This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

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This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Shit, that's hectic Longshot. Try as I may the only profession I can come up with is a professional pinball player that needs that sort of timing! What do you do? Air traffic controller?

Either way, wouldn't like that responsibility on high-level baclofen. 10 points.

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24 frames per second? filmwork?

[Murphyx]

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LOL, glad I'm not the only one who Googled 1/24th of a second.

redhead77;1060322 wrote:

Tonight I will keep things simple. Ordered take out for dinner and will just relax. I have to say, when I don't feel like barfing, food tastes really good. And my sense of smell is heightened. And music sounds soooooo good. It's like my sensory system is in overdrive.

Food doesn't taste any better for me, but oddly beer does. My sense of smell is also heightened, which isn't great as it turns out my 2 puppies are stinky little buggers. I haven't tried listening to music since bac; I think my love of music was severely damaged by German Techno. For a few years it seemed like the dog's bollocks to me.:blush:

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first thing that popped in my mind. I used to shoot video and it was 30 fps. but we were always trying to get filmlook. plus the moniker of "longshot".

[Longshot]

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gratitude;1060424 wrote: 24 frames per second? filmwork?

I'm a visual effects editor. There was alot of CGI.


Oh and longshot refers to a minor X-Men character from the 1980s, Its a incredibly obscure nerdy joke between myself and my wife.

[Rusty]

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Hi Red,

I am a redhead as well. Hence, the name Rusty. I took this name because it's the name my first beau gave me.....he had never been with a natural redhead before. It's also the nickname that Elvis Presley gave Ann Margaret when he was "dating" her.

I find that on 90 mg. of Bac, that I was scatterbrained and have trouble concentrating, so I have titrated down to be off of it until after May. I have to study for a career making/breaking exam and I can't afford to feel like I'm not razor sharp.

[beatle]

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ok, so I'm not supposed to be here today because I'm supposed to actually be doing a very important job (takes A LOT of concentration, which is severely impaired atm). But I just have to chip in here and remind people that many have experienced that SEs go down when they go up from the lower numbers to the higher numbers. I have found this myself at much higher numbers. It took me 17 months to figure this -- I went up so slowly because whenever I felt the SEs were too much, I'd back down (although in small increments). For a while, I was studying in an intensive course, and doing ajob that required me to be on my feet (literally) and on my toes (figuratively) and the SEs threatened my ability to both.

Later on, Lo0p ever so carefully suggested that going up faster might actually reduce SEs. Sounded illogical, but hey, he's lo0p, and although I've always considered him a genetic anomaly, and superhuman as well , nobody can deny that he has a lot of experience (both from his own bac journey, and from reading others), and from actually remembering what others have imparted over time (superhuman brain, too -- no smiley here).

So when he suggested this outrageously heretical illogical idea, I decided to go back and re-read back threads/posts. And quite a lot of others had expressed the same thing (maybe hadn't made the connection, but that their SEs abated at higher doses and that they had gone up fairly quickly, compared to Dr. L's protocol -- and what used to be Dr.A's protocol -- there is some confusion as to whether Dr. A has developed a new protocol based on a far quicker titration, however.

Anyway, no time, as I said, just thought sharing this information might help some people-- but remember that meds affect people on a very individual basis-- everyone's chemistry is unique. (Which is why I despise the psychological medical establishment, which, despite their education, and, not least, their experience with patients, seem unable to realize this simple notion -- or more likely they are brainwashed by, and in the pockets of, Big Pharma-- but that's a different thread, and there have been multitudinous posts on that.)

Not even going to go back and read/edit this. Just hope it might be of help to some people. It won't apply to everyone, of course. Just another possible part of the equation to be aware of.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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I am a redhead, but by choice! :H
I'm very flattered by your comments about my thread. Thank you. I hope it's relevant and coherent and not too scary!

Sorry to hijack. But I'm going to anyway.

beatle, my friend, I need a place to find you and respond to you on this forum. You are effing brilliant. Your mind is sorely needed around here, especially by me. You have an inordinant amount of experience, wisdom and knowledge to share. Start a thread already. You can edit away, you can do whatever you want. I don't care.
Your damn pm box is full again, and I hate that people miss out on what you have to say, but also that they can't reach you if they need you.
Sorry, sister. love you and need you and want your thoughts down for posterity.

