This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Ne/Neva Eva;1198400 wrote: At first I assumed that ifulovelife2 was referring to the amount of bac Red's taking. Now I see that she was talking about the number of posts. Or perhaps the length of them?

Hurry up, will ya?
Well, we can always count on me to try to be consistent, can't we?

RudyB;1198617 wrote: red!


interesting theory about your body; i have the opposite in mind: i think that my body is so responsive to exercise because i was so active as a teen. or is that what you meant?

rudy
I meant my body adjusts to exercise quickly. I think it remembers my athletic youth. Oh, it responds, but I need to change it up. It's not unlike what you do with running, rowing, and snowboarding. Your exercise changes with the seasons.

ifulovelife2;1198669 wrote: Red would have been a Senior Member long ago if she hadn't kept deleting posts, particularly the ones about Rockstardom and Bill Clinton.

Very true, Life Lover. I am making a commitment from here on out, to not delete my posts. There's absolutely no reason for me to feel self conscious. My inner rockstar is still in there and she is strong. I will have to fine suitable ways to channel her. Ones that don't involve Clinton's definition of sex, well at least not with strangers. :H

sjm;1199021 wrote:

Redhead, i am tickled to be here, awaiting the 1M post with the rest of the crowd. An Event on MWO!

I am tickled you're here as well, SJM! But don't go correcting my grammar and spelling. Your red pen might run out of ink! :H Speaking of, I believe I may take a grammar course in the near future. My type A personality does not like having a handicap. I figure if I can kick the sauce, I can certainly try to do something with my dyslexia.

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Well, it?s time. I?m now a real senior member and I?ve found indifference. Sorry to take so long to come back and report (I?m not trying to be a tease, I swear), but I had to be absolutely positive ( I don?t know if anyone?s noticed, but I?m a bit of a perfectionist.) No cravings at all from my standpoint. It doesn?t matter if I?m hungry, angry, lonely, or tired. I?ve felt all of these in this time, and some daily; I still don?t want to drink. It doesn?t matter if I?m stressed out, scared, or overwhelmed; I still don?t want to drink. It doesn?t matter if my kids are driving me loco; I DON'T want to drink.

My stats: I?m 36, as of this month. I?m a critical care RN, and a single mother to three small children. I work in a very busy ICU. I am required to be at peak performance all the time, in my professional life, and in my private life. This was undoubtedly the most difficult thing I?ve ever done. It was also the most important. I am now able to raise my precious children without the crutch and burden of alcohol. My magic number this time was 240 mg.

I say this time, because I started bac in February (I?ve been at this for over 8 months.) I quit my job to do this, the SEs were too much to work with, or so I felt at the low doses. I used a titration of 20 mg every 3 days. I know this wouldn?t be too much for some, but it most certainly was for me. I suffered hallucinations, severe somnolence, major memory problems, and some depression. I can say this (as when I go back and read through my thread, which is so dark and full of despair, that it?s hard to do,) I can absolutely see it. I hit my first switch in April at 200 mg. I remained there for about a month and the SEs did not abate. I ended up coming down fast and furious to find some relief. I ended up craving alcohol and drinking against my will at times (I apologize to you folks who have been here and have heard this story or been with me through this journey, I am rewriting it for the lurkers and others who have just joined us.) I will say all these months on bac have provided me with much less drinking time. If I never found indifference, it still would have been worth it. There is much to be said about the freedom that comes with indifference though. It makes me want to cry tears of joy, and I do.

So, there you have it. I have so much I want to do now that I?ve achieved this. If I can kick this, I can do just about anything. It will be so nice to stop focusing on titration, drinking, all of this, and start to really live life!

Love,

Redhead

[daisy45]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Hi Redhead, I do follow your progress and just wanted to say I am delighted for you. Especially that you have done this while your children are so young.......lots of good memories for them!

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Thank you, Daisy!

[Ne/Neva Eva]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Rock on!

[SlipperyPete]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Red, I had a feeling you'd become a Senior Member today and post your good news, so I woke up extra early just to be one of the first to say congrats.

redhead77;1201079 wrote: If I can kick this, I can do just about anything. It will be so nice to stop focusing on titration, drinking, all of this, and start to really live life!

The miracle of bac

[ifulovelife2]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

You've been through the mill and back more than once. You've had a hell of a bad time doing this. I've watched you suffer and make such sacrifice. But you've stuck it out for your kids and your future. And what a future you all have waiting for you now! Free from the beast. How fucking cool is that?

Red, I've said it before and I'll say it again because I really mean it: you're my hero!:l:h

[Bruunhilde]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Congrats Red, I'm proud of you!

You now have such a great life ahead of you with freedom. Wow.

[LadyLush]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Red,

Yippee! Way to go! Do you plan on staying at 240 for awhile?
I hope all is well and I love your Avatar!


LL:l

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Hi guys/gals/and the chick with a di*k!

Thank you for all the kind words. :l The avatar Luscious, was emailed to me, by none other than the infamous Murph. He emailed me a few avatars after I told him I could be that ugly frog no longer. To answer your question, I have no idea. It kind of depends on a few things. The most important one is my SEs. I still have them. I'm not sure if anyone can be on 240 mg without SEs, when their bodies haven't been taken up higher. They aren't interfering with my day to day activities for the most part. But, I'm having some heavy duty insomnia right now. And maybe to say that I don't drink when I'm hungry wouldn't exactly be accurate. I haven't been hungry. I'm needing to force myself to eat. I'll stay and see if I start to adjust. If not, I'll come down some. I'm pretty certain I can at this dose, and remain indifferent.

[LadyLush]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Wow!

Do you still talk to him? He probably forgot about us.
Out there walking his dogs, stepping in poo, growling at neighbors, and shagging sheep.
Oh well, Pete trys to entertain us but...well, Pete trys to entertain us.

Again, I am glad for you Red. Our kids are so important and we (I) forget how vulnerable they really are in the scheme of things. Life is good! It is what we make it and you have just made yours wonderful! :thumbs:

Is it Brenda or Brendan?


LL:l

[ifulovelife2]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Lushy, It's Brenda. But I do have a bit of Brendan in me. I'll let you use your imagination as to which bit.

[LadyLush]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Brenda-n
You're so silly!:bigwink:

Really though. Are you still on Bac or did you wean down or off of it? What did you do for the restless nights and somnolence? Caffeine just doesn't do it like it has in the past.

And Red instead of chick with di*ck maybe we can say gal with pal!

Gotta get ready for the tricksters; wait till the brats see I already ate all the chocolate!:ey:


LL:l

[Lo0p]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Congrats Red. And :goodjob:! Well deserved!

I kind of like your idea of going higher and coming back down. Might be a solution to the SE problem. Plus, as a side benefit, I've noticed that when I titrate higher, beyond indifference, I experience an absolute revulsion to the thought of consuming anything alcoholic. And it sticks with you when you come back down.

[Bruunhilde]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Lushy, you crack me up, I was just at the store and for the first time ever, got super cheap at the candy aisle and got pops, 300ct. Usually I buy tons of stuff at Costco and eat all the good ones (Million Dollar Bars!) and this time I didn't (but I gained all the weight anyways).

The kids have been so greedy each time that I have to hand out each treat or they do a Super Grab with both hands -or if I tell them one only, they take super long deciding and I'm just not that loving. Except for the super tinytots, they can have it all as far as I'm concerned.

Tonight I'm actually contemplating putting the pops in the pumpkin plastic head out by the front door and going extra Scrooge on'em.