Otter was intending.
I am forever trying to understand what the switch means for me. I guess I'll know when I get there. I do not consider having a drink or two to not have met the switch. Quite on the contrary. If bac really is a cure then we should be able to go out and live like normal people. Normal people have small amounts of alcohol in their life.
In my last conversation with Dr L, we talked about what all this means for the rest of my life. We talked about the indifferance part. Whether or not I will ever be able to drink again. He said, I measure success by what society considers normal. Yes, you will be able to have an occasional drink. Normal people do. You may want to order a certain wine with dinner to bring out the taste of the food. That will be okay.
Of course, he says that going under your switch dose for many people, will bring on relapse. So maybe these things are okay if at the switch dose, but become not okay when you start titrating down. I don't know. I'm going to play with it down the road and try to figure it out. At least for me anyway.
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