Sorry again, red. Very excited for you. Love your posts. Won't hijack again. At least before my nap! and ftr, and btw, looooove your signature. This one is indeed saving herself with help from a bunch of good friends.
xo

[beatle]

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I plan to start a thread soon. Never thought it was necessary... just commenting on other's threads, and answering/responding to specific questions or concerns seemed to make sense to me, rather than documenting my own thus-far miserable failure of a journey. I guess I do have a lot of experience and some knowledge, too, but sharing that just seemed more appropriate when and where I perceived I had something to contribute. And, I have certainly made my fair share of threads about my own specific questions/concerns, and personal problems, to which I have always received invaluable advice and compassion/commiseration.

[beatle]

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neva eva;1060523 wrote: I
Sorry to hijack. But I'm going to anyway.

beatle, my friend, I need a place to find you and respond to you on this forum. You are effing brilliant. Your mind is sorely needed around here, especially by me. You have an inordinant amount of experience, wisdom and knowledge to share. Start a thread already. You can edit away, you can do whatever you want. I don't care.
Your damn pm box is full again, and I hate that people miss out on what you have to say, but also that they can't reach you if they need you.
Sorry, sister. love you and need you and want your thoughts down for posterity.

Sorry again, red. Very excited for you. Love your posts. Won't hijack again. At least before my nap! and ftr, and btw, looooove your signature. This one is indeed saving herself with help from a bunch of good friends.
xo
K/Ne

Thank you for your kind words, Nev. But I get at least as much help and information here as I offer.

I do plan to start a thread soon, although I never thought it was necessary... just commenting on other's threads, and answering/responding to specific questions or concerns seemed to make sense to me, rather than documenting my own thus-far miserable failure of a journey. :bang

Sorry again, Red. Love your posts and all the information and personal experience you share.

Back to you, now...

[redhead77]

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I love to wake up and see that all you folks from across the Atlantic have come out to play. I'm feeling good today. Took my first 10mg dose this am. I have still been breaking the doses into 5mg and spacing frequently. Today, I will try 10. I hope I'm not too much of a space case. I have a lot to do today.

UKB- What is piracetam? I have never heard of it. I wonder if one can buy it in the US? I will look it up.

Bleep- Already have phospatidyl serine in my supplement cabinet. I guess I could start taking it.

Prancy- I believe the paperbag princess saved the prince. That is awesome, it offers a feminist ending to the traditional happily ever after. I am in no position to save anyone at the moment. I once saw a girl wearing a tee shirt that had this saying on it. I loved it. I take it to mean that in the end, we can only save ourselves. There will be no prince to come along and rescue us. This has held true so far, and I have kissed my share of frogs. I am going to change my signature to saves, since I am still a work in progress. Thanks for reminding me of that book. I'm going to buy it for my daughter. I hope she will grow up to be independent, and know that the tools lie with in her to make her life the best it can be.

Murph- Beer tastes better now? LOL. I had to google bollocks. I wouldn't do anything that reminded me of dog testicles either!!!

Longshot- I thought you were a nuclear physicist or engineer or something. I could imagine the headlines " BREAKING NEWS! Man on high dose baclofen killed thousands today with a nuclear explosion". Not that I'm trivializing what you do. I know how hard it is to function well on this stuff at work. A job is not optional for most of us.

Rusty- Is it hard not taking it? Are you back to drinking tons? I was wondering because I am not sure what my plan is till mid march when I can take a little time off.

Beatle- I have also read what Loop says regarding titrating up when one experiences SE's. I am honestly trying to follow the tit schedule given to me by the MD. I feel that he is quite persistant that his tit works with the least SE's. As you posted, he feels that it should be no different from H2O. I want to see and let him know if this isn't true for some. I agree in that we are all unique physiologically. If I find down the road that I need to tweak this, I will. For now, I'm going to stay the course.
I wanted to tell you, I am a big supplement junkie too. I started writing an alternative medicine blog last year. I can't tell you the name. It would be a certain end to my anonymity. That ends this with a pressing concern. How do we really stay anonymous on here anyway? I think I'm going to make a few changes.

[Rusty]

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Red,

Am I drinking tons because I'm not on Baclofen? No, I'm abstinent and I'm not struggling with it. A huge motivation is I want to lose 45 pounds before my niece's wedding in June, and AL is empty calories. I changed my routine so that the five o'clock witching hour light wouldn't illuminate in my head. What was the hardest for me to accept was that at age 50and with my metabolism, if I drink at all, I won't lose weight....I don't know why, but this seems to be the case. I was thin for many years and booze in not more important than feeling good about the way I look again.

[Longshot]

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redhead77;1060662 wrote: I
Longshot- I thought you were a nuclear physicist or engineer or something. I could imagine the headlines " BREAKING NEWS! Man on high dose baclofen killed thousands today with a nuclear explosion". Not that I'm trivializing what you do. I know how hard it is to function well on this stuff at work. A job is not optional for most of us.

Trust me with the benefit of hindsight, I can't believe how stressed I got over the work I was doing, and how now I can't believe how stressed I got over such stupid things.


I wanted to tell you, I am a big supplement junkie too. I started writing an alternative medicine blog last year. I can't tell you the name. All my coworkers, friends, and facebook, know about it. It would be the certain end to my anonymity. That ends this with a pressing concern. How do we really stay anonymous on here anyway? I've already divulged too much and may need to delete my first post on this thread. It is just too obvious between the avatar and all I've said not to know who I am. I think I'm going to make a few changes.

Your Avatar will change, but you're right to be concerned. I doubt any co-worker of mine will log on to this board.

You can download something called torbrowser to hide your IP, but maybe edit your posts to disguise a few personal details

[redhead77]

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I did some editing Longshot. I feel better now.

Not to make this a day by day recap of Red's life but I have to vent. I'm a little annoyed at the moment. Today I had an interview for a non alcohol related support group. Yes, they actually interview you and decide if you "would be a good fit for the group". I have been looking for a support group like this for a while. It is not easy to find. When I first called almost a year ago, they were full. Only a certain number of group members can be involved-10 to be exact. I was on a waiting list and 10 months later a spot opened, and I got a call to ask if I would like to interview for the spot. She told me it would take 45 minutes. I was thinking, oh lord, what in hell could they ask that it would take 45 minutes? I've had job interviews shorter than that.

Most of the questions were fine, but then we got to my old favorite. Do you drink alcohol or do any drugs? "Yes, I drink alcohol". How much and how often do you drink? Now the lies are going to have to begin, because I refuse to not get in cause I drink. Especially, because this is a healthy thing to do one evening of the week. My response "I drink 1-2 days a week, and I have 1-2 glasses of wine" (um, yeah like 1-2 bottles 4 days a week). She must have sensed I was lying because she pressed further. Has anyone ever told you, you drink too much? "No, but there was a time, I felt like I drank too much." What did you do she asked. " I went to therapy, and went on antidepressants". She said, so therapy and wellbutrin fixed it? Clearly perplexed. I said it was a slow process but yes, once my depression was treated and my life situation changed, I was able to moderate my drinking. I guess that worked because she dropped it.

I left grateful I can go to this group, but could not help thinking a few things. What the hell is wrong with this society? I am trying to join a support group due to some traumatic events. Events that unfortunately increase the risk of a woman's substance abuse. According to statistics, 5-7 of the ten woman in the group could be abusing one substance or another. I'm going to be shunned due to my life circumstance and that I drink? Could she not just not say that if you come to group intoxicated you will be kicked out? Why do I have to go on with secrets and lies?

I will say that an experience like this would normally have me through the roof with anxiety. I probably would have cancelled the appt, knowing I was doing an interview that wasn't mandatory, to put food on the table. I had no anxiety on the way to the appt. A little anxiety walking in and a pretty moderate amount during the alcohol questions. All in all, it was much less than I would normally have. I know the lack of anxiety had to do with the baclofen. I am sure that I'm seeing positive results in this area. It feels good to be able to go out and act like a normal person without anxiety (what I assume is normal). I didn't even know how much it was crippling me until it was taken away.

[Guest]

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Do you actually know for a fact they wouldn't accept you if you had a drink problem?

Just that often we think it would preclude us from certain things, when actually it certainly wouldn't.